The doorbell ranging up and he wonder who will find him at this hour? Maybe the hotel servicer? But why? He thought but went to open the door anyways, he arrived behind the door and check through the security small glass and surprised for what he just saw

“Heechul???” He hurried to open the door for him but why his face…but before he can ask anything Heechul jumped in to his bosom and hugged him tightly

“Heechul? What’s going on?”

“Don’t…”

“Huh??” he asked not so sure what Heechul said coz that was so weak

“Don’t ask anything yet… just stay still, please…” his throat dried from crying earlier make his voice creak

That was so obvious he was cried for sure but Hangeng just stay still because he knew well that he will earn nothing if the other don’t want to open his mouth

Finally, Heechul released himself from his arm after standing for a long time even the door still open,

He closed the door, toke Heechul hand and made him sat on the sofa, he himself went to bowl some water than comeback with two cups of hot tea

Silence didn’t make them uncomfortable because he understands that the other need silences right now

“Drink it, that will calm you down than cold water”

“But it’s hot” Heechul said with his deep thought

“Yes, that’s why it will calm you down, you need to be patient to drink the hot tea anyway, like I am patiently waiting for you to open up, somehow the same way” He said and ship the hot tea while his eyes still looking at Heechul sad eyes

Heechul smile a small smile and try to dink the hot tea this time

“I am hungry, Han. Do you have something to eat?” Yes, he really tired and hangry right now

“Oh, wait a minute…I have instant noodle, that’s ok for you?”

“That’s would be perfect. But you still the same Han, you still carry noodle everywhere you go” He said with a small smirk

“Because, Ramyun reminded of you and don’t stare at me like that because I just said the truth” He said with busy hand making Ramyun for his princess

“I only have one pack with me, don’t know it will enough for you or not?”

“That’s more than enough, Han” he ate immediately as he received the noodle cup, what he just ate? No taste but he swallowed the noddle like there no tomorrow like he was swallowed the bitter experience and tears

“I’m full” Hangeng just clean the desk and filled him some hot tea again

“So…?” He asked after comeback from cleaning his hand

“Huu? What?” Hangeng hesitate to ask again since the other make no willing to tell him anything

“Nothing” Hangeng gave up and just looked at his lover closely just to see the injured on the corner of his mouse, the red mark on his neck that shirt that didn’t covered well also the grabbed mark on his wrists, his though gotten too messy right now, cannot processed well what he just saw when he looked closely at Heechul

“It was Siwon?” He asked with he himself didn’t relies and the dried question make Heechul feel chilly

“What… What are you talking about?” He tried to avoid the question but his tear ready to fall as they formed in his eyes already so he studs up and walk inside the room

“I’m not going to kill him or you, Heechul. Just tell me it was him, right? And don’t try to fool me because that will impossible with all the marks on your body” He followed him till he stopped walking

“Can I sleep here tonight? I have no place to go anyway” He said while sat on the bed

“Hummm” he sigh, Hangeng just take a deep breath holding his anger but still stared at Heechul

“I am sleeping now, Han” which this sentence Han just nodded

“I will sleep on the sofa than”

“Why? This bed is big enough for two people, don’t you think so, beside I miss hugging sleep from you, Han.”

“As you wish my princess” he smiled and joined him in bed

It’s 2am but none of them can sleep beside they just don’t want to bother one another

One hour later he heard the sound of opening window so he opened his eyes just to get shocked and jumped out of the bed than try to reached the creature in front of window

“Heechul, don’t” He grabbed Heechul’s waist and pulled him back till both fail on the balcony’s floor

“What are you doing, Han?” He groaned

“I am the one who should ask; what are you doing, Kim Heechul?” Han groaned back with anger

“What do you mean?... Oh, don’t tell me you thought I am going to jump from this window? Are you serious?” He asked but cannot hide his laugh

“And you didn’t?”

“Of Couse!!! I didn’t, Han. What are you thinking?”

“Well, What I thought was you just come from the hell of Si… I mean … whatever and what I saw moments ago was you tried to step on the steel and … and that scene was just … I mean I don’t want to think that way too but I can only I mean … Heechul you know my heart almost jumped of my chest …”

“Shuuuu” Heechul shooting his ex-lover and hugged him tightly

“I am not that stupid, Han”

“You scared me you know? I can’t even imagine what if … what if you really jump and I mean …you know…”

“Shuuuu, Yes, I know… I know, don’t say anything, I know what you were scared of”

They hugged each other for some long minutes than went back to the bed

“So, you decide not to tell me anything?” Hangeng decided to ask again hoping to heard something from the beauty

“I thought you knew everything, Han, didn’t you?”

“I’m not so sure, Heechul. I don’t know I should believe what I guess or not, that why I want to hear directly from you” He not so sure what he asked is too much for him or not but he still can’t believe what Siwon did

“Hugged me tight then, I will tell you everything, it’s not like I can hold it myself any longer anyway”

Han did what his lover just told

“I called you to flew here, because I want him to believe that we still have relationship and love each other. If I just told him that I can’t love him because his father told me to, you knew him, he cannot let me go like that but he saw me and you met and get angry, those was beyond my plan” but I thought that also the perfect timing and I was play along with this game…” He silent for few minutes before continued

“But you know, I don’t really think he would … he …” His words stuck in his throat and the warming tears start to formed again, not too long the tears that he thought already dried just start to fall and play with his heart again remined him of the scene and make his heart and body trembled

“Heechul, you know what I am thinking right now?” He asked and released his hand to see his face better

“I want to kill him right now but I also want to kill you” Heechul just wonder but still listen to what Han will continue

“Why you need to be blamed? why you need to admit what you didn’t have done? That not so like you, Hee. I didn’t remember you will take the blame from others”

“That’s what I did, Han. I am too blame because of this wrong love”

“Why?”

“Don’t ask as if you don’t know, you also the victim of this love”

Yes, in the place that cannot accepted this forbidden love, it was like hell for them

“Ok, let say you are right, but why you need to scarifying yourself?”

“Because I love him, his future is more important than mine, I cannot ruin his life, Han”

“I am jealous you know” Heechul smile gladded to have his ex by his side

“Can we sleep now? I am super tired of all the things that happen today”

“Ok, let’s forget what was gone, the sun still rises tomorrow, goodnight my love” He kissed Heechul forehead and let him sleep comfortably beside him

"Goodnight" I will be ok soon, Han... Thank you...