He can’t sleep; Heechul’s tearful eyes still appear in front of his eyes. Why the situation become like this??? No!!! He can’t stay still. Siwon leave his room and went to Heechul’s room

Tok Tok Tok

The door open and a pair of red eyes broke his heart

“Hyung…you…cr”

“No, I’m not, I mean I’m watching some drama and got emotional, just that” he knew he can’t lie but at least give himself an excuse

“Can we talk?”

“Come in” after Siwon got in he close the door but two warming arm hug him from behind

“Siwon, I thought you want to talk?”

“Let me hug you, hyung…I miss you already. Can we …can we not listen to others and follow our heart?”

“Don’t be like this Siwon, go back to your room if you come to talk like this, I want to sleep”

“Sleep?” Siwon raise his voice and release his hold

“Yes, I want to sleep”

”You still can sleep? Oh hyung how… how can you be so heartless?”

“Go back to your room, siwon ah. I don’t want to talk about this thing now”

“Hyung…” “I said get out” but Siwon stay still

“Ok, you want to stay here so I will go” Heechul said and leave his room

“Where are you going?”

“Not your business” Siwon go after him and grab his arm and pulled him to his own room

“Siwon, what are you doing? You are hurting me Siwon…” he try to free his hand but Siwon was strong

“Shut up and come with me”

“WHAT???? You are being so rude to me, you know?”

“I don’t care” and pulled Heechul in to his room

“What are you doing Siwon?” Sungmin and Eunhyuk come out of their room too, even their argument not so load but the members that live the same area still can heard it

“It’s not you guys business” He said and close the door then locked it

“What do you mean it’s not our business? Siwon open the door, Siwon” Sungmin knock the door but no respond

“It’s not right hyug, I should call Leeteuk hyung” Eunhyuk said and calling the leader

‘Oh, Hyuk ah’

‘Hyung, we have the problem now, I thought Siwon is crazy’

‘WHAT?? Ok ok I coming’ He hang up and after 3 minute he arrive with other member

“What happen?? Where Siwon”

“Siwon, release me, YA!!” Heechul sound took their attention, they all went to Siwon room and try to open the door but it was lock

“Siwon, open the door, what are you doing there?” Leeteuk knock the door but still no respond

“Siwon, open the door”

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“Siwon, I know you hurt but we can’t do anything now, let’s thought it was a nightmare”

“Huh!!! Heechul… I wonder if what Leeteuk hyung said that you love me it’s true or not? Because what I see is after my dad ask you to leave me and you do it, not try to fight with him, not try to fight for me but instead you tell me it’s was a nightmare? How cool-hearted you are” Siwon try to not shout to him but he can’t help

“What can I do else? Cry for permission? Kneeling down and beg?” Heechul shout too and try to release his hand but no use

“DO IT!! Whatever you can do just do it but you are not even thinking of it and act like nothing happen, how come?”

“So, should I killing myself? Ohh or should I killing your father and live happily with you? Like that?”

“At lease don’t give up such easily” he grinded his teeth

“Damn you siwon, let me go, why you so harsh to me like this?”

“Damn?? Harsh?? Ok I will show you what does it means” Heechul open his eyes more

“What are you.. HUMM…” Siwon mouth close his mouth

“Siwon open the door” Leeteuk try to call him but he don’t care

“It’s not a choice, someone go to find the key, hurry” “Yes, hyung”

“Mhummmm” Heechul try to push him away but it’s seem when he angry his strength goes stronger and pushed him to the wall more so he wait for Siwon to stop but it’s not just a kiss.​​​ He tore Heecul shirt and buttons fall down everywhere appearing his milky chest and shoulder.

He freed his mouth but went to kiss his shoulder instead

“Siwon, let me go” his voice so week because he try to hold back his tears that want to fall down from his eyes

“Siwo mhummm” Siwon close his mouth with a passionate kiss again, this time Heechul gather his strength and pushed him away and he make it this time but Siwon pushed him to the wall again and

“STOP YOUR CRARY ACT RIGHT NOW SIWON” The leader voice was heard and he turn to see all the member interring his room, he turn to look at the person in front of him but

*SLAP* the slapped sound was echo the silent room. Siwon turn his head again just to see what he done moment ago was. His sense comeback to him, what was he did? Red eyes, wet cheek, swallow mouth, and tore shirt, red mark that stamped on his neck and the dead glare that broke his heart even more

“Hyung take this” Eunhyuk bring the pillow and cover his hyung body

“I want to go back to my room”

“Ok hyung, I help you then”

“Hum, thanks”

“You know what are you doing, siwon?”

“Sorry hyung, I…I just …just cannot control myself” His sob not let him speak properly

“I think your father is right that don’t let you love him, at first I think I should help you guys but look at you right now…. Hummmm you disappointed me” Leeteuk said and leave the room

“I thought you can take care of Heechul hyung but what I see is different, what you have done, I’m so regret that Hyung love you” said Kangin and leave too

He can’t say anything back, it’s all true and he was crazy. He wanted to leave the room but Sungmin blocked him

“Where you want to go?”

“Heechul, I want to meet him”

“For what?”

“Apology, I want to said sorry to him” Siwon is ready to cry but he holding back his tears

“You think after what you done to him he still want to meet you? Come on Siwon maybe you can apology latter but not now”

“I don’t care; I just want to see is he ok” he wanted to get out of his room again but Kyuhyun voice stop him

“It’s because ‘I don’t care’ of yours and everything become worse, you don’t care what hyung and your parents thought and made them met, you don’t care about what going on and you almost ra.. I mean the sin to him, and now you don’t care what he would feel and try to meet him, so why don’t you kill him instead of hurting him like this?” He turn to face him and his serious and mad eyes scared Siwon, even he have the evil name but he didn’t see this serious side of the maknae like this even once before, so maybe he was right, meeting him now make it’s worse even more. He left the room this time

“Where you want to go?”

“Don’t know” and he left

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“Heechul, you ok?” Leeteuk ask his brother

“Do I look like I’m ok?”

“Hum, I can see you are so angry with him?”

“Should I happy then?” Come with the annoying sound

“He did this to you, you hate him or not?”

“You know my answer, Teukie ah”

“But I don’t know” said Eunhyuk

“Let’s me ask you Hyukie, if Hae did the same thing to you, what you feel?”

“Of course, I’m angry, disappoint but I can’t make myself to hate him”

“Sure, so I can’t hate him either, it’s just… like you said; disappoint”

“What your decision then? Do like his father wish?” Leeteuk ask

“It’s no other choice; maybe someday I will fight for this love but not now, because I feel not right to do that. His parents love me like their own child and I cannot betraying them just because of our love, it’s too selfish you know” Heechul answered from his heart, from what his feel, at least they still can stay by each other side like before

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The sound of the door open, Mrs. Choi come down knowing well that who arriving home in this late hour; her son. But…why??

“Siwon, what happen? Why you come this late?” yes its 2am in the morning and he coming home? It’s weird

“Mommm” and he fallen down

“Siwon!!! what going on? Why you drink this much?”

“What happen?” Mr. Choi come down too after heard his son voice

“He drunk, come and help me” the old couple try to put him lay on the sofa

RingRingRing

His phone ring was heard from their bedroom

“You go pick up your phone, honey. I’m here to take care of him, don’t worry”

“Ok” and he went up stare

“Hello!”

“Hello! Dad, I’m Leeteuk”

“Yes! I know”

“Sorry for bordering you this late but I think Siwon will go there”

“Yes, He’s here and I want to call you but you did first, what happen to Siwon? Why he drank so much?”

“He drank? Humm as expect and I call you in this late hour just because this issue too”

“Ok tell me what happen?”

“He almost did that to Heechul”

“What?? Did what?? Wait… you mean…”

“Yes”

“Oh my god, hummm and what happen next, tell me the detail”

“Yes dad”