“I don’t wanna be in love alone
Wanna give you my heart
But you can’t be playing cause
I don`t wanna be in love alone
See me falling, yeah but I can`t be the only one.”

I groaned and d for my phone in the dark.

I pressed it to my ear and mumbled a “hello?”

“Yah, meet me at our usual place at 7pm.

No excuses, okay? I haven’t seen you in forever.

I miss you and I want to meet up.”

Minho.

His deep voice is instantly recognizable.

In a way, it’s nice to wake up to a friend’s phone call,

But then again…

“Yah! Minho! Do you know what time it is?!

Why the heck are you calling me this early?!”

I half yelled, half groaned down the phone to him.

“It’s not early! It’s 2pm already, what are you talking about?

Wait a second. Did you just wake up to my phone call?!”

I opened my eyes in shock and glanced at the clock.

“Yeah yeah okay see you later.”

I hung up on Minho nagging me about sleeping too much and rolled over,

Going off to dreamland hoping that maybe,

Dreams come true in dreamland.

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I wake up at exactly 6.30pm,

Got dressed and headed out to meet Minho.

I sat down across from him and gave him a small smile.

“I’ve already ordered our usual.”

He informs me and I gave a small nod.

I feel nauseous thinking about the food I’m about to eat,

But I force it down and try to focus on what Minho is saying.

“…how are you lately? Taemin and I are really worried about you, you know?”

I smiled and replied an “I’m fine.”

Minho didn’t look like he believed me though.

The food arrived and I stare at the plate,

The familiar feeling of nausea rising in me,

Threatening to spill over and swallow me up.

Minho looked at me closely.

I could tell he tried not to stare,

But it’s too obvious.

I see concern in his eyes and a bit of suspicion;

He suspects what I’m afraid to admit,

What I’m afraid is happening to me.

Just eat it.

Just eat it, Kibum,

Just eat it.

I gingerly put some food in my mouth,

Feeling horrible.

I know that after this,

I’m going to put on so much weight.

I don’t want to go back to the way I was;

I don’t want to go back to being teased for my weight;

I don’t want to be that fat kid that nobody wanted to be friends with.

I excused myself and tried to walk as normally as possible to the washroom.

The moment I stepped into the stall,

I threw up.

I puked everything out even though I’ve only barely touched my food.

Somehow I didn’t notice that someone had been gently rubbing soothing circles on my back.

When I was done puking,

That soothing feeling took over me and I calmed down.

It’s going to be okay,

I’m going to be okay.

“Are you okay?”

I heard the softest voice ask.

That question was laced with so much concern.

I turn around and walked to the sink,

Cleaning my mouth and washing my face.

“Yeah, I’m fine.”

I answer softly.

“Are you sure? Are you here alone?

Let me at least see you back to your friend or something.”

I stare at your reflection in the mirror.

You come closer until you're right behind me.

I’m still mesmerized by those eyes of yours,

That perfect jaw line, those lips,

That mouth that I know can create the most beautiful smile.

You reach up to my face and lightly brushed my fringe out of my face.

You traced a finger down my cheek and I almost shiver but stop myself just in time.

That look in your eyes;

I know it was there but it was gone before I could catch hold of it,

Before I could catch hold of it and make it stay;

Before I can catch hold of you and make you stay.

I turn to head out the door,

But you caught hold of my wrist and held me there for a while.

Nothing has kept me down like that before.

You smile and come over,

Putting an arm around my waist,

Supporting me even though I don’t need support.

You’re supporting my soul, my heart, my mind,

It feels so perfect and right I could die right in that moment.

You walked with me into the restaurant again and I guide you to Minho.

Once you saw Minho though, your arm left my waist and your body tensed up.

Minho stood up and held out his hand,

Apparently ready to meet a friend of mine.

How do I introduce you guys to each other?

You’re nothing but a stranger in reality,

Even though I know we both feel so much more.

At least I hope you feel the same.

“Heart racing, it’s amazing
The way you got me off on my game
No secret, Imma go head and say it
Ya lovin’ got me feeling this way (yeah, yeah)
If it’s an illusion
I need you to tell me now
No room for confusion
I need you to let it out!”

“Hi, I’m Minho.”

You shook his hand

(Which I noticed that you grasped tighter than you had to)

And said,

“Hi, I’m Jonghyun.”

Jonghyun?

Jonghyun.

Jonghyun.

Jonghyun.

After that left your lips,

It repeats itself like a mantra in my head.

It sounds perfect.

Minho looked at me and I must have looked pale,

As he asked you what happened.

You explain to him and I notice the tone of your voice.

The concern is gone, the gentleness is gone,

Jealousy, anger and frustration now in place.

I silently smiled.

What are you jealous about?

“Jonghyun, Minho’s my high school friend.”

I say, smiling at him.

You let a smile light up your face for a second before wiping it off.

Why didn’t you let it stay?

I haven’t seen something that beautiful in a while.

Minho laughed.

“You thought that I’m his boyfriend?

Sorry, dude, but I already have one.”

Your eyes sparkled and shined;

I can see the laughter in your eyes.

Wouldn’t it be wonderful if I could put a smile on your face?

Wouldn’t it be beautiful if I could hear you laugh, because I made you?

You left,

But not before asking for my number.

“You’re into him, huh?

Well I can see that he’s into you too.

Funny story though, meeting in the toilet.

How was your first impression?”

Minho chuckled.

I laughed along,

But more because thinking about you just sent that warm, fuzzy feeling through me.

Minho didn’t even notice that I hadn’t touched my food after he met you.

Tomorrow,

I promised myself.

I’ll eat a proper meal tomorrow.

I drove home and back to the lonely, empty apartment.

This drives me nuts.

Loneliness.

“Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely”

I drift off to sleep that night listening to music as usual.

This time though, I didn’t cry myself to sleep.

Thoughts of you coiled around my mind,

Like fast-spreading poison,

I can’t fight it,

In fact I quite like it.

I quite like you.

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Right.

So for the songs-

First and second is 'Love Again' by miss A

(I love that song so freaking much at the moment)

Third (and last) is Lonely by 2NE1 

(which is kinda obvious lol :P)