THE  DAY GOES BY SLOW AT FIRST. I'M GRATEFUL FOR EVERY MOMENT I SPEND WITH HIM, SO IT'S A GOOD THING. JUNGKOOK SHOWS ME AROUND EVERYWHERE. A SURFING MUSEUM, HISTORIC SITES AROUND THE PIER THAT I KNOW I WON'T REMEMBER THE NAMES OF...BUT IT'S OKAY. AS LONG AS I'M WITH HIM, NOTHING ELSE SEEMS TO MATTER.

    JUNGKOOK HOLDS MY HAND WHENEVER WE GO AND I'M HAPPY, BUT STILL CAN'T GET THE WORDS DILLON SAID OUT OF MY HEAD. I DON'T WANT TO HURT JUNGKOOK. AND DILLON'S RIGHT. I WILL HURT HIM WHEN I LEAVE NEXT MONTH. OR THE MONTHS AFTER THAT. WHENEVER MOM'S READY, I GUESS. THE POINT IS, I NEED TO FOCUS ON GETTING OVER JINYOUNG OPPA DEATH. THAT'S THE WHOLE REASON I CAME HERE. HE'D BE DISAPPOINTED  IN ME FOR PUTTING ALL MY EFFORTS INTO A RELATIONSHIP WHEN I'M SUPPOSED TO BE GETTING MYSELF TOGETHER. 

   THE REST OF THE DAY GOES BY IN A BLUR. WE FINALLY EAT AT RUBY'S (A RESTAURANT) FOR DINNER, WHICH IS YUMMY AND AWESOME BECAUSE IT'S SURROUNDED BY WATER AROUND THE PIER. ONCE WE FINISH,  THOUGH, THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE AROUND THE SHOPS AND PIER THAT I START TO FEEL A LITTLE CLAUSTROPHOBIC. JUNGKOOK TAKES ME HOME SO I CAN CHANGE MY CLOTHES INTO SOMETHING MORE COMFORTABLE SINCE HE SAID I MIGHT GET CHILLY WHENEVER WE'RE GOING NEXT. ONCE I'M FRESHENED UP, JUNGKOOK TAKES ME ACROSS THE STREET TO THE BEACH.

   IT'S STILL PRETTY LIGHT OUTSIDE AND I WATCH THE TIDE SLOWLY COME IN AS THE SUN STARTS TO GO DOWN, AND AS USUAL, I SLIP MY SHOES OFF TO WALK IN THE SHALLOW WATER. JUNGKOOK LEADS ME DOWN THE BEACH UNTIL WE REACHED THE SPOT WHERE I FIRST MET HIM. CLOSE TO THE TIDE POOLS.

THERE'S A BLANKET ALREADY SET UP ON THE SAND WITH A PICNIC BASKET SITTING IN THE MIDDLE OF IT. I GLANCE AROUND.OBVIOUSLY SOMEONE WAS JUST HERE. I'M GUESSING YEONSEO HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH IT.

   "YOU LIKE IT?" JUNGKOOK ASK AS WE SIT DOWN.

   "LIKE IT?" I GLANCE AT HIM, TRYING NOT TO CRY. " I LOVE IT. THANK YOU."

   HE SHRUGS AND I SEE A SLIGHT BLUSH HIT HIS CHEEKS. " I JUST WANTED TO DO SOMETHING NICE INSTEAD OF MAKING YOU SURF OR ROLLERBLADE OR DO STUFF YOU DON'T REALLY CARE TO DO."

"YOU HAVEN'T MADE ME DO ANYTHING I DIDN'T WANT TO DO."

HE SMILES AND LEANS BACK ON HIS HAND, HIS LEGS STRETCHED OUT IN FRONT OF HIM. "THE SUNSET IS NICE TONIGHT."

"IT IS,"

WE'RE SITTING CLOSE BUT NOT SUPER CLOSE, AND AS MUCH AS I WANT TO CUDDLE WITH HIM, SOMETHING STOPPING ME.

    STUPID DILLON.

   "YOU'VE BEEN REALLY QUIET TODAY. EVERYTHING OKAY?"

   I TURN TO LOOK AT HIM AND NOD "YEP."

JUNGKOOK