United States. October 2009.

"Great" I muttered while reaching for my car key which apparently found it's way under my bed, I noticed a paper beside it so I picked it up and opened it.

'It's very hard to have a huge crush on someone way way out of your league'.

I laughed, when did I write this?. I put it in my pocket to read the rest later because I don't want to be late for work especially on my last day.

My last day of work at St. Paul's went by fast, it seems that heaven is on my side because there were only few patients in the emergency room so I mostly bonded with my co-workers, they want me to renew my contract but my decision is final. They gave me gifts and bid me goodbye, even the hospital director came by to see me which is a little awkward because I remember rejecting his son just a few months ago. There were hugs and kisses, no crying though, I don't like to cry.

"I'll surely miss you guys too, thank you and I will never forget any of you". I said then left.

I arrived home feeling sIeepy, I put the farewell gifts on my table then remembered the paper I found a while ago, I took it out from my pocket, sat on the couch then started reading:

''It's very hard to have a huge crush on someone way way out of your league. Sigh. He is my dream guy, I know we can never be together, because as I said, he is my 'dream' guy, get it?. D-R-E-A-M, ouch. 

'Out of my league?' Oh yes. For starters, he is a celebrity, very handsome, kind, loves his family and cares for his friends and fans so much; He is brilliant in whatever he does! Name it, whether it's acting, singing, composing, dancing and much more. He is so popular, hell he can just stand still and people; especially women, will be gaping at him. He's perfect, I know right?. And get this, I never even met him. ha. I just spend time searching for things about him on the internet, pathetic?. I know. But that's the way a girly crush goes.

Someday, I hope I can take a picture with him and get his autograph along with the this message I'll ask him to write for me: "From the man out of your league, Kim Jaejoong". Why such message?. I just love the torture, kidding. I just want something memorable and true.'

I put down the letter "No way in hell will I ever let him write that along with his autograph, goodness!" I thought after reading the paper. I mean I know he's out of my league and all good but wow, head over heels much!. I laughed at myself for writing this and for being a crazy fangirl. I must have written this days after I saw him in their Mirotoc MV. Thank God I easily get over things so I'm done with my impossible infatuation for him, I still admire him but it's on a normal level now. I was crazy for him back then, not now though.

I got ready for bed because I have to start arranging the necessary paper soon since my flight is next month.