You rang on my doorbell in the afternoon

While I was still lazing around the apartment,

Buzzing from the high you gave me last night.

I’ve never felt so contented to just cuddle with someone,

Someone who is technically a stranger.

You’ve brought cake over.

Baked it yourself, you say.

I’m gonna be in deep , I think.

You took out the plates and forks from my kitchen cabinet,

Like you know where everything is placed,

Like this is your home.

Which, I hope it is,

Someday.

You smile at me and try to feed me some cake.

I reluctantly take a bite and gave a forced smile.

The cake tastes delicious,

But the nausea comes rushing back again.

Keep it down,

Kibum,

Keep it down.

It’s just a bit of cake.

Cake that has lots of calories

And will make you fat.

Fat like you used to be.

I swallow and you come at me again with the fork.

I hesitated before opening my mouth and taking a bite.

You must have seen the expression on my face

Cause you ask,

“Why? Does it taste horrible?”

I see those puppy eyes of yours right in front of me again

And I can’t resist.

I can’t resist you.

But I also can’t resist the nausea.

I excused myself with the excuse that I needed to pee,

But really,

I just turn on the tap and puked.

I hope the sound of the rushing tap water muffled the sounds of my puking.

I don’t want you to see me like this.

I don’t want you to hate me.

The bathroom door slams open and you’re instantly by my side,

Rubbing soothing circles on my back,

Like that first time.

Our first time.

“Don't look at me.

Everyday is so wonderful
Then suddenly
It's hard to breathe
Now and then I get insecure
From all the pain
I'm so ashamed”

“Did my cake really taste that bad?

You could’ve just said so, you know.”

You say and I feel bad.

It’s not your cake,

It’s not you,

It’s me.

It’s all me,

With my issues and problems,

And you needn’t be dragged into this.

“No, no. It’s not your cake.

Your cake tastes perfectly fine.”

I say and smile at you.

“Then what is it?

Are you sick?”

You ask and the concern somehow pains me to the core.

Don’t you see that I’m not worth it?

I’m not worth your time and effort.

I’m not worth you.

“I’m fine.”

I say,

Getting up to wash my face and clean myself.

The second I’m done,

I’m shoved against the wall.

“Key, when was the last time you’ve eaten?”

There’s intensity in your eyes that I haven’t seen before.

I try to think.

I really want to give you an answer,

But I can’t.

Because I really can’t remember the last time I’ve eaten properly.

You slowly lifted my shirt and I know what you see.

Fats, fats, and more fats.

You lightly finger my ribcage and I flinch.

“Don’t look.”

I plead softly.

“Why, baby, why?

Why are you doing this to yourself?”

Your voice goes from gentle to angry, then gentle again.

You cup my face in your hands and force me to look at you.

“Why not?”

I ask you.

Why not?

I’m already ugly and imperfect;

There’s nothing else I can do, right?

You let go of me and I slide down the wall and onto the floor.

In a second,

You’re right there next to me, cradling me in your arms.

You’re crying.

Why are you crying?

“You're beautiful
No matter what they say
Words can't bring you down
Oh no
You're beautiful
In every single way
Yes words can't bring you down”

I don’t know when or why,

But you just started singing.

And I don’t hate it at all.

In fact, I love it.

We sit there on the cold bathroom floor,

But I feel warmer than I’ve felt in months.

You plant gentle kisses on the back of my neck,

Whispering “You’re beautiful.” Again and again.

I’m beautiful?

No, you are.

You’re the most beautiful thing that has ever happened to me.

You’ll stay,

Won’t you?

You won’t hurt me like the others did, right?

Please?

A/N : 

So Jjong knows about Key's condition now! :D

..It's all so fluffy and lovely dovey now, huh? (':

It's going to be like that for a while then

BAM! I'll figure out some angst to add in here.

I've only used one song for this chapter,

It's 'Beautiful' by Christina Anguilera.

It's a really popular song so I doubt you guys haven't heard of it before.

As usual, leave me comments! :D

I get really un-motivated when I don't see any comments :X

P/S. Shoutout to all the people that have commented, 

THANK YOU. 

Reading your comments always make my day <3