I was silent the whole ride home after we finally finished our schedule for the day. Thank goodness we have the day to ourselves tomorrow. I just want to lock myself up in my room and ignore the world. I'll be home alone most of the day anyways because most of the kids have their own plans.

       “Hwitaek” I looked up seeing that my manager had called my name. He tilted his head a few times to the right. I was the only one left in our van and that was his own way of saying ‘Get the heck out’

     I made my way to the dorm and I couldn't help but just stand in front of the entrance. Contemplating my own death. Sad, I know. It's just that I felt like I was going to throw up if Hyojong found out. Curtsy of Hongseok almost throwing me under the bus. I'm going to go in now, I said to myself again for the tenth time but my body didn't move an inch. I sighed just as the door opened. My heart almost stopped and Hongseok was just as surprised as I was.

     “Oh my” He said as he grabbed into his shirt.

     “Wait a moment,” I hissed putting my hands on both sides of the doorway “where are you going?”

     “Out” Hongseok sassed and easily removed my hand from one side of the doorway.

     “Excuse me!” I retaliated trying to grab onto him even though his strength surpassed mine by a lot.

     “I'm going to see Jinho because at least you share a dorm with Hyojong” He said as he escaped from me.

      I see if we got into my room without anyone seeing me. I collapsed to the floor as soon as I shut my door behind me. There was this heavy pressure near my temple and it created the worst headache I've ever had. It was quiet for about a good solid ten minutes. Until I heard Shinwon screaming, I really tried to ignore it. Then Hyunggu started going off as well. I swear to God if someone isn't dying then I will kill them myself. I reached up to use my doorknob as a crutch to pull myself off the ground and as soon as I stood up the screaming paused only for a few moments. I could tell by his high-pitched screeching, that this time it was Hyojong.

     The last time this happened our neighbors complained about all the noise that came out of the dorm that day. They thought we were trying to kill each other and that time it was all over a little spider. So thus I opened my door to go investigate what ever this is issue over. Out of all the possibilities I had thought of in my head, all of the screaming was all over a game of Mario kart. Seriously. I felt like I could smash all of their heads together. I couldn't help but stand and watch them play their game in shock.

       “Quiet down please” I said in an annoyed tone. The three of them shifted their bodies around to look at me. Then ignoring what I had just said, they hit unpause and continued on with their game.

      My head began to throb worse than before. So I close my eyes and let out a painful sigh. I gave up and went back to seclude myself away from everyone. Which only lasted for about an hour of me tossing and turning in a pitch-black room, and attempting to sleep off my headache from the depths of hell. I get more anxious about the ‘what if’s’ which is what kept me awake.

     I curled up to the corner of my bed, pulling my blanket over my head and then covered my face with my hands. Physically I was tried but my brain wouldn't stop over thinking literally everything, it would keep me up for hours on end with little to no sleep.

     Just as I thought I was falling asleep, I heard a few knocks and the door creak open. Fr