SLEEPING IN

warnings: pacific rim au, dark themes, minor character death and emo content/references 

There is a rebellion stirring in him today.

Always so volatile and always so explosive. He has known for a while he would have to find another co-pilot. It was something that tasted bitter in his mouth. Ever since Kyungsoo hyung—it hasn’t been the same. It never will be, he knows. He had felt those last minutes with him as he was ripped from the half of the jaeger he controlled. Jongin had felt his fear, tasted his misery, and been so consumed by his pain. It was not even the negative emotions that terrified of the most. But, it was the loss of warmth of the neural connection—it was the deafening silence and numbness as he watched the monster swallow his friend, his brother, his best friend. The type of intimacy and trust it required to be trusted with someone’s mind was not something he was looking forward to.

He had baggage he wanted to be kept hidden and he does not have it in him to experience loss again. The world was falling apart and everyone was dying around him yet Jongin cannot fathom the death of one person who had been near to him. His reputation was no good at the HQ. A hot-headed troublemaker with some serious PSTD. Jongin, in retrospect, knows it’s the truth.

He just does not take too well with it being