A/N wahahahaha i'm fired up! sorry i'm just to excited and can't stop my fingers from writing! Also thanks to the 2 subscribers (i know it's nothing to you but to me it means a lot already!!) well i hope you enjoy and really comment anything you don't like so i can do better next time ;)

 

*** Hansol

It's been a week since the studio thing happened and Byung joo didn't show up at school. I don't care. He's too weird... What kind of guy's changing he's mind so fast ? I don'tget why i'm intersted in him too ! Seriously he's got nothing but his looks ! When did i become a guy that only likes because of looks ? I hate this ! The teacher asks me to tell Byung joo to come back to school... Awesome... i don't need this...

Well since i don't know where he lives i decided to come at the studio. It's oppened. I come in a see him with his shirt off, all sweaty from dancing. What i'm seeing is making me blush, i can tell you every line of his muscles here. Woooaaa i'm going to die !

-Ya ! Can't you answer ?

-Ah sorry i was...

-Anyway... why are you here ?

-The teacher told me to tell you to come back to school so...

-Okay fine i'll go so you don't have to stay here.

-What if i want to dance too ?

He sighs and starts to ignore me. Well i'm used to it so i focus on dancing. It feels really hot and soon i take my shirt off too. After two hours of dancing my phone's ringing, i'm more than shocked when i hear my mother's voice.

-Hansol sweetie where are you ?

-So you care now ?

-I always care... your father's back. You should be here since a while.

I hang up. It's because he's back, she wants to appear like a good and loving mother in front of that man she dares to call my father... He's only the man she remarried after betraying my real father. I pick up my stuffs and head back home.

*** Bjoo

What just happened ? I've never seen such expressions on Hansol's face. It's weird... Why do i even care ? He's just a troublesome perfect looking brat.

*** Hansol

I come in and say « i'm back » and i get an answer ! I wonder how longer is my mother going to act fake... I'm not even eating with them and going to sleep. I don't want to see him, and i don't want to see the fake smiles of mom and sis towards me. I thought it wouldn't hurt me anymore but i guess i was wrong... While closing my eyes i suddenly remember Byung joo dancing without his shirt. My heart starts to hurt... it's not a good time ! But damn seing his body all sweaty like this... Aaaah ! It kills me !

I get up early to avoid the boring fake family down stairs. Seriously i don't want this ! But who cares about what i say ? I'm the unwanted weirdo who likes guys child of the family. But is it weird that i love men ? I mean i saw my mom sleeping with another man (than my real dad) when i was only six ! I can't do anything about it... i just find it disgusting. And when you see how hot are my friend Jiho and my classmate Byung joo, you can become gay easily, i guess. Or maybe i'm saying all this to comfort myself... i just don't know.

I reach school early and there's not many people here. I'm kind of happy, maybe that bothersome guy isn't here yet and i won't have to hear all the awful things he says. When i enter the room my hopes and dreams are broken... He's there and i can see in his eyes he already wants to torture me a bit. I'm frozen, i can't do anything, i'm weak.

-Ya ! You're on my way !

I turn around and find an angry Byung joo. I move to my sit and the bad guy doesn't say anything because of the rumored gangster, Kim Byung joo. The guy is already in his sleeping pose and he didn't even greet me... Well i'm used to it. Class starts and nothing happens until lunch.

Sangwon comes in to eat with me and i can see Jiho and Sangkyun coming in after him. Byung joo sighs and is going to get up. Sangwon puts him down on his chair and shout.

-Today you're eating with us dirty ganster !

The guy doesn't seem happy at all, that's not Sangwon case. He keeps on teasing him and i can't say why but it seems like Byung joo is trying to keep from smiling.

-Ya stop !

The other one is now hitting him to play and i can finally see something i've been waiting for a long time... Byung joo shows us a really little smile. It's enough to make my heart beat faster.

-Woooaaa !!

I say it without realising and i can see four faces turning in my direction. I don't know what to do and i can bet my house i'm blushing like a shojo manga girl. Everyone keeps on talking so i can focus on something else. Finally i can get to talk with my classmate...

-So Byung joo why do you like to dance ?

-I don't know... i guess i was born for it. And you ?

-It helps me forget, it's kind of a drug for me.

Without me noticing, a sad smile started to appear on my face. Now i can see Byung joo's surprised eyes and the worries of my friends. I don't want them to worry so i start to mess with Jiho's hair and finally a normal atmosphere comes back. I'm happy Byung joo seems to finally open up a bit. Maybe i'll get to be friends with him... well my heart wants me more than friends but since like the guy doesn't seems to like people just being friends would already be a big thing, and i guess even if it'd hurt i'd be happy because i'd be by his side. But maybe i should just stop dreaming.

-Oooh gangsta murderer Joo's got people to talk to ?

Everyone turns around and we find a tall guy named Dongsung looking at us.

-Sangwon you're friends with him ? I know you knew him but...

My friend seems to be in a tough situation...

-Yes. We're childhood friends.

Byung joo's shocked, i can read it on his face. Dongsung must be the reason of an old argument between them. Sangkyun seems to be proud of his best friend. A guy's suddenly rushing in the class. He's wearing glasses and really not bad looking.

-Ah... Dongsung stop bullying Byung joo all the time...

-Why ? Doesn't he deserve it ? Hm ? You know what he's done right ?

-Come on Dongsung he didn't do anything...

-What ? You mean leaving people and hurting them is nothing ?

-Then what are you doing right now ?

This time Byung joo spoke. He seems tired and hurt. He gets up and leaves. I can the look of Sangwon and Sangkyun, they look sad and upset. I don't like the way things are going, it's too weird, to suffocating. I don't know why but i'm starting to feel sick. I just leave the classroom and run to the restroom. I come in and what i see is even worse than what i heard. Two guys are hitting a first year without any mercy. The guys covered in blood and he's crying. I can't take it... i just don't know what happens in my head but...

-Ya ! How can you be so unfair ?!

-You want a taste princess ?

I hate that nickname. The guys from my last class were calling me like this because they saw me crying after being dumped by my boyfriend. It's just like that. I already know i'm no match for them but if i can help the other guy escape then i'll just do this. The two guys start to move toward me and the first year jumps on his feet and run as fast as he can.

-Because of you we lost our toy...

-You'll have to replace it...

The first one grabs my shoulder and after maybe two minutes i already stopped screaming. I didn't even cry, it's not the first time i get beaten up by someone... I can hear someone coming in. Will the same thing happen ?

-Ya !

I don't know why but the guys leave without saying anything. One just hit the guy who came in and he falls on his legs. I know who it is even if i can't see him. I don't know why but when someone's hitting me, my vision decreases. I can see a global picture but nothing's clear. The guy walks toward me and i can feel his arms on my shoulder.

-Ya Kim Hansol ! Can you walk ?

-I don't need your help.

I just get up on my own and leave Byung joo here. I don't want to see him. Why ? It's obvious. He just touched me, it's so unusual... i don't understand. I still can see clearly but i know the way back to the classroom. When i come back Sangwon and the others left. Dongsung is also gone but it seems like his friend is still here, i have the feeling he's waiting for me. I sit quietly and he looks at me with a kind smile.

-Can i sit here ?

-Well i don't think Byung joo will come back anyway...

-I'm actually here to talk about him.

-Really ? Then why me ?

-Because it feels like Byung joo's changing... i can't lie any longer, i'm looking after him from here because i've always worried about him. It seems like he's protected you once and it's kind of rare. Same thing he saved yoour friend Jiho.

-Yay but it doesn't have anything to do with me...

-Who knows. I think it would be great if he was like before. I mean smiling and kind of carefree.

-He was like that before ?!

-Yes ! Pretty cute too.

-Well you can't really say he's bad looking now...

-No sure but i'd like you to know why Byung joo is like this.

The serious look of the guy is a bit scary but i'm too curious to say no. He says i have to meet him after school. I can't help but looking forward to this talk !

When i go out the wearing-glasses-boy is already waiting for me. He's handsome and a lot of girls are always looking at him. I've heard his an old friend of Sangwon too. He smiles at me and we're just heading to a little cafe on a big street. We're not far from Byung joo's cafe... Why am i thinking about stuff like this when i'm hanging out with and awesome looking guy like Hojoon ? Well it's not like it's a date or anything but it's kind of rare for me to be sitting in a cafe with a guy i don't really know.

-Well let's go straigth to the point ok ? I'm an old friend of Sangwon and Byung joo. Back then in middle school everyone was happy and everthing was normal, or i thought so. Actually my friend Byung joo, who i had a crush on, was crazy in love with Dongsung you see. We were just kids and he got rejected but he wasn't that sad. Then he's father abandonned him, but he wasn't that sad. Everyone started to think he had no real feelings. Dongsung started to too much and it's about that time Byung joo became violent. Byung joo suddenly disapeared, after being involved in a murder case. Actually Dongsung girlfriend was stabbed by someone. Nobody knows why but after this the older suddenly started to get closer to Byung joo. Everyone thought Byung joo killed the girl to keep the guy for himself. Because of all the bullying he left, we already were judging him and he couldn't take it. When he came back the Byung joo we knew was dead.

Dongsung explained to me that Byung joo witnessed the scene with him and that they were sharing this awful memory together. When Byung joo left he felt betrayed that's why he keeps on being like this with him. When Sangwon learned the truth he was so mad at him he didn't even eat for an entire week... Well the details are not important but i think you can easily understand why Byung joo doesn't want to be close to anyone, because it's awlays been painful for him to lose what he loves. His father, his friends, his life. He lives in hell.

 

I can't help but cry at the story. I didn't know all this, it's too sad. He didn't deserve it, really. It's too hard to hear, i can't believe this guy's still alive with all this. If it was me, i would be dead for a long time...

-Wow you sure are sensitive.

-Sorry...

-No it's nothing. You seem to like our Byung joo

-Well...

-You don't have to answer. I'll say it clearly but it would be great if someone could bring our Byung joo back...

-Why don't you do it ?

-I promised Dongsung to stay by his side.

-Why not Sangwon or Sangkyun ?

-They're no match for you.

-What do you mean ?

-I always watch Byung joo, i know what he feels, more than he does. He wants friends but he just doesn't know yet. You need to help him to figure out.

I can't believe it... Why me ? It's too hard, can't even make a move to change my life so to change someone else's ? I won't be able to do it... Hojoon leaves me here. Is he trying to show me he's better than me ? Like he likes Byung joo more than me ? That's probably the case so why does he bother to throw it at me ? It hurts ! I leave the cafe and end up walking in streets without a real destination. While i'm spacing out i bump into someone.

-Ah sorry i wasn't looki... Ah Jiho !

-Hansolie ! Why are you here ?

-Why do you ask ?

-Ya punk you said it would be fast so stop talking to every people passing by !

It's Byung joo, shouting at Jiho. I just don't get it.

-Sorry i have to do something see you tomorrow.

What is this ? I can't believe it ! I want to understand but i don't want to know ! I'm going to die soon, i can tell you.

 

*** Bjoo

I don't why but this guy, Shin Jiho if i remember well, came to the cafe earlier, saying he had something to discuss with. I'm not really in the mood but i can't help it i guess. I wasn't expecting that perfect princess to be here at the moment i decided to come out. I don't know why but seeing him these days pisses me off even more than usual, i don't really get it. I guess i just don't like him. After he's been sent away by his friend i finally have to talk with the tall guy.

-Please don't be too long.

-Stop being near Hansol.

-Why ?

-Because it seems like he's got a lot more troubles now,and he also changed a bit.

-I didn't do anything. Just look at you the fake best friend who's not even helping him while he's getting beaten up.

-I can't do anything.

-He couldn't do anything when decided to save that boy either... I know you saw. You're just jealous i saved him while you were powerless. Don't worry i won't get close to your crush buddy, but it's not because you asked me to, it's just because i don't like him.

-Why don't you like him ?

-I'm not like you. Plus i don't like all these happy people, throwing their disgusting fake hapiness to you through fake smiles. He's just like the others, smilling at you and making you believe he wants to be your friend...

I can't even finish because i'm being punched by that stupid guy.

-Hansol's not happy at all !

-I don't care !

I push the guy away and leave the place. I don't have to work anymore today so i'll just go and dance a bit. When i arrive there the door is already open. Who is it ? Hojoon ? Kim Hansol ? I just come in, i don't care if there's anyone here. Dance is more important. Actually the princess is here. I don't mind him and just start to do my own stuff. After a while, i don't know why, i just look at him dance. When i look closer i can see he's upset. Why ? Wait. Why do i care ? I DON'T care, really. The phone of the guy rings. He goes out, leaving his stuff here. I can't get why i'm going this but i decide to follow him. He seems broken.

-I told you right ? Stop doing like you care just because he's here !

He hangs up. I think it gives him a shock when he turns around and see me.

-You okay ?

-Why would you care ? Right ? I'm just a fake happy perfect guy... Right ?

I can't believe it... He's right ! I was complaining about the people around me but i'm just doing the same ! With him, with my old friends, with that Jiho guy.

-Wait ! Ya ! Kim Hansol !

-What ? You want to lecture my fake smile a bit more ?

He turns around, with his perfect smile. The problem is his look, his eyes. They're full of anger and... tears ?

-What's wrong ?

-Stop doing like you care !

-Okay... I DO care !

-Liar ! You told Jiho you don't care ! Plus you're hateful you know ! Doing the « i protect you » thing and then « i just don't know you » stuff ! You want people to stay away then stop pretending to be cool !

-What's wrong with you seriously ? Where's the quiet smiling princess...

-Don't call me princess !

-And stop being like that !

-Then what do you want me to be ? When i'm smilling i'm wrong, when i'm not, i'm wrong. You're just like the others too...

-What do you mean.

-Thinking my own existence is wrong...

I can see it's gone too far for him breaks down and cry all he has. I can't help but understand... Does this mean he's like me ? I just don't get it. How can he smile if he's that broken on the inside. Without me noticing i'm patting his head. He can't stop sobbing and finaly something happens... He falls down, in my arms. I just don't know how to react. His whole body is trembling and i can feel his tears through my shirt.

-I hate you Kim Byung joo... you're the worst...

-Feels like i really am.

Without doing anything, or saying anything, i let him cry like this, on my shirt. Finally he calms down and seems to realise what happened. He doesn't say anything and goes back to dance. I don't know what to do... Someone rushes in and i can see the angry look of that Jiho guy. The guys coming in are more surprised, or shocked. Sangwon looks at me like i'm some kind of alien and Sangkyun is worse. I'm going to die here, i guess.

 

 

A/N seeee the more i write the more it's weird... well hope you enjoyed this :3 if you didn't then tell me why please (but don't be too mean i'll cry if you're mean TT^TT)