Heechul Hyung was right why would I waste my time crying if can do so much for the happiness of my brother

 

That night I volunteered to stay beside Hae

 

"Hi hae its me Hyukkie, hey we won like what you want i do everything so we can win, but why

 

why are you here? i thought tonight we will be celebrating our success but here we are you unconcious and me i cant do anything for you to be awake

 

Hae please! please! i'm begging you wake up fish, you dont want your Hyung Hyukkie sad and worried right? so please get up so we can play basketball and i promise i will teach you to dance

 

just wake up My hae!" i said and just let myself cry because thingking that Hae will leave me like this i just cant i cant take and i will never,

 

I just stay there and hold his hands hoping that tomorrow; I will see his smile like an angel in the earth

 

I just awake from my nightmare when I heard that angel voice

 

“Hyukkie, hyung Hyukkie!!!” and there I wake up and I saw the most beautiful smile I’ve seen in my entire life

 

“Hae!” I said in disbelief because he was smiling at me now

 

 

“Hi Hyung Hyukkie!” he said and I just smiled and then his hands trail in my face to wipe my tears because I’m freaking crying infront of my little brother

 

“don’t cry Hyung, I’m okay now! ” he said but I my tears wont stop even if I want it too, but this tears are worth it becuase my angle is awake now and talking to me while smiling so bright at me!

 

 

Hae stayed in the hospital for another  2 days for him to be checked carefully, then me and my parents were in the office of the head doctor of Hae because he will tell us what really happen to Hae

 

“I’m sorry Mr. and Mrs. Lee but his cancer started again and this time the cancer was spreading so fast that he’s body can cope up, that’s why he’s in coma 3days ago I told you before that this case really happen specially for those who have leukaemia relapsed happen in some patients, and unfortunately your son are one of those patients

 

To tell you honestly chemo and transplant cannot really help to make his condition stable, and were very sorry to inform that your son only 3 or 6 months to live it’s depend on how the cancers cells affect his body system were really sorry” said the doctor

 

 My Mum just cried and my Dad I know he was shocked liked me, my mind was blank like a black hole in the universe  I don’t know what to feel, what to think until we are surprised that

 

Hae was standing in the door blank face and I don’t know what is that face mean?

 

“Hyung, Its not true! its not true right ? i-I cant die I cant!!!” he said and then he runaway

 

So I chase him afraid that he might get into danger, and then I saw him in tree near the garden he was sitting there and crying on his knees

 

I slowly walked next to him I don’t want him to runaway again since its bad for his health too, I just stay there and wait for him to stop crying because for the first time he was crying so much and I can’t do anything for him again

 

Then all of a sudden his head rest on my shoulder and while he was still crying, so I just  put my left arm on his shoulder and tap him

 

“just cry Hae! I will just be here and I will never leave you, I know you want to cry long before so this is your chance ” I said  then he cry even harder and me I just closed my eyes and control my tears because as of this moment there is no room for me to be weak in front him

 

And maybe hours passed and he was subside now he still resting his head on my shoulder, the breeze of wind is getting cold so I take off my jacket and put it on HAe

 

“feeling better?” I asked

 

He just nod and we stay in that position for another hour and then

 

“Hyung! Can I asked you favours ?” he asked while still his head resting on my shoulder

 

“Hmm favours! why are they so many?” I and then

 

“hmmmm yes many Hyung!, so can you do that HYung Hyukkie?” he asked

 

“of course I will for my little brother Hae I will do anything, so what are this favours ?” I said happily

 

“hmmm can we go to ocean park tomorrow can we?” he asked

 

"of course and your wish are my command My master" i said cheerfully

 

but in my mind it was saying maybe this are the last favours i can do to him and thinking that i really want to cry and shout 

 

"why us! why my brother? and why me?"