Why???
SHUT UP hyung, if not....Flash back
He opened the door slightly not wanted to wake the other up thinking that he still in the good sleep, as expected, his documents still at the dining table that he forgot this morning.
‘maybe he already awaked?’ he goes upstairs to check him but when he walked crossed his room, he heard the other talking to someone … maybe through the phone because he knew well know one in this house accepted both of them.
“Hee…” he wanted to asked who his calling but the stopped right in front of the closed door when he heard something that he didn’t want to hear but he did
“I want… no I mean I need you right now… your time, your body and your heart, I need that all…”
“Can you give that you me? I need you now…Han”
His tear started to form in his eyes ‘what going on Heechul? Why…?’ he asked to himself but he not even want to imagine what his lover want to do, he thought and just walked back with an uneasy step
Afternoon
“I’m back” he tried to be normal and smile to his lover that look so pretty in apron on his body in the kitchen room
“Oh, you came!! Go to clean yourself and comedown to eat now, today I made to special disk for you” he winked a cute wink to his lover and Siwon have no choice but to smile when he saw Heechul cute expression that rarely seen before and goes up to take a short shower before comedown.
maybe he just thinking too much, maybe maybe… maybe he not hearing clearly, or maybe it was a joke or another meaning maybe…
“YAA CHOI SIWON” Siwon come out of his thought when he heard Heechul shouted at him
“Yeah…?” he answered with hesitate don’t know what the other said he answer with haisitate when he heard Heechul shouted athimm
“I called you several but you just stared in the air in a deep thought” his smaller his eyes in curious
“What are you thinking, Siwon? It’s company problem or…”
“Nothing, I just thought where we need to go after I’m free from my work because you also knew that we don’t have much time here” he said and stared deep into Heechul’s eyes
“Don’t look at me like that Heechul, because I knew that you are not ready to faced everything with me yet, am I right? Beside I knew you clearly, you not the type that only think for your own happiness, Heechul…” he gulped his words and still reminded him of what he heard this morning
“Heechul ah, can I ask something?” he not sure if he should ask him or not
“Humm? What you want to know?” he asked curiously, yes what he keep in mind since his back from work? It’s seen so much things troubled him now
“Mor… Morning… urrrr I mean this …. Aishhhh” ‘what are you doing Siwon? Why you cannot spell even a word?’ he blamed himself but was cut off when Heechul asked again
“YAA PABO, what you want to say? Seriously …”
“Nothing, I just want to ask what time to waked up this morning, just it he said and lowered his head and pretending to look at the food on disk in front of him
“I’m not remember, though. But are you sure you are ok Siwon? You look so pale and…” ‘Broken…. heart’ he thought but not utter loudly since he saw Siwon still lowering his head
“Really, I’m ok my love, don’t worry, maybe I’m just tired from work today, oh right, after lunch I have some work to clear in the till night so maybe I’ll comeback around tomorrow noon if my work done”
“Oh!! I will be just rest at home at the morning and cook some food waiting for you at the noon then”
“No need honey, we will eat outside tomorrow and at the morning you can hang around, shopping or go somewhere else to play, and…” he said while bringing up his card to give it to Heechul
“you can use my card, spend as much as you can my love, just remember our home address when you go out it’s enough beside you have my number here”
“I don’t need that Siwon, don’t worry about me, it’s not like I didn’t spend the time alone before, beside I have my own money Siwon, I’m not that poor to need your money” he teased his lover and smile
“I didn’t mean that, but at least keep it, just in case you need that for some reason” he said and put the card in Heechul’s hand
“OK, I will keep it then, thanks you”
“don’t say thanks to me, honey. Because I feel like we are not closed enough” he said with the expression that Heechul cannot guess what does it mean but he just smiled instead of asking anything
He didn’t want to doubted his lover but curiously just killing him, so he pretending to go to work again. In face he still there and wait to see what Heechul will do when he not around and as expected he heard the phone rang and he almost can guess who on the other line even he not picked up the phone, because no one could call to this number beside him but he also wanted to get thing clear and he still believed in his love so he picked up the phone after Heechul picked up. And because that was the lined table phone so he can have heard clearly now who on the other line from table phone in his room. His hand got weak, his body trebled, no he cannot have believed what he heard right now
“Hello? Heechul?”
“You arrived? Where are you now? Why didn’t called me when you landed?”
“You know you like my mom now or I should say you like my wife instead? hahaha”
“So where are you now? Let’s meet Hannie, I miss you”
“Hummm I think you don’t come here alone, Am I right?”
“Siwon, I came here with Siwon but today I’m alone in his house since he has some business to do here”
“Wait, wait… are you saying that you are in his house right now?”
“Yes, and don’t be so surprise yet because the business that I told you is no other than his own company here”
“What??? Company? Oh my god… How much this man has for real?”
“I don’t know because he only told me some part of his own business here not all yet”
“I see, so let meet and I think you can come to my hotel? Or if you are not comfortable we can meet somewhere else”
“No need, hotel is best place to do it”
“Do… do it? Do what?”
“You will know when I’m there so now send me you address”
“Ok”
Every word now like a knife that goes deep into his heart
“Why? Heechul… Why???” he uttered to his own after the line disconnected
After Heechul take in the taxi, he secretly followed him
‘Please Heechul, I wish it just a misunderstanding, I… I don’t know what you want to do now but please don’t do anything that break my heart, please I still love you so much’ he thought to himself and the tears followed down his cheek nonstop
He saw Heechul asked something to the receptionist at lobby and goes upstairs
His uneasy step following his love step by step but each step seen too heavy that he even cannot walk faster, he saw him ringing the room bell, no please, this is just a nightmare, right? He need to wake up before his heart hurt than now but when the door opened, his tears start to fall down again and his knee trembled when they hugged each other. There, Heechul and his ex-lover over there, hugged each other and they… they go in the room…
He didn’t even know how he walked back to the house, he didn’t even know when his eyes dried. He didn’t even know when he sat on the floor in front of the sofa in living room. Now he didn’t even know what his feeling, broken? Lose hope? He didn’t know how to express this feeling and when he deep in to his thought suddenly he heard the door open and the light
“Siwon? What are you doing here? Didn’t you say you will back tomorrow?”
Siwon smile or more like smirk
“I’m the want who should ask, where were to gone? And what were you done? Kim Heechul” he uttered his name while the long lose tears start to formed again
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