Today is my dance competition and I’m so nervous because today is the first time that my little brother will watch together with my parents and I feel more pressure but happy at the thought that they are here to support me

 

And when its our time to dance I looked at Hae and I smiled at him and I said

 

“this is for you Hae!” I said and he just smiled more and shout

 

“Hwating Hyung! You can win this!” he shouts and I feel more energized so I dance and do my best to win this for him

 

And the moment of truth came as I held my breath for hearing the judge announcing the winners I just really prayed that

 

“please let me win not for me but I want to win for my Brother I want him to be proud of me so please god! Let me win please!!!! ” I prayed

 

And because I was praying I didn’t hear the judge saying who win until I felt people are coming to me and congratulating me I don’t know what happen  until Hae show from nowhere and jump to me and

 

“HYUNG YOU WON! YOU WON!!!! HOOOORAY SO HAPPY HYUNG!” he said while he was hugging me and we both jumping at what I knew

 

I did it I made it Hae was so happy and I feel more happy because I made my brother happy even my friends start to hug me and strangle me that I cant even breath but its okay because I’m happy we are all happy!

 

We are all jumping at our victory until I saw Hae was slowly falling in the ground

 

“DONGHAE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

 

We rushed him to the hospital I was so nervous that I cant even breath why now! Why that we are having fun and happy

 

Why now?

 

Its been 3 hours and still Hae was in the emergency room all of us are freaking worried and me I felt like dying of waiting of what happen to Hae

 

Until the doctors came out of the E.R

 

“He’s fine now and resting! But I’m sorry to tell you but all of you have to be prepared he might not live any longer, I’m so sorry! ” the doctor said and my parents specially my Mom start to cry hysterically

 

While my Dad try to be strong and me I don’t know if I heard the right thing, I can’t believe it because the fast few days Hae was okay

 

I lost all the strength I have because I was not really ready last month they said he can live few more months or year but what happen

 

Why all of a sudden they will said Hae will not live any longer, how the hell did they know that? is god calling them? Is god telling them? How? How did they know it?

 

I was so confused I don’t know how will I carry the news its too heavy and I cant take it just like that!

 

How will I take it if I don’t know if this things really happening to me! Few months ago I was so angry at my family at my little brother that I wish I him die

 

But now that we start to build a better family a happy family, why is that Hae need to go! Why?

 

As I try to consumed all the feeling I felt my friends was here and comforting me, because now all I need is a company because I don’t know what to do! I really don’t know! I was crying and Heechul Hyung just let me until all the tears I have will be drained

 

The next day Hae sent back home since he wants it too,

 

Unlike before Hae was just laying in his bed and don’t have the strength to walk which makes me more hurt seeing he was dying slowly and all I can do is just ing looked at him

 

He still eats, and sleep with me beside him but the more I see him the more I feel he was fading slowly that no matter what I do I cant stop the death taking him away from me

 

Until that day!

 

I was awake when I felt someone was tugging my shirt and when I realized who is that I quickly open my eyes

 

And I see my little brother smiling at me

 

“good morning Hyung!” he said in a weak voice that hurt me hearing that

 

“morning Hae its still early get some more  sleep and later we will go to beach remember I promised we will be back at the sea right!” I said and try not to cracked my voice because I knew something that today was the day

 

“I cant wait for that Hyung,…. Hyung can you carry me in our veranda I want to see the sunrise can you?” he asked

And all I could do was just to nod because I might broke my voice and cry right away

 

So I carry him and here we are now waiting for the sunrise Hae was resting his head in my shoulder and every time his head was on my shoulder I felt comfortable and relieve that he was still alive and here beside me

 

“Hyung, can I say something weird to you!” he asked

 

“of course Hae anything even if its weird than my friend Yesung hyung” I said in a joke about saying yesung Hyung he laugh at what I said then

 

“you know what hyung, I have this weird thought that what if you’re not my brother and I’m not your little brother, I just thought that I want to be your………your ……boyfriend!” he said shyly and he shook his head

 

“see its weird right! Because Hyung if you asked me why I want you to be my boyfriend it is because of one thing, you want to know it?” he asked awkwardly

 

“yes of course I want to know it!, so what is it that one thing you like about me?” I asked shyly because if he’s not my brother actually i think I will fall for him first because he’s so handsome and very angelic that every guy really wants to have him

 

“the one thing I like about you is your gummy smile that I really love to see!” he said and smiled at me

 

“what? Because of my weird smile you will fall for me? Wow you’re so kind Hae!, but anyway thanks for liking me ” I said in disbelief but so happy that he like my smile even if its really weird!

 

“hmmm can Hyung say weird thing too?” I asked him and he looked confused that I smile at his face his really cute when he was confused

 

“sure Hyung anything!” he said and smile to me

 

“if you’re not also my little brother I will also like you for 3 reason!” I said happily to him

 

“woah 3 Hyung its too many but can I know even just one thing why will you like me?” he asked shyly and I know he was blushing

 

“I will tell you 3 so don’t be sad okay” I said and his face brightens at what I said

 

“hmmmm! No. 1 reason because you’re so kind that even if people do wrong things to you, still you will forgive them easily, and I’m one of them,

 

2 you’re so caring that you forgot your own self,

 

and last the first thing that makes me smile when I saw it

 

Its your smile Hae I love the way you smile because you smile like an angel that no one can resist your charming angelic smile , so if I’m not your Hyung I will really asked you out and be my boyfriend too” I said confidently and happy at my weird confession

 

Then I was shocked to see that Hae was crying at what I said so I hugged him and console him

 

“Thank you Hyung your really sweet and kind I was so blessed that I have a brother like you

 

I love you Hyung” he said in between sob

 

“shhhh….i should be the one thanking you  because you always there for me despite of what I do to you

 

And

 

I love you too My Hae”

 

And he just hugged me so tight and I do the same.

 

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hi again sorry for late update! but i hope you still enjoy this