Trouble XVII
In trouble with you
A.N: This chapter wasn't beta-read.
Kim Kibum
Kibum always checked his appearance in the mirror of the elevator or any mirror he passed by. It was a habit he caught since he was a teenager and his looks started to have more importance. Not only because he wanted to make an impression on the other girls but also in Soomi. That's also when he started to like fashion and desired to dye his hair blonde which he did later on. Maybe he was vain but the fact that he took good care of his body turned him into a healthy and confident man.
He was tired after spending the night at Hyorin’s place. After they had he barely slept thinking about his conversation with Soomi. It only made the hole in his heart deepen and sometimes he wondered what he was doing and if it the right decision was only to just give up in any relationship and keep having with her. He would be happier for sure but the risk of losing her was bigger too.
The elevator opened and he stepped outside but immediately froze. Soomi was at the door of their apartment only wearing black shorts and a thin dark blue top - her pajamas - and Cheon Soo was in front of her with a very satisfied smile and the look of a guy who had . Kibum grasped his phone on his hand and watched the scene in a mix of disgust, frustration, and anger. It wasn't something that didn't cross his mind but still knowing that they had and he slept holding her made him furious.
They kissed and she pushed him away softly. After a few whispers, Cheon Soo turned around and the couple finally noticed him.
Kibum immediately smiled, and even though he was burning with jealousy he tried to act the best he could. He greeted the couple and then walked by Soomi’s boyfriend and into the apartment without even looking at her. If he did he was sure he would have pulled her into his bedroom and checked her body for any possible trace of that man. Then he would have taken her, rough, he would her…
The dirty thoughts and the violence of the jealousy and passion he felt towards her ashamed him. She was supposed to be like a sister to him, what was he thinking?!
Kibum entered the kitchen where Minho was drinking coffee. He only had to look at him to know what was happening and groaned since he knew what would follow immediately.
Soomi showed up at the door of the kitchen and even though Kibum didn't turn and was busy making coffee for himself he knew she was there.
“Am I safe here?!” Minho mumbled but both ignored him.
“I thought you would have breakfast with your girlfriend,” Soomi observed and Kibum turned to look at her. She was leaning against the doorframe with her arms crossed over her chest and his eyes couldn't help but notice the straps of her bra. It was ok for her to walk around that since Minho wouldn't even look her way. It annoyed him at first but now they were both used to it. Well, he wasn't since it made him have dirty thoughts but Minho didn't even seem to notice. However, it only made Kibum burn more. That guy touched her and took her bra from her. That guy had with her and she let him.
“We were too busy for breakfast!” His voice came out full of bitterness and he regretted it immediately. He was supposed to be pretending to be ok. But she started the teasing first. “Why didn't you invite your boyfriend to have breakfast with us?”
“Well, you know, he was tired. We didn't sleep much and if he wanted to rest he couldn't be around me!”
Minho coughed, choking on a piece of toast and both looked at him. He mumbled a sorry even though he was chuckling to himself.
Kibum was lying. He didn't stay to have breakfast with Hyorin because he was too troubled to think straight, however, he wasn't sure if she was lying. He studied Soomi’s eyes. He knew how she could make love for hours, he knew because they did it before. Their desire for each other was insatiable. Apparently, it wasn't only with him and he got even angrier. He grabbed a cup of coffee and sat beside Minho without a word. Soomi walked to the counter and then turned.
“Can't you even clean after yourselves?” She complained, her eyes bright with anger moving to Kibum. He stared at the counter but the only thing out of place was a dish and it wasn't even his fault.
“Sorry, I'll take care of that as soon as I'm finished,” Minho said ignoring Soomi’s anger and she snarled.
“Guys are pigs!” She grabbed the dish and placed it in its place.
“Why? “ Kibum couldn't help but ask “Did your boyfriend do anything to you?”
Maybe he misread her anger, maybe she was upset at her boyfriend and not them. If that guy hurt her he was going after him.
“He did many things, good ones!” She answered back and Kibum looked away. He could feel Minho’s stare on his face but Kibum drank his coffee instead, burning his tongue. He didn't care anymore.
“Shouldn't you be working?” Minho asked, trying to change the subject. “Isn't the bakery opening today?”
“He was busy ing his girlfriend and forgot!” The venom coming from her words made Kibum turn on his chair. He hated it when she talked like that when she tried to hurt him by being someone she wasn't. She was better than that.
“Don't curse!” He scolded Soomi, his eyes flashing dangerously and she blinked hers a few times, surprised with the hostile way he spoke to her and Kibum’s demeanor changed. He hurt her. She blinked her teary eyes a few more times and turned her back to him pretending to be cleaning something instead.
“Great...” Minho groaned from his seat and Kibum's head hung lower.
“I- I’m going there now. The guy I hired to help was going to open the bakery today.” Kibum explained but no one seemed that interested in it now. He turned a few times to peek at Soomi but she kept quiet preparing her breakfast which only made him feel even worse with regret. Minho groaned again and stared at Kibum and then at Soomi behind Kibum which made him realize that she was now looking at them.
“What?” Kibum asked, fearing what Minho would say but whatever it was it was better than that awful silence.
“What?!” Minho laughed incredulously “Look at yourselves. Pick up a freaking mirror and look at your faces! Jesus! How can you two be so dense? Can't you smell the stinking jealousy in this kitchen? I can barely breathe with it!”
“Jealousy?” Kibum shook his head weakly.
“There is no jealousy!” Soomi said from behind him and Kibum had to close his eyes or he would explode again. Minho was right. He was almost bursting with jealousy. “It’s just Kibum being an !”
He turned around in his chair staring at her but she stared back and this time her eyes didn't have any tears. She was completely recovered from his aggressive scolding and ready to fight.
“That idea is ridiculous!” Kibum said his eyes not leaving Soomi’s. “She can have with whoever she wants!”
“Well same! You can go and fu….sleep with half the population of Seoul. I don't care!” But she cared to not curse in front of him again so maybe she wasn't that recovered yet.
Minho rubbed his hair “I'm going insane with you two!” it was the second time he had a breakdown because of their fights and Kibum looked back at him feeling sorry that he was caught in the middle of his and Soomi’s battles. “Just please stop being blind and have before that passion inside yourselves brings you to hell! Goddammit it!” He stood up after that outburst and left the kitchen leaving both of them alone.
Kibum stared at his coffee mug and after a while, that seemed like long minutes instead, Soomi left the kitchen without a word.
He sighed and rubbed his tired eyes. Would he ever get to have a normal conversation with Soomi again? Did he completely ruin everything the moment he touched her?
Nae Soo Mi
Soomi waved at Cheon Soo from the door of the coffee shop and then went back inside where Chaeri was watching her from behind the counter. Soomi joined her and bent over the counter, bored.
“You don't seem that happy with the visit of your boyfriend.” Chaeri pointed out “When Minho comes I can't stop smiling.” The sweet confession made Soomi grin. Chaeri was falling deeper and deeper for Minho and for what she knew Minho seemed to genuinely like her. She hoped she didn't end up with her heart broken as she did.
Cheon Soo was sweet coming to visit her and they even shared a kiss by the door but it was all a pretense for her. The didn't change anything between them, or if it did it was for worse because now more than ever she wasn't sure she could keep that farce. Her heart belonged to only one, one that didn't want her like that. One that for the first time raised his voice at her to scold her that week. It hurt, not only because it was filled with anger but also because his eyes heated and not from pleasure as they did before. He seemed to truly loathe her and that was the last thing she wanted in her life. He could never ever love her but she could survive with that. Never with hate.
“I don't care if he comes to visit me.” Soomi confessed, “I don't like him.”
“Then why are you dating him?” Chaeri asked perplexed. For someone like her that didn't do things half-hearted, it made no sense why Soomi was with someone she didn't care about. Truly if Minho dared to hurt her friend she would kick his groin.
“I thought that if I did I would forget someone else.” Soomi sighed, moving her fingers over the braid crown she made that morning. “We had and it was alright and he is funny but…” Chaeri was looking at her as if she didn't get it at all and Soomi just gave in “He isn't Kibum!”
Chaeri nodded. She could read her feelings when she witnessed Soomi's breakdown at the party.
“You must tell him.”
“I told you, I can't. He is dating someone else and he is happy. What can I even tell him?!”
“That you love him!”
“I don't...I…” her cheeks felt so hot she was sure her feelings were written in blood all over her face. “I do love him.”
Chaeri smiled and caressed her back “I don't think he is that immune to your charm either.” Soomi studied Chaeri’s face wondering what Minho told her. He certainly didn't tell her about how Kibum and she had a ual relationship. No, he wouldn't. Chaeri was pure and Minho wasn't the gossip kind. Of course, Kibum wasn't immune. He liked to have with her. They connected in bed. Sadly only in that way.
“I can't ruin our friendship.” Soomi said to herself “He doesn't see me like that!”
“Didn't you…” Chaeri blushed and Soomi widened her eyes and grabbed her shoulders. “Did Minho tell you?”
Chaeri panicked a little and looked away “He said you were physically active before. Only that.”
Soomi released her friend since she knew Chaeri didn't like too much physical contact. Her friend didn't seem to know the extent of how physically active they were.
“It was only .” Soomi moved her finger over the counter cleaning a non-existent spot of dirt. “And it was my fault since I started it.”
Chari chuckled, surprising Soomi. “It's not always one-sided.”
“What do you mean?”
“I've never had but…from what I've heard its not like it's only one person willing. If it is then its . Did you him?”
“No, no he wanted it. He even...sometimes…” Soomi bit her lower lip. Chaeri was right, she did start it sometimes but others it was him. Soomi didn’t force him or seduce him into anything. He could have stopped her and yet they kept doing it for a long time. “I did insist on a lot of times.”
“Every time?”
Not every damn time. However, that meant nothing, only that he desired her, and she didn't want only that. She wanted love.
Kim Kibum
Kibum smiled peeking at Minho and Chaeri. They all decided to watch a movie together that night and Minho was kissing Chaeri’s fingers making the girl blush deeply. She didn't like public displays of affection but Minho could be very persistent. He was also gentle with her and was treating her as if she was all he could see, all over her with an arm around her shoulders saying lovely things on her ear. It was freaking adorable and they seemed very much in love. It was so different from the way he treated Soomi or even his girlfriend and Kibum felt guilty. Soomi was the first one to come to his mind again.
He wanted to talk with her that night. She was supposed to be arriving soon and he baked her favorite cupcakes to try and ask her for forgiveness for their last fight. The excuse for that movie night was the successful opening of the bakery. It wasn't a lie, things were going way better than he thought they would at the beginning of a new business. He was getting very popular too and recently a local web magazine wanted to interview him. If his personal life wasn't so messed up he would feel happier.
The door opened and Kibum watched from his spot behind the couch expectantly, however, Soomi did not enter alone and Cheon Soo followed her, their hands linked. Kibum quickly looked away trying to mask his disappointment and feeling like a complete idiot. Why did he even bake the damn cupcakes?
“Oh hey, I hope you don't mind, I invited Cheon Soo.”
“No, not at all.” Kibum said immediately, ignoring the pity look Minho was giving him.
Soomi hopped up to check the cupcakes in the plate over the small table in front of the tv and Kibum watched her expression carefully. She smiled happily and then Cheon Soo grabbed her by her waist and pulled her down on the couch with him. She moved closer to Chaeri and leaned against her and Minho's arm, leaving a space between her and her boyfriend, still not enough in Kibum's opinion. He couldn't stand them if they were going to act lovey-dovey in front of him.
“Where is Hyorin?” Soomi asked, turning to look at him. Something crossed her eyes and he wondered if she was asking more to upset him than anything.
“She was busy. She couldn't come.” He lied, turning around with the excuse to pick up something for them to drink.
Minho followed after him to help but grabbed his arm instead when Kibum opened the fridge.
“You didn't invite her, right?”
Kibum stared at Minho wondering why he could read him so perfectly. They were best friends but still…
“H-how do you know?”
Minho smiled to himself “Just be honest to yourself Kibum. I'm tired of seeing you and Soomi suffer. This relationship you have with Hyorin won't work like the others.” He knew it wouldn't. None could survive the curse but still…. “And hers won't too, Soomi’s I mean. It's fake, it's all fake.”
“What do you mean?” Kibum opened the cabinet over his head to take the glasses out.
Minho rolled his eyes and stared at Kibum “Really? Are you that blind? Can't you see the way she reacts to his touch? Compare it with the way she was all over you when you two were…coupling.”
“Don't put it like that…”
Minho squeezed Kibum’s arm “You know what I mean, you do.” He grabbed the bottles of beer and left the kitchen. Kibum swallowed hard and placed his hands on the cold counter.
It was true how she was all over him when they were having . She used to even sit on his lap forgetting that Minho was around which made him scold them a few times. She would kiss him constantly, hug him, grab his hands and touch him all over. It made him overwhelmed how she needed skinship but he never complained because he loved it. He missed it so much. And now that Minho pointed it out, the image of her pressing herself against Chaeri when she was in Minho's arms made no sense. It was almost as if she was avoiding being close to her boyfriend. It was also true that the first time he saw them holding hands was when they arrived and Soomi quickly released his hand when she saw Kibum. And the only time he saw them share a kiss, and a very short one was in the morning after they had . They had though...right?!
Kibum his lips and his heart started beating faster, a small light of hope flickering. He couldn't, he shouldn't and he was the one who pushed her away but…The idea that maybe she didn't care about her boyfriend made him extremely pleased.
He stepped to the side missing the door of the opening cabinet and hit his head against it. He groaned covering the hurt spot. Not even that could take his happiness away.
Nae Soo Mi
Soomi moved from under her boyfriend's arm and rolled slowly to the floor as silent as she could hoping that he wouldn't wake up. Even though she was wearing one of her childish pajamas of a Doraemon shirt and pants filled with many mini Doraemons he still tried to have with her. She managed to escape from it and after a few caresses he ended up falling asleep. She watched him and once again grimaced over the fact that she felt nothing towards him, not even a small trill of desire or anything. She stepped outside into the living room wanting to drink some water and have some time away from her boyfriend to think.
The movie night was awful. She thought that Kibum’s girlfriend would be there and that was the only reason why she invited Cheon Soo to it. Kibum didn't seem happy with it but he didn't say anything too. Actually, he didn't even speak the whole night watching the movie from his seat with his arms crossed. Minho was all honey with Chaeri caressing her arm and kissing her cheek and holding her hand making her embarrassed about it. That was the only good thing about the night, how they truly seemed happy together. Of course, Cheon Soo also tried to touch her and grab her hand but she moved it away from him trying to not be too obvious about it. Kibum noticed it though as if he was watching her instead of the movie and their eyes met. She couldn't deny how her heart jumped in her chest with need and longing for him. Its been so long since the last time she kissed him and they had . She missed him so much. When the movie ended Minho took Chaeri home and Cheon Soo invited himself to her bedroom in front of Kibum. She felt his eyes on them, waiting for her answer and of course, she said yes trying to make him jealous. Before she closed the door of her bedroom she saw Kibum turn the tv again, his expression unreadable, his eyes cold. If there was someone that could act, that person was him. She always hated how he ignored her after they fought when they were younger. Usually, she managed to break his icy stares by grabbing his hand and kissing his cheek and apologizing. The fact she could make him forgive her for everything spoiled her. And now that she was losing him and she couldn't kiss his cheeks to make it all go away it terrified her.
The tv and the light weren’t on anymore but Kibum was still on the couch laying on his side, his head over a pillow, one of his arms falling on the side of the couch. Minho was probably back and turned off the tv and covered Kibum with a blanket before heading to his bedroom. Soomi stood next to the couch unable to walk any further looking at this sleeping form. Just a few seconds before she looked at Cheon Soo sleeping and she felt nothing but only one glance at Kibum made her heart skip a beat. He looked adorable and yet so manly. She wasn't sure why he was sleeping there and not in his bedroom and a part of her hoped it was because he was jealous and wanted to stay closer to her bedroom. She silently walked barefooted closer to the couch and sunk down to the floor to sit in front of him. He didn't move, still sleeping and she tilted her head admiring him. The faint light coming from outside barely illuminated half his face but it was enough. She memorized all the rest anyway from the nights they shared together. He sighed on his sleep moving slightly and her chest throbbed. There was no one she wanted as much as she wanted him and it hurt so damn much to not be able to touch him. She never thought that a day like that would come, a day when it would physically hurt because she desperately wanted to touch him and couldn't. It was insane and she gasped wanting to cry. Soomi was crazily in love with him, there was no way out and damn it. She wanted to curse out loud and confess her love to him on the spot. Her gasp seemed to wake him up and he moved his head on the pillow and opened his eyes. It took him a few seconds to realize that she was real and was there sitting beside the couch, her face close to his. Kibum parted his lips but didn't say anything probably because he noticed the way her damp eyes stared at his lips. She didn't care anymore if she seemed weak or a nonsense and selfishness filled her. She didn't even care about his girlfriend or anything. If he wanted her she would be his. She moved her hands on the floor and her gaze shifted from his lips to his eyes that were watching her intensely. She leaned closer begging and hoping that he would want her back. Soomi stopped inches from his lips and he slowly sat up on the couch. She observed him from her spot on the floor and her heart broke. Even though he wasn't saying anything he knew she wanted to kiss him and was going to if he didn't move away. That also meant he didn't want it. Soomi quickly stood up and hung her head down ashamed with his rejection but when she was going to run away he grabbed her by her wrist. Her eyes darted up to his and his expression softened, filled with emotion. Was he going to apologize for rejecting her? She was going to tell him that he didn't need to pity her when his fingers moved down from her wrist and slid to her hand, he caressed it softly and then held it firmly. Soomi held her breath wondering what that meant and even though she wanted to ask she didn't say a word. Maybe he wanted to shake her hand in a peace agreement. She didn't understand what was happening.
However, he did not shake her hand, instead he pulled her forward to him and she lost her balance surprised. He grabbed her with his other hand and pulled her into his lap over the couch so she was straddling him. Soomi sunk in a surprised breath not only because she didn't expect that but also because she could feel him hard under her. Was he having a wet dream, more important was she the one in that dream? He wasn't looking at her with desire though, it was something else. When he released her hand and placed his around her waist again she touched his chest and smiled relieved. She wanted that so badly, she didn't care if they didn't have she only wanted to touch him like that. He regarded her studying her amusement and she blushed, unable to control herself. Her heart was going wild and she moved over his lap brushing her lower body over his which made both flinch with pleasure. It wasn't on purpose at all or to and she wanted to explain it to him but he smiled pulling her hair back from her neck. He seemed to know it was an innocent gesture and yet he liked it. His fingers stayed under her hair on her neck that was sweaty and not only from the heat. He inhaled, closing his eyes and she watched how his Adam's apple moved. It was so and they weren't doing anything at all. She moved this time on purpose and he grabbed her waist in a warning gesture and she stopped immediately trying not to move an inch. He opened his eyes again after a while and she watched him curiously. She was feverish and not only from the desire that was waking up inside her but also with love.
“I'm not going to have with you.” he whispered in a warning, his voice rough and unsteady and her expression fell immediately. So that was why he stopped her, why he was closing his eyes, he was trying to control his desire for her. But then why did he pull her to his lap when he was aroused like that? It wasn't her fault.
“A-alright.” She didn't even try to hide how disappointed she was. Soomi made a gesture to stand up from his lap but he held her firmly not allowing it and she stared at him questioning.
“Minho is right.” Kibum mumbled moving his hand under her silly doraemon shirt caressing her under her and she shivered letting her head fall towards him. He rubbed his lips against her hair and she swallowed hard loving the way his fingers made goosebumps in her skin. Minho was right...she wasn't sure what he meant but if Kibum was doing that was because he was testing whatever Minho told him, then she would have to thank him the next day.
She grasped Kibum’s shoulder and traced her way up to his neck so that she could also touch some skin. Kibum panted when his fingers moved up to where her bra was and he found nothing. His breath tickled her neck and then his lips rubbed against her ear making a small cry leave . She was wet already and he barely touched her.
“Did you have with him?” Kibum asked with that low husky voice and she bit her lip and looked at him. Heat danced in his eyes and she was sure he was controlling himself to go against his words and take her.
“No, not tonight.”
Something looking a lot like pain crossed his face and his hand moved down her back and rested at her hip. She regretted what she said but it wasn't a lie.
“Only once.” She said grasping his shirt “I wanted to try and see if I could.”
He raised one eyebrow interested and she touched his neck wanting to bite it and kiss it.
“I hated it.” She confessed. “I wanted you.” he probably would push her away and call her crazy but she was that desperate and it was no lie.
His fingers moved on her hips and she grabbed his shirt. “Did you hear what I said? I don't want another man to touch me or kiss me. I want you, only you.”
He didn't speak but his breathing accelerated and he was looking at her differently almost as if he had reached a conclusion and resigned to it.
“Kibum can't you say something?”
He his lips and she tugged at his shirt again. If he didn't react she would scream at him or punch him or do anything for him to get to his senses. She moved her body over his choosing that option instead but he grabbed her firmly and before she could complain his lips crashed against hers. Her heart skipped a beat and she immediately held his head, sliding her finger in his hair while he kissed her. She wouldn't let go ever, now that he was hers again she wouldn't let him go. Even though it was sudden it wasn't fire it was rather gentle instead and his lips moved against hers in a slow wet motion. It wasn't messy but was filled with longing and desire and she melted completely against his arms making him wrap them around her. He didn't make a gesture to go further than that but she didn't care, it was enough to make her heart fill with hope, enough to satiate her hunger for a while. He cupped her cheeks caressing her softly and both gasped for air kissing slower with more breathing pauses. Their kissing wasn't totally silent with small gasps and smacking sounds and soon the idea that they might be heard made them pull away from each other.
Kibum’s fingers moved down and she closed her eyes, smiling satisfied that her thirst for him was being satiated. He kissed her where his fingers were before and then placed her hands on her hips.
“Sleep in my bedroom.” he asked and she moved over his lap excitedly but he once again placed a hand on her shoulder stopping her. “Alone. I’ll sleep here. I can't let you go back to his side.” His words filled with jealousy were everything she always wanted to hear ever since she started that stupid relationship.
“Oh...And tomorrow I’ll break up with Hyorin.” She was so happy she was sure he could read it in her face. It was selfish of her but she couldn't hide it even if she tried. “I won't touch you anymore until that is settled.”
Soomi nodded. Of course, they both cheated on their partners and Kibum felt awful about it. That was also why he said he wouldn't have with her. She smiled to herself. He wanted her too but he was a gentleman and that was one of the reasons she loved him so much.
“I'll break up with him in the morning.” She would do it then but was cruel to wake him in the middle of the night for that. He wasn't a bad guy after all.
Kibum nodded.
“Does this mean that we…”
Kibum ran his fingers on her hair “It means we are back to get in trouble together.”
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