I'm just a horrible person. Yeah, that's it. I'm not some beautiful smart girl. I'm ugly. Stupid. Mean.

I'm a sadist, that's all. 

I like to see people sad. But it's not the same when it's seriously sad. I do it for fun. So when people are sad for me or because of me...Then I feel ty.

Seriously, when can I just kill myself?

I'm serious.

I have my showcase tomorrow...I was planning on doing suicide that day.

Now I'm thinking of not to. Good right?

But I'm tired.

Throwing up isn't fun. But hey, I'm loosing weight! :D

And Junyoung.

I'm sorry for wasting your time. Sending you these tweets, fanmail, messages. Forget me. If you know about my existence. If you don't know me what-so-ever, continue it please. I'm giving up on you.

My real crush on you is gone. To think that I fell for you legitly, and I don't even know you in person. Maybe it is just looks...But to be honest, I don't care about your looks. I want to like you for who you are. If I ever met you, I would try my best to win your heart.

But that will never happen.

I'm being realistic. I'm not playing a game with my own heart.

So goodbye Junyoung. I'm sorry I can't live in this fantasy world.

Love always, From,

Kristine.