"I'm stuck between wanting to live and wanting to die."

I’m an introvert and I never liked meeting new people but somehow when you came, it changed and suddenly, I was stuck between wanting to live and wanting to die.

You were always there whenever it felt like the world was against me.

You were there even though I don’t want you to because I don’t want you to see how awful I look like trying to convince myself that everything’s going to be okay.

So I was stuck.

I wanted to die because I’ve had enough of the world around me, I’m tired of living up to people’s expectations. I don’t want to be that girl whom everyone thinks that she can’t do anything right.

But I wanted live.

I wanted to live simply because you were there,

To support me

To hold me

And to love me.

Thank you, Hanbin. For showing me and teaching me how to be strong even when you yourself are facing many difficulties in life. Thank you for listening to me and my endless rants and thank you, for simply loving me the way I am.

I guess saying these words aren’t enough to tell you how thankful I am to all of the things you’ve done for me and saying I love you isn’t enough to show my love for you but you know what?

I’ll try.

I’ll try my best to succeed, I’ll try my best to do everything right not just for everyone but also for myself. For you, I’ll try. I’ll prove to everyone that I’m a talented girl and they wouldn’t be able to bring me down.

I love you Hanbin, I really do and I hope you know that.

-Hayi