He can’t sleep that night, why he said ‘Yes’? Why agreed with him? And why he can’t deny him like other times?  Maybe…Maybe this time his heart toke over his thought

Even he happy of what Siwon offered but still, when he thought about other members or family… he can’t betraying them

Tuk Tuk Tuk… the nocked door sound interrupted his thought

“Come in”

 “Humm…sorry for come this late, I can’t sleep but I think u don’t sleep either”

“Yeah I can’t sleep also and I don’t know why”

“Maybe I know the reason…” Heechul look into the leader eyes, knowing well what he wants to say

“It’s because of him?”

“Who?”

“Come on Heechul, it’s not like ur love and his love for u is in the secret. Hummm …Today where u went?”

“Riverside and…Sun flower field” he lower his voice, remembering what going on at there

 “It’s seem like you two have a good time together just by seeing your face right now Heechul” Leeteuk teased his dongsaeng

“He…so romantic right? He know I love sun flower and he brought me there but…” he lower his voice again but this time it’s because of the fact that make him sad

 “Why? Was he said something?”

“…” silent, he didn’t know how to answer but he needed someone to share his stress and who else better than his only hyung?

“He said something right?” He asked again

“Teukie ah… Siwon… he …” why he can’t spell what he want? It’s seem someone try to stop him from saying something but he want to win this weakness so he try again

Leeteuk waiting patiently, he know it’s hard for him

“He asked me to run with him…” finally he said it out, at least that word no longer be with only him

“What? Run??” Leeteuk a bit surprise about what he just heard

 “Yeah, Tuekie help me I… I don’t know what to do now because… because…”

“Don’t tell me that you said ‘Yes’?”

Heechul lower his head and just nod, what he can explant? It’s true, he just say ‘YES’ to him today

“I don’t know what to do now Tuekie…I love him so much but I don’t want to betray his parents and our members also, if I go with him I will lose you and others even my family but if I don’t go I afraid …Teukie I afraid I will lose him ever even friendship because i agree with him already and now I regret what I said I …I …”

“Shuee…don’t said anything anymore I understand what you want to say now and…don’t cry Heechul”

Cry??? He’s crying??? He don’t even know when his tears start to fall down and wetting his cheek like a little girl that lose her ways to go home

“Teukie can you stay with me tonight? Just for tonight” he asked his only hyung and Leeteuk just nod, even Heechul don’t ask him, he can’t leave his friend also his dongsaeng in this situation

“Thanks you, Teukie.”

“No need Heechul ah, I know you are lonely right now and I’m here to share what you have in your heart”

“I only have you as hyung here Teukie, I don’t know who else I should discuss with, I don’t know what right I should do or what wrong I will face but I just can’t thinking about anything anymore, my head and heart ached so much now, help me Teukie”

“What you feel right just follows your heart and don’t think too much. If running away make you happy just do it but if not then don’t run and face with it, let see if you lead the reality or reality leading you and I trust you Heechul, I trust your decision because your feel always right and you always following your heart since beginning till now so just do it again and I will always be by your side”

He can’t believe it, he thinking whole night but it’s didn’t work and just a simple encourage by his leader showed his answer and decision, yes what a different?! Others problem and this once still a problem so just follow my heart and everything will be back to normal, he thought to him self

“I know what to do now, thank you …hyung” maybe the rare of time that he call Leeteuk ‘hyung’ but this time he just wanna respect his leader nim , Leeteuk smile his angel smile this time, thank god his word can help his oldest dongsaeng

“Wipe your tears and sleep, it’s late now and tomorrow we have schedule at the morning ,so try to catch some sleep” Heechul just nod, he also tired and after all a long day that he have through

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“Heechul ahh”

“YAAA!! U idiot, call me ‘hyung’ here or you want other to know what relationship between us?”

“Yes, I want the world know that you are mine and only mine”

“Do it and I will run from you forever” Heechul smirk and then go out for rehearsal living pouting Siwon at the dressing room alone

“You are so mean” Siwon whispered to himself and then prepare for rehearsal too

“Hyung, when our plan can start?” Siwon asked Heechul after changing his cloth

“Not now, Siwon ah. I need to finish and clear lots of jobs”

“Oh come on, hyung. You know that our work never end”

“I don’t mean for this work, I mean some own business, be patient and it’s not take so long time” He smile and changing his cloth too

“Now go out, I need to change my cloth too” and Siwon just smile and comply

*How can I tell him??* He thought for the nothing times but he can’t do it to his love, at least he should try to do something

“Where you want to go today?” Siwon asked after Heechul got in the car

“Wherever it’s have you” and they laugh

“Since when you become this sweet, hyung?”

“Since you teach me”

“I don’t teach you anything hyung”

“But you said these things to me everyday”

“And you learned it from me?”

Heechul just smile

“Ok today I will bring you to the very high class restaurant, my love”

“Don’t spend your money freely, Siwon ah”

“Oh, Heechul ah you already manage my money? Wow I like it” he laugh and earning a dead glare from his lover

“ok ok I shut my mouth now”  and he ship his mouth with his hand coursing Heechul to smile and his cute action

“For my love this much money not enough, if we living together I swear I don’t let you do anything just stay at home like a princess and I will give you everything even…even my body”

“You ert your body not expensive I don’t want it”

“Aww!! Why? You don’t like my great body? Oh so I shouldn’t work out, maybe you love skinny boy like Eunhyuk?”

“YAA!! Stop compare to other, you naughty boy”

“hehehe, are you imagine anything??”

“Stop it or I will shut your mouth with my shoes”

“Oopp, ok ok” both of them laugh happily but in Heechul heart he know what will happen next but he just want to enjoy is happy moment with his love

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“What bring you to my office, Heechul? It’s something wrong with my son again?”

“Can we have lunch together, dad?” Heechul just directly ask, of course he don’t want to worse his time more than this

“Why not” Mr. Choi replied with a big smile, he always love Heechul but not the ways Siwon wanted him to accepted his love yet

“What you want to eat, son? Today I’m treating”

“Whatever you choose, I don’t mind at all” Yes it’s because he not come to eat but to discuss about what he have in mind this few day

“Ok” then Mr. Choi selected the some food in the menu and turn to face Heechul again

“I don’t think you come here just for lunch with me?”

“Of course not, I come to discuss about Siwon”

“But I think we have finished this issue already, or no?”

“Yes, we have but this is new and hopes you don’t angry when you heard it”

“Hmm I can’t promise yet, it’s depending on what issue he course this time, and about last time I heard he did something stupid but let me apology instead of him”

“Oh, no need dad, that issue we solved it already” he smile and want to continue but the waiter come and bring the food to the table

“Eat first or we can discuss while eating, it’s ok” Mr. Choi said and Heechul just nod

“If… If I run with him... what you want to do with us??? ”

Mr. Choi purse for a minute than smile

“You know my power right? If you run with him I swear you and him never see each other again, be smart and do as u told me before, so you two still have chance to see each other and remember that you are still my son”

“I know, that’s why I want to tell you…hummm Siwon few days ago he asked me to run with him and…and I agreed with him but I regretted not because I don’t love him but because… I don’t want to hurt or betraying you and others so I… I decide to betray him and breaking my promise” His heart got pain when remember the promise that he have with Siwon but what he can do else? Run? No…

“If you promised with him, so why you did this? You don’t think my son will get hurt? Or hate you?”

“Yes, that’s another reason that I come here too” Mr. Choi raised his eyebrow in wonder

“Maybe after I tell him he will hate me forever and maybe even friend we cannot be like before or maybe he don’t want to see my face and back to live in home so you are his father, I just want you to take good care of him instead of me”

“Hahahaha” Mr. Choi laugh make Heechul wonder

“Why you laugh? I’m not joke”

“So you think I don’t take good care of him?”

“No, just… I just want to know that he will eat his favorite food drink his favorite drink, do his favorite job and live happily like before is enough and I don’t know if you know all this staff or not?”

“Don’t worry, I know what he love. Italian food and red wind is his favorite since he still a child”

“Really?” Heechul just smirk before finished his food and shipped some water than stand up from the chair

“Thank you for this delicious food, dad. I will go back now I have some job to finish at studio”

“Ok, son” He smile to Heechul but before he went turned to see Mr. Choi again and said

“But from I remember Siwon love hot pot with beer or soju instead of that high class food and drink. And maybe you are his father but the time you spend with your own son maybe less than me so if you want Siwon love you more than me just love him more than I do” then he went leaving surprising old man with a wonder smile

Ringring Ringring

He’s phone ringing after he got in the car. He look at the ID and smile

“Hello”

“Hello my princess”

“YA Cheesy” he smile what a great time, right now he need someone to depending on and his best friend also he ex-lover calling him

“What cheesy? I just call you the way I used too” Heechul can see his pout just by hearing his voice

“Ok my Beijing Fred rice”

“Call me Han is better, hahahaha” Hangeng laugh makes him laugh too, his accent still the same  

“Doing well lately? I see SJ's new MV, wow it’s just daebak, I wish I’m there with you guys”

“Pabo, who tell you to left those time? Make me cry for three months now you regret is no use”

“Oh, who know you would cry?”

“YA!!!”

“Ok, Ok, don’t fight with you now but you don’t answer me yet, how have you been?”

“I’m not fine, Han”

“hehehe, as I expect from your voice hmmm, what’s going on? Can share?”

“Siwon and I…love each other but…”

“What?? You just know he love you?? All along these year??”

“What??? You knew? From when?”

“Come on Heechul, don’t tell me you cannot tell he love you? Oh my god!! It’s showed since I living there but just because you and me have feeling for each other and he cannot showed his feel toward you but I thought you also know it but.. oh god why you are so slow Heechul???”

“it’s because my heart have only you those time and after you left he take care of me and I fall for him day by day but I don’t know what he feel so I don’t do anything just a whiles ago he told me but…”

“But what??”

“But his parents cannot accepted me, Han. You know Siwon is very important person is Choi family so…”

He can’t say it anymore his throat got pain because of the tear that he try to stop

“Heechul?? Are you crying?” He asked worriedly

“No, who tell you I’m cry?”

“Pabo, you voice showed it clearly”

“So what?? I’m human too, can’t I cry?”

“Calm down, I didn’t said anything yet, if you wanna cry just do it baby, I’m here for you”

“Han, thank you so much but I don’t have time to cry anymore, I need to clear something, and I need your support also”

“Of course I will always support you my princess, whatever you thought is right just do it and remember you still have me”

“Oh, thank you baby, I miss you so much if I finish my schedule I will fly to meet you, Han”

“Ok I will wait and if anything happens just keep in touch Hee, oh now I have interviewing with magazine, see you later my love”

“Ok see you, Han” then he hang up

*Yes, it’s not a big deal, I can do it, I did it with Han before this time if it’s serious maybe it took me more than three months to heal my heart but it’s ok, it’s will recover right??* he thought to himself then started the car