And she knew no escape

No distance to separate

No time to waste

-

"I love you Taeyeon. I love you so damn much." Jessica helds Taeyeon's gaze with her own eyes reflecting the sincerity and intensity of her words. Time stood still as they stand in each other's embrace that Jessica wishes for the moment to never end.

Jessica's eyes is a mirror of her own heart, filled with so much warmth and love that Taeyeon felt her heart beating irregularly and missing some beats.

But Taeyeon is yet to answer the confession, and with each passing second of silence Jessica grows more anxious. Her fears are starting to rush back in, filling her thoughts with doubts and her courage long gone while her strong facade is melting down.

Taeyeon pushed Jessica just slightly to allow space in between. She quivered a little bit, making sense of what just happened. Jessica loves her, she said she does and Taeyeon should be ecstatic. But she isn't. Confused and afraid, Taeyeon trembled.

"No... no. You don't!" Taeyeon shakes her head furiously, harshly spins out of Jessica's hold and refusing to believe in her words. The words she longed to hear back then, yet doesn't sound right for her to hear.

And time stood still for Jessica the very moment Taeyeon walked out her door in a brisk manner, like she couldn't bear another second to stay by her side. In the defeaning silence of her home Jessica can hear her heart breaking, it's ringing in her ears and pounding in her head.

It wasn't the reaction she was expecting from Taeyeon, but it's the risk she took anyway.

-

Taeyeon locked herself back in her hotel room, head resting on her knees as she hugs herself. Jessica's words keeps on resounding in her thoughts.

"I love you Taeyeon..."

And Taeyeon is afraid that it's only a product of her imagination, or a spur of the moment outburst. She fears everything that comes with such statement. She's been doing so good pretending all is well, but Jessica's words has triggered her inner conflicts, opening her very own Pandora's box.

She doesn't like the growing feeling of being attached to Jessica. She hates the emptiness she is feeling at certain moments, she's losing control and she hates it. Most of all, she's feeling that fear that nearly killed her. Her fear of abandonment.

Taeyeon thought she's in control, that she's going to be fine and she can overcome it. But it only took Jessica to confess for her inner demons to break loose and loom over her once again.

Taeyeon loved deeply and came crashing on a hard fall with scars never healing.

With the inner turmiol she's going through, the sight of her phone lying by the bedside table made her act on impulse booking the earliest flight back to California. Work and promotion be damned she's not s