Until one day it was my basketball tournament in school and he insisted to come so, so he come and I just ignore him and now he was tailing me until we reached the school, and what annoys me more is his plastered smile he wears until we reached school

 

I don’t know why is he so happy? Was coming to school and watching basketball really makes him so happy that everybody noticed that he was so cute when he was smiling like that, was he really that cute for everybody to noticed him, oh forget it Hyukjae and concentrate on your game

 

The game was so intense and some of our supporters are intense too until it happen something was going on the bleacher and there I saw him fighting to one guy at the bleacher

 

And now here we are at the Guidance office and get me into a big trouble

 

Then what surprised me for the very first time my parents came to fixed the trouble that my little brother create

 

And luckily I was not suspended since the guy that Donghae fought started it all

 

We first get out of the guidance office and my parents leave behind at the guidance office and then here he comes being so kind

 

“I’ m so sorry Hyung I’m sorry I get you into trouble” he said while his head shook damn it yeah he get me into big trouble

 

“YAH DONGHAE WHY DID YOU FOUGHT THAT GUY EVEN YOU KNOW THAT YOU ARE NOT MATCH WITH THAT GUY DO YOU REALLY WANT TO DIE? NOW I’M IN TROUBLE BECAUSE OF YOU, WHY DON’T YOU JUST STAY OUT OF MY LIFE OR BETTER YET JUST DIE SO MY LIFE WILL BE OKAY!” I shout at him then

 

 I was surprised to be slapped in front of my friends and team mates

 

“WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HYUKJAE, HOW DARE YOU SAY IT! HOW DARE YOU! HE’S YOUR BROTHER HOW DARE YOU WISH FOR IT DON’T YOU KNOW” my father was cut for what he was going to say because Mum drag him and Donghae to our car and then they leave me once again

 

After that incident I don’t come home that night  I drown myself to alcohol I don’t know why my parents love my little brother so much that it kills me

 

Yeah it kills me because of jealousy I just want them to love me as much as they loved Donghae but why they never even give me even just a little concern so I know they love me even a little bit

 

I don’t know what happen that night because when I woke up Heechul Hyung was in my bedside

 

“Yah monkey how are you feeling your really drunk last night luckily someone fetch you and send you home ” he said then he handed me a glass of water

 

“How did I got home I remember I went to a bar and just drunk all I can so I can forget my gadh damn ing family and that stupid Donghae” I asked

 

 

“well that gadh damn stupid little brother of yours are the one that send you here in my house since you don’t want to come home” Heechul Hyung explain

 

“woah Hyung your good at lying now come on spill it who send me here is it Kangin Hyung?, Teukie HYung?, Sungmin? or Kyuhyun? come on Hyung just tell me! ” I asked again because there is no way that Donghae can find me in place he's never been

 

“Yeah I know it’s hard to believe that but he is also the one that finds you  since we don’t know the hell where did you go” Heechul Hyung again said

 

“but how? And Donghae cant carry me I’m too heavy for him since he was so skinny and as far as I remember I fainted at the bar and then I don’t know what happen after that” I said again damn it my head was spinning as I try to remember what happen

 

“Yeah you fainted you ugly monkey and that poor little brother of your carry you even if you are so heavy and you don’t know how I was shocked to see him so pale to carry you  and to send you here in my doorstep

 

Hmmmm I wonder how is he? Yah monkey get your here and come home and take a look if your little brother was fine or else I will kick your because he save your there ”

 

“Hyung I’d rather take your kick than to go home and check him so please can I go to your bathroom because I really smell stink okay, and please don’t force me I’m not really ready to see my little brother not now Hyung” I said and I go straight to his bathroom

 

Even if I know what my little brother do for me still I cant force myself to be kind to him I just cant

 

I never go home for the last 3 days thankfully Heechul Hyung let me stay here but what intrigues me I always have uniform and allowance for the last 3 days

 

Teukie Hyung gave me the allowance and Kangin Hyung the one that send me uniform wow I’m so blessed to have wonderful friends like them

 

Until that day I didn’t know that changed of heart will happen to me

 

We are practicing basketball for the championship for the school and then out of nowhere Sungmin just running towards me and what he was going to say will stop my heart for a minute

 

 

“Yah Hyukjae hurry come to hospital y-your y-you  brother i-I saw him he was sending to e-emergency room so Hurry up” he said while panting so hard maybe because he was running so fast to tell me this stupid news

 

 

“Yah bunny its impossible my little brother was comfortably staying at our house maybe you saw the wrong fish bunny” I said and I continue my practice shooting

 

While everybody was staring at me

 

“Hey hyukjae why don’t you check or call donghae so we can be sure he was fine” Kangin Hyung said

 

“Hyung its okay I know he’s fine so can we just practice okay” I said it again but I felt really weird in my heart but maybe I was just practicing so hard so maybe I’m just tired

 

 

Then

 

 

“YAH MONKEY WHY ARE YOU STILL HERE YOUR BROTHER DONGHAE WAS IN EMERGENCY ROOM YOUR MOTHER CALL ME AND ASKED TO TELL YOU TO GO QUICKLY AT THE HOSPITAL  HURRY UP!” it was Kyuhyun now that telling me

 

I felt like my knees are trembling I cant even moved emergency room but how? And why?

 

I cant believe it I just can’t so I get the ball and practice as if I didn’t hear what I knew, then someone throw a ball at the back of my head and when I turned around to nag him it was

 

HeechuL hyung

 

“YAH LEE HYUKJAE IF YOU WILL NOT GO TO HOSPITAL YOU WILL REGRET THIS FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE SO GO! BEFORE WE FORCE YOU TO GET OUT YOUR HERE” he shout

 

And I don’t know what happen my body take over me and I run as fast as I could I just couldn’t forget what Heechul Hyung said that I will regret it for the rest of my life so

 

I run to the hospital and when I reached the emergency room my Mum and Dad where crying while waiting at the emergency room

 

 

When my Mum see me he Hug me for the very first time and she cry so hard while saying

 

 

“oh Hyukjae your brother, he’s he’s oh” that’s all she was saying while she was hugging me so tight

 

Then after an hour the doctors came out of the E.R and

 

“Mr. Lee your son is okay he just got high fever but he was stable now, but he’s body is deteriorating so fast because of the cancer cells that was spreading so fast at his system so  I just want to inform you that we must hurry to find the donor before it was too late for Donghae”

 

Then the Doctor leave us and my Mum just hurry to go in my brother’s bed so we followed her

 

I don’t know where did I get the strength to walk and see my little brother

 

And there he was lying in bed with so many things that was attached to him a tube that help him to breathe and dextrose for him to have strength

 

I was shocked to see that my little brother who always give me smile every time we see each other is now lying at the bed pale and sick!

 

As I was looking at him I can’t help thinking of what I heard

 

cancer?

 

Did I really hear cancer?

 

Then someone tap my shoulder and it was my dad

 

“you okay son?” he asked

 

And for the very first time he asked me if I’m okay then  I don’t know what happen I just hug him  crying so hard I don’t know why I cry like that is because for the first time my Dad ask if I’m okay?

 

Or is it because I finally knew why my parents was so over protective to my little brother

 

Then my dad hug me back and said

 

Its okay son its okay everything will be fine your little brother will be fine so be strong son  we can get through this" my Dad said and i cry again that i cant even breath.