I felt as if I was at the brink of suffocation and the worst part it was all because of him. Whenever he was in the same room with me or everytime we would have random conversations that ended up meaning so much to me. It was a type of torture that I had to endure because he is my friend.

    Fortunately, he's really oblivious to everything. He's a good natured person that's for sure, although he can be rather dense at times. If I'm being completely honest, I’ve wanted to punch him in the face on more than one occasion.  

    I was snapped out of my thoughts by a tap on the shoulder, Mentally cursing, I turned to see who it was. An apologetic smile crossed my face and a sigh of relief to see that it was Changgu. I usually called him over whenever i started to feel overwhelmed. The both of us would vent for a couple of hours. He was always helping me and he had it much worse considering he shares a room with Yanan.

    “You called me over, so what’s up?” Changgu questioned as he tilted his head. My heart jumped a little as I saw Hyojong appear behind Changgu looking directly at me. I started to panic so I latched onto Changgu’s hand.

    “Hwi, Hwi” Hyojong uttered cutely with his eyes still on me. I swallowed the bit of saliva that I had built up, which it felt like I swallowing a handful of sand.

“Yes” I murmured while Changgu tightened his grip on my hand  before letting go and Hyojong’s eyes flickered.

“You know what, nevermind” he replied emptily and disappeared into his room.

I looked over to Changgu confused but slightly relieved because my heart felt as if it was going to burst any second when he was around.

“Tsk tsk tsk” Both Changgu and I scanned the area to see who it was that tsked at us.

    “What” Changgu blurted out raising an eyebrow at Hongseok. All Hongseok did was shrug his shoulders and headed back into the kitchen.

    As I closed the door to my room and leaned up against it, Changgu made himself at home by getting into my secret stash of goodies and sprawling out all over my bed.

    “Why am I like this?” I made a weird face while I stared at Changgu opening the last bag of my favourite chips.

    “Well the face you just made makes you look a bit constipated” Changgu said while grabbing another chip out of the bag and shoved it into his mouth. I instantly ignored his stupid remark.

    “How’s your situation”  I asked curiously and the drama queen fell over.

    “Exhausting” he started to pout “I just want to jump his bones but he’s too pure for me to do something like that” then he started to kick out his legs as if he was having a temper tantrum.

    “I definitely did not need to know how you want to jump his bones or whatever that means” I said sarcastically while walking over to my bed and sat on the edge.

    “You!” Changgu stood up practically shouting and pointing his finger at me, my eyes widened pulling at his pant leg.

    “Changgu, oh my god!” I said putting my index finger to my mouth to quiet him down.

    “Oh” He expressed while sitting down crossed legged “I treat Yanan the same as I used to before I realised that I had feelings for him. I know it’s hard but don’t run away from him. Hyojong is still your friend whether you like him or not” Changgu’s voice cracked near the end.

    “Wow I’m a coward.” I said and my eyes began to water.

    “You’re not. I pushed Yanan away up until I knew I couldn’t  run away any further because I didn’t want to hurt him and he’s my precious friend” Changgu put on a sad smile that quickly vanished.

“I’m sorry Changgu, you’ve gone through this longer then me and I can’t do anything to help you”  a tear ran down my cheek as I stared right at