The sound and smell from the chicken wake him up, luckily he don’t have any schedule this morning till afternoon, otherwise he will end up get blaming by his manager for sure

“You wake up already son? Go and change dear we waiting for you, we don’t have breakfast together long times ago, hurry go to your room son” his mother said like nothing happen last night but in fast she just want to comforted her son

“Yes mom” he said with a small smile, at least one person in this world not blaming his sin and still supporting him

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“Finish your breakfast and come with me Siwon, I have something to ask you” His father said after he finish his breakfast and went to wait his son in the car

“I’m full mum, thanks for this delicious breakfast, I love you, see you” he give his mom a goodbye kiss and went to his father’s car ,even he only shipped one ship of coffee he feel full, full of thought and lots of image lots of scene that happen yesterday still bothering him

“What did you do yesterday? I mean… to Heechul?” His farther ask after Siwon got in the car and sat on driving sit

“You know everything? Who told you?”

“It’s not important who told me, the important is you did it or not? I just want to hear directly from you” Siwon stated the machine and drive it slowly because he know he don’t have energy to do anything even driving a car is felt so hard for him now

“I can’t believe LOVE makes you blank Siwon” Mr.Choi try to calm himself down and not shout to his son

“…” Siwon don’t say anything cause he know what his father said it’s true, he was blind and still blinding because of this love even he gone crazy now that did something stupid last night

“Said something Siwon, silence is not a solution, and about your problem it’s the last time that I said; it’s not impossible and I also said to Heechul but he so mature even I don’t said anything he know he was wrong but you? Hummm I don’t want to said something bad to you Siwon but you should try to forget him and I still can allow you two to be friend or brother but not Lover”

“Dad… Why I can’t? ... Why…??” He can’t make the proper sentence to ask because his tear almost fall down again

“Stop the car here and you go, I will call the driver” Siwon complied and stop the car on the side of the road

Mr. Choi got out of the car but before he close the car door said “and don’t ask me why, ask yourself and everything will solve” than he close the car door and Siwon continues drive to the Dorm cause he don’t have anything to do to the company today and beside he want to know if his lover Okay or not

The dorm so silent, maybe other members have their own schedule he thought. But 5 minute later the sound of the dorm door open then Kyuhyun and Heechul come in

When their eyes connect the world seem stop for a moment till the maknae try to say something funny but no use, they go in their own world already

“Can I talk to you hyung?” finally he spoke up after a long silent

“I don’t remember I have something to talk with you Siwon” Heechul answer with a not pleased voice

“Please, Hyung… I just want to say apology to…”

“Now I heard your apology so don’t bothering me anymore cause when I see you THE BEST memorize that you give me last night will appear in front of my face again so for these few day don’t show up in front of me if it’s not for work, and let think that I beg you, please” he finished than went outside again. Siwon want to chase him but Kyuhyun don’t let him

“Don’t, Siwon. Don’t do something stupid again, give him time and like he said, just few days it’s not like years”

“Can he forgive me?”

“Don’t ask me, ask yourself and everything will solve” What the world? Why everyone said this words to him?? Who care? All he care now is his lover

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One week passed and Heechul still don’t talk with him and try to run from him as far as possible, but why? Didn’t he said just few days? It’s one week already and he still can’t stay near his lover. It’s not like Heechul want to run from him but other members always blogged him and don’t lets him to have a chance to talk to Heechul. But today he will makes sure that he can talk to his lover once again

“Hyung, Hyung, wait a minute, Heechul hyung???”

“What you want from him Siwon???” Leeteuk can’t shut his mouth anymore so speak up

“I just want to talk to him, hyung”

“But Siwon, you shouldn’t…”

“If you want to talk, Come with me” Heechul said after a short while

“Let me come with you guys then” Leeteuk requested but Heechul denied

 “It’s ok Jongsu, I will be find” and then he got out of the shooting file following by Siwon

“Do you bring your car?”

“Yes, Hyung” He said with a big smile because now he know at least his lover talk with him again

Driving for almost one hour but both still silent after got in the car and only god know where they want to go and when they will talking

“Hyung… about that night…” finally he broke the silent aura but cannot continue more cause of embarrassing

“I mean I’m really sorry, Hyung. I was so regret about what I did back then, I don’t know why I did those terrible things to you…maybe because… because I love you so much and cannot control myself and … and…”

“Stop the car aside” Heechul suddenly said make Siwon frosted

“Hyung I’m sorry if I reminded you that day, I ... I … I mean if you want I will be silent, sorry but…” he shuttered

“I said stop the car aside and I want to see the riverside, ok??”  Heechul statement made Siwon embarrassed but relief

He nodded and parks the car aside along the riverside then both got off the car and Heechul start to walk to the big rock that standing under a big tree

“it’s refresh” Heechul started

“Huh?” 

“The air, I mean here everything so refresh, don’t like our place…it’s dark sometime I can’t breathed” Heechul said but his eyes deepen to the long large river in front of him and continues speak his mind out

“But we have to live in that place not here, even it’s hard but everyone there needs us, Siwon we cannot denied the truth, I know you love me but why don’t we just act like before?! Having you is the big wish I ever wish since I fall for you but if this wish comes true and hurting someone, No!!! That wish better cannot come true”

“…” silent… heechul word deep down to his mind, is hurt but what he said is true but … but in his heart still fighting for this abandon love. NO, he cannot give up such easy. Suddenly he remember something

“Come with me” without Heechul processed what happen, Siwon drag him to the car and drive so fast for god know where he want to go

“Slowdown Siwon, I don’t want to die with you here” but he drive even faster like if they don’t reach where he want to go on time, and that place will disappear

The car stops in front of the flowers field, many kinds of flowers planning here

“Here, we arrive” Siwon said then turn to see his lover’s face

Heechul don’t reply but got out of the car and stared to the flowers field

“It’s so beautiful view, right?” Siwon asked

“Yes, it is” he complied without looking to Siwon’s eyes that not focus on the view but him

“But it’s nothing compared to you, my love” Heechul turn his face to see a pair of the strong but lovely eyes that staring deepen in to his own eyes

“Siwon ah”

“Shuee… don’t say those word, just enjoy this peace, please”

Heechul nodded, he cannot deny his love anymore, not for this peaceful moment. At least for this few minute he can enjoy the warmness of his love. It’s feel like Siwon can read his heart, he hugged him from behind and closed his eyes to feel Heechul body in his own arm, near his own heart

“Do you love this flower?” Siwon suddenly asked made Heechul wonder but he He comply in respond

“Let’s live here then”

“Siwon…

“Don’t say anything, just say ‘YES’ Heechul. Please”

“…” Heechul silent give him courage to continue

“you use to said ’people have to be mean to survive’ so why think about other people thought and destroy your own happiness?”

Yes, he was right, why he needs to think about what others thinking? But … they are not other but Siwon’s parents, it’s not easy at all

“Run with me Heechul, runaway from this small world and leave here with me, you can chose where you want to go, for money no problem because I have my own business that even my parents don’t know about it, so we can also fly to another country that no one can recognize us as public people. Then if someday my parents agree with us, we can comeback if you want, Hyung… Heechul please… I bag you”

Siwon bagged with the tears former in his eyes

No, he can’t deny it but what can he do else … No … No… but Siwon … his offered and ….

Heechul cannot decide what to do in this situation, this is the first time that he hesitate like this

“Siwon I need time, I…” he gulped “I…”

“Just say ‘YES’ Heechul, just say it , I want to fly with you, live with you, and even dying with you, so just don’t think too much this time, ok? Only god know what happen next, so let’s trust god, trust me and trust yourself, we will get the blessing from them one day” Siwon purse for a moment waiting for Heechul’s reaction but he remind silent so he continue bagging more

“Hyung, look in to my eyes” he bring his face to face him

“I love you” Siwon smiling his gentle smile to his lover again, the smile that Heechul cannot deny anymore

“I love you too, Siwon” then their lips touched each other and the wetting their mouth more the kiss got deepen till both can’t breathe and they separated for air

“So, do you agree to come with me?” he asked with a excited sound

“Yes, I do” he whisper then their mouth meets each other again

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Please kill me TT_TT sorry for very late update but now i'm active again i will find my way to update atleat 1 chapter per week

sorry all dearest and thank you for waiting bb i love u guys