DEAR EUNHA,

THERE WAS A TIME IN MY LIFE WHEN I THOUGHT I HAD IT ALL.CAPTAIN OF BASKETBALL TEAM,A HOT GIRLFRIEND,STRAIGHT A'S AND HOPEFULLY A SCHOLARSHIP TO ONE OF MY TOP CHOICE SCHOOL.

ALL THAT CHANGED WHEN I FOUND OUT I HAD CANCER.I DON'T CARE ABOUT ANY OF THOSE THINGS ANYMORE. I MEAN I STILL LOVE BASKETBALL, BUT KNOWING I'LL NEVER GET TO PLAY IN COLLAGE HAS MADE ME RETHINK THINGS. ALL THOSE THINGS THAT WERE SO IMPORTANT JUST AREN'T ANYMORE.

SINB WAS HERE A FEW MINUTES AGO. I FINALLY TOLD HER HOW I FELT. SHE CRIED. I CRIED. I FEEL LIKE A LOSER RIGHT NOW. I SHOULD TOLD HER YEARS AGO. SHE SHOULD HAVE BEEN MY FIRST KISS SINCE SHE WAS MY FIRST LOVE. BUT SHE SLIPPED AWAY FROM ME A LONG TIME AGO, BECAUSE I WAS TO CHICKEN TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.

EUNHA-YA, IF YOU EVER LOVE SOMEONE,DON'T KEEP IT TO YOURSELF. TELL THEM HOW YOU FEEL, EVEN IF YOU DON'T THINK IT WILL WORK OUT. AT LEAST YOU DID IT, AT LEAST YOU TRIED.

LOVE,JINYOUNG

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I THINK ABOUT JINYOUNG OPPA WORDS. DO I LOVE JUNGKOOK? I CAN'T LOVE TO SOMEONE THAT SOON. LOVE HAPPENS OVER TIME.MONTHS, YEARS. IT'S BEEN A FEW WEEKS. IT'S NOT POSSIBLE TO FEEL THAT MUCH FOR ONE PERSON THAT QUICKLY.

    BUT I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM. I MISS HIM WHEN HE'S NOT AROUND. HE MAKES ME HAPPY. HE MAKES ME FEEL WHOLE AGAIN. MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE I CRAVE CONVERSATION, OR SOMEONE'S TOUCH. I HATE BEING