I insisted to bring my own car because I know how awkward we will be when there's just me and Tina in her car later.

I don't know what she's up to.  Just few months back, she's acting like I have a contagious disease that she avoided me at all cost. Invented every possible reason just avoid me. And all of a sudden she's friendly again towards me.

I can't risk the newly build wall that I have built to protect my heart from breaking again. I am just on my way to recovery from my heartbreak from her. And I know, if I let my heart, It will fall again to her. My heart is just too vulnerable now. And it only knows and beat for Tina. If I let my walls down now. All my efforts will go to waste.

But with Alex around everything seems so easy. No dull or awkward moment. All my hidden feelings and things that I wanted to do with Tina before, I diverted it all to Alex.  I am not using her. I am just comfortable with her. What I felt for Alex for now has no definition yet. I don't feel the intensity of what I felt towards Tina before with Alex. And I will do anything to make that comfort will grow into something as intense as I felt towards Tina before. I am positive that I can make Alex fall for me eventually and I to her. But she left already, and no definite answer of when she's coming back. And that makes me so sad.

My mobile phone beeped. And was surprise to see that the message was from Tina.

"Are you home safe?" Was the message.

"Yeah, thanks." I replied.

"Have you had your dinner already?" Came her message