Six
Unsent Letters6th April 2015
Dear Wonwoo hyung, I think there's something very wrong with me. I've never been so bipolar in my entire life and I feel like a teenage girl on her period right now. The moment I walked through the door and found out you guys threw me a surprise party, I was so happy. But then when I saw you standing at the corner, grinning at me, believe me or not, I had to hold the urge to squeal because that would be embarrassing and of course, I'm a grown man. Or so I like to think. Although we didnt actually talk or anything but your presence was enough to make me smile the entire night.
But that wouldnt be the case anymore because I've been watching you for the past hour and I cant help but notice you're laughing so hard at something Seungcheol hyung said. I mean, not that it matters or anything but remember you used to laugh at my jokes like that? And why does Soonyoung hyung keep touching you? He needs to lay off and where's Seokmin when you need him. And-- oh my god did I just see Hansol kissing your cheek? What the is this ? Someone stop feeding the fetus alcohol. Oh thank goodness Chan got him off you, bless my soul. Junhui hyung keeps teasing me for being a creep and Jihoon hyung's like "aw our little bro is in love" like they need to shut up before I hit them. Or maybe just Junhui hyung because I dont need Jihoon hyung chasing after me with his guitar again. I'm pretty sure I'm burning holes into Jisoo and Junghan hyung's head because they are BLOCKING MY VIEW. WHAT IS WRONG WITH EVERYONE TONIGHT. The night is almost over and everyone's leaving and-- holy are you coming this way? Omg crap, you are, oh are you extending your arms? We're having a stare battle but my fingers are still writing, like is this not cool or what? And why arent you saying anything? Hm well--
ASDGHJKL HYUNG DID WE JUST HUG AND IS THAT A GRIN YOU'RE GIVING ME OH MY GOODNESS MY HEART IS MELTING SOMEONE PLEASE PASS ME AN OXYGEN TANK IM CRYING SO HARD RIGHT NOW. THE HYUNGS ARE JUDGING ME BUT THEM. I CANT EVEN-- GAH ME GOODBYE WORLD MY LIFE IS COMPLETE.
Yours truly, Kim Mingyu.
Wonwoo burst into laughter. He remembers Mingyu glaring at everything while writing on a piece of paper rather angrily that night. The sight confused him because it was his birthday, why was he so angry? But now he understands as he goes into another round of laughter. He had no idea the younger was so happy to see him.
He kinda thinks Mingyu is exaggerating with the oxygen tank though. It was just a hug, what was he so excited and giddy about? But he cant help but grin at the thought of Mingyu getting hyped up because him. Wonwoo never even knew he had that kind of effect on the younger.
13th May 2015
Dear Wonwoo hyung, so we're back to this again huh? Back to being strangers? Back to pretending we dont know each other? Wow, for a moment I thought we were going to be okay. I thought we could work things out. I thought things would be back to normal. But who am I kidding, right? What we're doing is becoming a daily routine. I text you, you ignore. I see you in campus, you bolt the other way. I stare at you, you dont spare me a glance. I pretend everything's okay, you pretend to not know me. But you know what? Despite how much I hate how things have turn out between us, I'm getting used to it. Eventhough I'm still bothered about not having you around, its okay. Maybe you need time on your own.
Yours truly, Kim Mingyu.
26th June 2015
Dear Wonwoo hyung, today I found out you blocked me on social media. I definitely didnt see that coming but seriously? It sort of feels like you're blocking me out of your life too. I mean, obviously you havent been and wont be telling me what's happening in your life which makes social media the only source left for me to know and catch a glimpse of what you've been up to. But no, you just had to block me. I dont know anymore hyung. I dont know whats your motive, at all. I'm clueless. I've been trying to figure out what went wrong. I've been trying to figure you out for the past few months but I just cant reach a conclusion. Please dont shut me out like this and talk to me.
Yours truly, Kim Mingyu.
17th July 2015
Dear Wonwoo hyung, its been a whole year since the first letter I wrote you. Which also means you're a year older now. So... happy birthday hyung! Eventhough Seungcheol hyung would most probably drag all of us out to celebrate your birthday later, you dont have to worry about me being there trying to talk to you because I wont be there tonight. I have a basketball tournament to attend. I'll just get Seokmin to pass my gift to you. I hope you like it though. Its the backpack you really wanted, right? I caught you staring and admiring it a few weeks ago. You havent opened up to me yet but I wont give up! Well, I gotta go get ready for my match now. Happy birthday hyung! I love you alot more than you know.
Yours truly, Kim Mingyu.
Yeah, Wonwoo remembers receiving a backpack from Mingyu for his birthday and if he had to be honest, he wasnt very happy at first. As a university student, Mingyu isnt financially stable. Sure the kid has a part time job but his pay doesnt even surpass 500 dollars and the backpack costs half of his pay. Even with another 250 dollars to spare, he still needs to pay for his daily needs; especially food. Having a big appetite doesnt help much either.
Maybe if Mingyu accepts the monthly cash from his parents, Wonwoo wouldnt have mind so much. But he doesnt and refuse to accept it because; "I want to be independent. I dont want to rely on them anymore. They have already sacrifice so much for me."
But he was also grateful and happy because he had to admit, he really wanted it. And because he wanted Mingyu to know he appreciated the gift, he wrote a note of thanks and told Junghan to pass it to the younger.
Wonwoo smiles at the memory as he leans his back on the headboard. Wonwoo doesnt mind sharing his secrets. In fact, he shares and reveals most of them. But one of the secrets he'll never reveal is;
Mingyu's gifts have been and always be his favourite.
having to know you've been blocked on sosial media by your own best friend kinda especially when they dont tell you anything about their lives anymore. but anyway, i hope y'all enjoy this chapter! and just to make something clear to those who are confused, seokmin is dating soonyoung and junghan is dating jisoo. i dont think its neccasary for me to enlighten y'all about jun, minghao, jihoon and seungcheol because its pretty obvious if you squint hahaha okay well sorry for any misunderstanding hehe :) comments are appreciated!
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