Dear Junyoung,

You know when you do something really stupid as a joke, and everyone laughs? How the feeling is happy, because you were able to make someone smile? I like that feeling...But now, I don't know if I do anymore.

I did something for Nana to make her smile. I did a fake marriage contract of her and her crush. She did smile and she did laugh. But then she said "Do you even have a life? You're so bored!" And I laughed, because, I was bored.

But then I started thinking...

Do I have a life?

Why do I make people smile? Why do I want them to smile? Is it so they can't find out that I'm sad?

What if I am mental? I know I'm not disabled...But I am a bit crazy, right?

Doing these letters to you...Is it crazy or not? Because it seems like it is...I...

I'm crazy.

Kristine