DAY 442

9:00 pm

bubbleteaislife: I’ve seen your blog

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: ...

 

bubbleteaislife: you’re lonely again

bubbleteaislife: because no one is chatting you

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: you and Kyungsoo

 

bubbleteaislife: then why are you lonely?

bubbleteaislife: Chanyeol is not chatting you?

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: maybe

 

bubbleteaislife: that should be ‘yes’

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: sorry

 

bubbleteaislife: you’re mad, aren’t you?

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: No

 

bubbleteaislife: oh come on

bubbleteaislife: I can read it in your blog

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: then why are you still asking?

 

bubbleteaislife: I’m just testing if you’re really honest

Seen by byunisbaekkaebsong

 

9:10 pm

bubbleteaislife: you have to face the reality

bubbleteaislife: that he only chats you when he needs you

Seen by byunisbaekkaebsong

 

9:13 pm

byunisbaekkaebsong: Do I still stand a chance?!

byunisbaekkaebsong: Am I so dumb before that I let the chance for us to be together go?

 

bubbleteaislife: I think yes

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: But it’s for my mom

 

bubbleteaislife: Well, it’s your choice

bubbleteaislife: and your decision is to be a child than a lover

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: Am I really late that he fell in love with someone else?

 

bubbleteaislife: Kyungsoo is not just someone else

bubbleteaislife: As I’ve read your blog

bubbleteaislife: Kyungsoo is Chanyeol’s best friend too

bubbleteaislife: He’s not just somebody you are talking about

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: I’m sorry

 

bubbleteaislife: They should be the one who’s saying sorry

 

byunisbaekkaebsong is typing (They don’t know what I’m feeling)

 

9:20 pm

bubbleteaislife: Oh or maybe they don’t know what you are feeling

bubbleteaislife: because you’re thinking that they’ll be happier if they don’t know your feelings

bubbleteaislife: it’s for them

bubbleteaislife: again

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: is that bad?

 

bubbleteaislife: are you already numb?

bubbleteaislife: you have a life Baekhyun

bubbleteaislife: but you’re choosing to ruin it

bubbleteaislife: you’re choosing to kill yourself as you keep on pretending that you are happy for them

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: I’M HAPPY FOR THEM

 

bubbleteaislife: YOU ARE NOT!!!

bubbleteaislife: haven’t you already realized it?

bubbleteaislife: you can’t give what you don’t have

bubbleteaislife: you are not happy, then how can you be happy for them? especially when they are the one who are hurting you

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: they are not the one who’s hurting me

 

bubbleteaislife: then why don’t you just stay away?

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: I tried to

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: but they keep on coming back

 

bubbleteaislife: because they are clueless

bubbleteaislife: think about this

bubbleteaislife: if you are going to tell them the truth, then the end. You will not be hurt anymore, and THEY will be the ones who’ll stay away from you because they know and will understand that you are hurting

bubbleteaislife: I’m telling you

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: But

 

bubbleteaislife: but I can’t

bubbleteaislife: because they’re my best friends

bubbleteaislife: shut the up Baekhyun

 

bubbleteaislife: that’s what they know but they are not your best friends anymore

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: you don’t know what you are saying

 

bubbleteaislife: then what can you say about your blogs?!

bubbleteaislife: your blogs which always say that you wish that Chanyeol could love you

bubbleteaislife: that you wish you were Kyungsoo

bubbleteaislife: that you’re asking them to think of you too

bubbleteaislife: you have a life Baekhyun

bubbleteaislife: and the fact that you are ruining it for those two... You’re really stupid, you’re kind but stupid

 

bubbleteaislife has gone offline . 10:04 pm

 

byunisbaekkaebsong is typing (What can I do?! I love Chanyeol and me keeping the best friend role in his life is the only thing I can do since I can’t hold him, I can’t touch him, or kiss him. Being a stupid advice-giver is the only thing I can do for him)

 

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DAY 442

 

10:30 pm

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: Jongin…

 

kkamjongintohyung: Yeah hyung?

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: Can you scold me too?

 

kkamjongintohyung: huh?

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: an amazing thing happened to me!

byunisbaekkaebsong: a younger just scolded the out of me

byunisbaekkaebsong: just because I love Chanyeol secretly!!

 

kkamjongintohyung: Uhm

kkamjongintohyung: I don’t think I can do that

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: Oh yeah I forgot

byunisbaekkaebsong: Sorry

byunisbaekkaebsong: You hold the same situation as I do

Seen by kkamjongintohyung

 

10:43 pm

byunisbaekkaebsong: Are you doing fine Jongin?

 

kkamjongintohyung: Yeah, I guess

kkamjongintohyung: Thanks for asking

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: I’m sorry

 

kkamjongintohyung: Why?

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: I will tell you something rude

byunisbaekkaebsong: “The cure is to forget”

byunisbaekkaebsong: Forget Kyungsoo, Jongin

 

kkamjongintohyung: Are you drunk?

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: No

byunisbaekkaebsong: I just awoke from a nightmare

byunisbaekkaebsong: I am now in the reality

byunisbaekkaebsong: And this is the only good thing I can do for you

byunisbaekkaebsong: Forget about your feelings towards Kyungsoo

 

kkamjongintohyung: Yeah… I guess

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: You should Jongin

byunisbaekkaebsong: You should

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: As your hyung

byunisbaekkaebsong: I want you to be happy

byunisbaekkaebsong: Because this hyung of yours

byunisbaekkaebsong: hurt so so much

byunisbaekkaebsong: your Baekhyun hyung is in so much pain

byunisbaekkaebsong: because he loves somebody who doesn’t love him

byunisbaekkaebsong: and will never love him back

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: As your hyung

byunisbaekkaebsong: I don’t want you to have the same experience as I am experiencing now

byunisbaekkaebsong: I want to go back

byunisbaekkaebsong: I ing want to go back to what I used to be

byunisbaekkaebsong: To the Byun Baekhyun who doesn’t care about other people other than his mother and best friend

byunisbaekkaebsong: But now, even though how much I try

byunisbaekkaebsong: I ing tried Jongin

byunisbaekkaebsong: I ing tried to forget him

byunisbaekkaebsong: But it’s so hard, I have fallen too deeply

byunisbaekkaebsong: and now it’s suffocating

byunisbaekkaebsong: And I find no light

byunisbaekkaebsong: I cannot go back

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: As your hyung

byunisbaekkaebsong: I want you to go back

byunisbaekkaebsong: Return to what you were before, now that you’re not falling much

byunisbaekkaebsong: I can’t afford to see you being miserable like me

byunisbaekkaebsong: Please Jongin

byunisbaekkaebsong: Forget him

 

kkamjongintohyung: Hyung…

kkamjongintohyung: I will

kkamjongintohyung: I will forget about Kyungsoo

kkamjongintohyung: Can you forget about Chanyeol?

kkamjongintohyung: Try it one more time please

kkamjongintohyung: If you cannot afford to see me hurting like you are now

kkamjongintohyung: I, too

kkamjongintohyung: I won’t let you hurt yourself more

kkamjongintohyung: just for the person who doesn’t even appreciate the things you are doing

kkamjongintohyung: Please let me be your light hyung

kkamjongintohyung: I will save you hyung

 

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DAY 443

 

9:56 pm

byunisbaekkaebsong: I’m sorry Sehun

 

bubbleteaislife: You should be sorry for yourself

 

bubbleteaislife: And I’m not mad

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: Thanks

 

bubbleteaislife: Ah no....

bubbleteaislife: I’m mad

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: That’s why I’m sorry

 

bubbleteaislife: Forgiven

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: hahahaha thanks

 

bubbleteaislife: but look, I’m sorry too

bubbleteaislife: I know what I said is too much

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: No, it’s fine because what you said is true

 

bubbleteaislife: so you’re finally staying away?!

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: huh?

byunisbaekkaebsong: ahhahhaha No

byunisbaekkaebsong: why would I do that?

 

bubbleteaislife: Should I still answer that for you? Dumb

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: Sorry

 

bubbleteaislife: Why don’t you give up?!

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: I gave up!

byunisbaekkaebsong: That’s why I’m just letting them be together

 

bubbleteaislife: then why don’t you give up on hurting yourself

bubbleteaislife: because if I were you I’ll probably be dead

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: Hahahhahah sorry

 

bubbleteaislife: You’re not yet giving up

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: I already given up

 

bubbleteaislife: but just yesterday you even asked me ‘do i still stand a chance’

bubbleteaislife: I know your life Baekhyun

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: sorry

 

bubbleteaislife: and that’s all you can say

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: I don’t know what to say

 

bubbleteaislife: so you’re waiting for the two to break up completely so you can go into the scene

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: what? No!

 

bubbleteaislife: Keep denying!

bubbleteaislife: And don’t tell me that you’re not really stupid

bubbleteaislife: that you keep on doing that because you love him

bubbleteaislife: that you keep on doing these things because you are hoping that he can love you

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: Kyungsoo is my best friend

 

bubbleteaislife: then that doesn’t mean that you didn’t dream of them breaking up completely so you can have a chance towards Chanyeol

 

byunisbaekkaebsong is typing (I respect Kyungsoo so I don--)

 

10:16 pm

bubbleteaislife: If you will say no then you are a liar

bubbleteaislife: even to yourself

bubbleteaislife: you are good, bad, and a stupid person Baekhyunn~

bubbleteaislife: because you keep on doing that so that they could be happy

bubbleteaislife: but you keep on doing that so that Chanyeol won’t forget you

bubbleteaislife: but doing these things just hurt you

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: but I love him

 

bubbleteaislife: then that doesn’t mean you have to kill yourself

bubbleteaislife: why don’t you try dating someone already?!

bubbleteaislife: remember that you also have a life

bubbleteaislife: and they also have

bubbleteaislife: but you’re not in it

bubbleteaislife: A fact is a ing fact

bubbleteaislife: just forgive and give yourself a chance

bubbleteaislife: you say that you are smart then why do you keep on doing the things that hurt you

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: because I love Chanyeol

 

bubbleteaislife: You love yourself too

 

byunisbaekkaebsong is typing (But Chanyeol....)

 

10:31 pm

bubbleteaislife: you know that you are hurting then why don’t you just stop?

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: they are my friends

 

bubbleteaislife: and you are their friends too

 

bubbleteaislife: don’t you think that if they know what you are feeling, they will still do these things that hurt you?

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: No

 

bubbleteaislife: And will they still be happy in their relationship when they will just see you one day, lying dead beside your laptop, committed suicide and murder at the same time, and they learned that they are the ones who hurt you?

bubbleteaislife: just Chanyeol he doesn’t think of you, but do you think Kyungsoo will like it?

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: No

 

bubbleteaislife: So you know the answer, just do it as a best friend

bubbleteaislife: not as his boyfriend’s lover, okay?

 

byunisbaekkaebsong is typing (but I don’t want Chanyeol to stay away from me...)

 

10:40 pm

bubbleteaislife: You don’t stand a chance anymore

bubbleteaislife: and you know that

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: are we friends?

 

byunisbaekkaebsong: your words hurt me, for real!!!

 

bubbleteaislife: because the truth hurts

bubbleteaislife: but if you will accept it and move on

bubbleteaislife: that will only become a memory

bubbleteaislife: And maybe, you just don’t notice

bubbleteaislife: that there is someone else who is always waiting for you

bubbleteaislife: maybe it’s time for you to look at him too

bubbleteaislife: and this time

bubbleteaislife: you two will have your own love story

bubbleteaislife: for him, for you. For the both of you

 

 

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UHM, OKAY. this is soooooo long HAHAHAHA. So just you know guys, I apologize because yeah, maybe this is going way tooooooooooooo slow, so here, Baekhyun's realization over his relationship with the two with the help of our Sehun and Jonginnie. This really should be 3 chapters since I've divided all of it already, but I put it into 1 because yeah, these 3 chapters are just saying 1 thing so this happens.

Anyways, I hope you guys can still wait until our Baekhyun realizes what he will be doing after all these things. And oh-- just to clarify, and not to let you confuse Kyungsoo loves Baekhyun only as a best friend hahaha, that 'for you' is really something but don't mind it. Geurae~ Byeee~ Thank you so much for all the reads, comments, and upvotess!!!

 

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