Final :')

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Konayuki - Piano Version 

So, after a few years, everything is still the same. The shady tree, the small store, the class, the rooftop, and those places we spent our time. The shady tree is still shady, full with the green leaves, getting enough sunlight and water. The small store is still small, dim and full of dust. The class is still the same, your desk is still at the same place. The rooftop is still the same, the half-wall is still full of our writings. Everything is just the same. The breeze, the sunshine, the atmosphere, and the sky.

I’ve graduated from the school. The school, that kept so much memories of me and him. The school that turns my life up and down. The school that got many secret places. The school, that will always be in my heart, as well as him.

I sat on the grass,  with the cold breeze kept on hitting me. I felt his warmth. I watched the scenery around me. I still remember our first meeting. I was here, crying. And you came, offering me your earphone.

‘Thank you, for being with me’

I stood up, and wiped off those tears on my cheeks. And make my way to the building.

I walked through the hallway, and did the same things I always do every year. When 24^th of October came, I will go to the classroom, sit on his chair, observing his touch on his place, touch his handwriting in his exercise books, trying to search every marks he left on his table.

And .. today is 24^th October 2017, here I am, sitting on your place while reading your letter over and over again. My eyes got teary, as usual. Every time I touch his marks, the sadness and the pain got into my heart. The pain .. which is the most painful pain I’ve ever feel.

I miss him, a lot. I hope he was here, sitting next to me. Comforting me with his smile, tapped my back, and tell me those lame jokes. Although, he always tell the same lame jokes, but I’ve never get tired of it. Because the Chanyeol that I know, will always be with me. Although, he has no hair. Although, he can’t walk properly. Although, he got a pale face. Although, he’s wearing the knitted-hat with the hospital’s uniform. Although, he is always holding his drip. He will always be with me. I will never leave him. Never. Because his name written deep inside my heart, and it cannot be erase .

I sat there, and watched the scenery through the window.

‘You’re here, within the air.’

I took my deep breath, and observed the whole class. I still can see you’re laughing at the front of the class. I still can see you’re throwing those crumpled paper at me, to bother me from reading books. I still can see you’re staring at me with those big round eyes, with a smile plastered on your face. I still can see you blabbering at me because I keep reading books without paying attention to what you’re saying.

I closed my eyes, and walked out of the class, as I am walking through the hallway, I saw everything. Everything we did, together. I saw you’re chasing me with that blue paint on your hand, trying to put it on my face. I saw we’re gossiping with the books in our hands. I saw you’re trying to get those sweet buns that I brought. I saw we’re laughing loudly. I saw everything, everything we did in this hallway. Do you still remember?

I opened his locker, everything is still the same. His jacket, his cap, his sweets, his books, our pictures. Everything are there. I took out his jacket, I still can smells his scent on the jacket. He smells nice, like a fruit. I took off one of our picture, and put it in jacket. Then I closed his locker. Every year, I will take off those pictures, one by one. Since he’s gone for four years, so I’ve took four of them. But there are plenty more in his locker.

‘You’re too crazy to put a dozen of our pictures in your locker, don’t you?’ I chuckled.

I continued my way through the hallway, until I reached the store room, I stood in front of the door, and touched it. I can hear your breath, I can feel your body’s heat, I can feel your warmth. Everything in my mind keep on replaying the same things, over and over again.

‘See? That’s how much I miss you.’

My tears dropped, again. I wish he is here. With me. Standing next to me. If I could go back in time. I will say everything in my mind right now. About how much I miss you, how much I love you, all my thanks to you. If i got a chance to meet you once again, just ONCE, I will hug you, tightly. I will pinched your cheeks, I will mess with your hair, I will tell you my lame jokes, I will tickle you until you couldn’t catch your breath. I will do everything with you.

I walked off while wiping off tears that keep on flowing on cheeks, and make my way to the rooftop.

Everything is dim, and empty. I stood there, the breeze keep on hitting me, the sun shines brightly. Everything we did here, keep on replaying in my eyes, I saw you’re tickling me there, I saw you’re trying to get my attention by doing those funny faces, I saw we’re chasing each other like a silly couple, I saw we’re studying here, I saw you’re sleeping there, while I am bothering you with touching your face, I saw you’re playing the games with me, I saw you’re smiling to me, I saw everything.

“Aish, everything is just the same.”

I took my deep breath, and took out the letter that I wrote. I fold the letter until it become a plane. This is what I do every year. Writes a letter, and fly it away from the rooftop. Hoping for him to catch it from up there, within the air.

‘ Here is the letter for you. Catch it.’

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EXO - Miracles in December

For my silly bestfriend, Chanyeol.

Hey, dear bestfriend,

How are you? Oh no, firstly, congratulations because you can catch this letter. :D

Okay, let’s begin. How are you? Are you happy there? Are you laughing? Are you smiling? Or are you crying? No, please don’t.

Please don’t cry. If you’re smiling right now, that’s great. *thumbs up*. You know what? Although I can’t see you or talk to you or hear your voice, but I can feel you. Can you talk to me? Please, did you met God? If you just met the God, tell him or beg him to give you a chance to talk to me. If you can’t say or speak to me, even a word, that’s fine for me. Even a word, just a word, please, I just want to hear your voice. Haha, but I know that I will never got that chance X’D

Anyway, did you know, what my wish on my birthday last month? I think you already know about my wish, but it’s okay, I will tell you again. Since I know that you’re so forgetful. My wish is … *drums roll*
 

To meet you again, to hear your voice, to see your smile, to see your big round eyes, to play with you, to eat those sweet buns with you, to do everything with you. Is it fine if I make that kind of wish? Well, I don’t know what’s your answer is, but for me, I can do any wish that I want. It’s my wish after all :D
 

I got so many things to tell you, about how I graduate, about how I facing the exams, about my job, about everything that happened in my life. How about you? Do you have things to tell me from up there? About how you’re protecting me from up there? How you’re watching from there? Through binocular, maybe? Haha, :D
 

Nahh, don’t you dare to let your tears flow out again, I’m happy right here, I got a job, I’ve graduated, I’ve done many things in my life. So, don’t worry, okay? Everything is fine here. Now, smile! :’D
 

Do you still remember our promises, I’ve once promised you that I will never leave you. And guess what? I’m not leaving you, because you’re deep in my heart. In your letter, you told me, that you left me. You’re not leaving me! I hate those words! Please don’t say or write something like that again.
 

You know what? I’ve been dreaming about you. I dreamed you’re trying to touch my face, I chased you, but you disappeared with a warm smile on your face, you disappeared and you left me behind. I’ve called you, so many times, but you didn’t come back . In my heart, there was one question, do you really want to leave me that much? I bet no, right? Please don’t leave me. :(
 

You wrote on the letter, that you don’t want to see my teary eyes, right? You don’t want me to see you holding a drip, wearing the hospital’s uniform and the knitted-hat, and got no hair. Or else, dying. You know what? Although you don’t want me to see you in that condition, but I really want to. Because that’s the only way for me, to spend my last times with you. But why? Why you keep preventing me to see you?
 

When I ask to meet you, you told me that you can’t leave your grandmother because she is sick. Okay, I understand your situation. But those are lies. That’s not grandmother who was having a disease, that’s not your grandmother who was dying, that was you! You, Chanyeol! You knew that you’re dying, you knew that you want to spend your last time with me, but you didn’t tell me.
 

 You know that I really want to see you, for the last time, right? But you didn’t give me any chance to meet you. To see your face, to see your smile, to see your eyes, to touch your face, to grab your hands, to mess your hair, to smell your scent, … and to say my last goodbye to you. You didn’t give me any chance! Why ? :’(
 

I hope you’re happy up there. Do you see me? Do you still protecting me from up there?
 

Thank you. Thank you for being with me, thank you for being my friend, thank you for spending your times with a nerd like me, thank you for protecting me, thank you .. for everything. Thank you.
 

I love you, Chanyeol.
 

Please, keep on protecting me, until I meet you there. Please wait for me, I will meet you, for sure. I will and I promised you, okay? :')

Goodbye, my silly Chanyeol :p

Be happy :’D

Your silly girlfriend, :'D
Amber

I took a deep breath, and closed my eyes. Then I fly away the folded-plane paper to the air, letting the breeze to take it away and pass it to him. Hoping he could read my letter. I will never get tired of sending those letters to him. Never.

I closed my eyes, then I felt someone is wrapping his arms around my waist. The smile appeared on my face.

“Do you think he’s having a great time up there?” I asked and took a deep breath and smiled with those teary eyes.

“Of course.” Kris answered, I could feel his warmth. He’s hugging me from behind, then he kissed my head. Trying to comfort me. Well, I’m happy in his arms. I am.

“He will always be there. He’s there, watching us. Do you think he’s jealous with me hugging you like this?” Kris chuckled while cuddled on my neck. I laughed.

“Yeah, of course he will.” I answered. I could hear his chuckle. With the breeze keep hitting us, I could feel the happiness, and I’m sure he’s happy too.

“I love you, Amber.” He whispered through my ears and kissed my head, once again.

“I love you too , Kris.” I closed my eyes, as the tears flowed out from my eyes. I wiped it off. Those tears will never stop its hobby from flowing out. What can I do?

“You’re crying, baby? Please don’t.” Kris turns me to face him, he gave me his warm smile. The wiped off those tears with his thumb, and placed his lips on my forehead. I closed my eyes.

‘I love you, Kris’

“Ma .. mma” I turned my head to that voice. I chuckled while seeing the girl running toward me and Kris. She’s wearing a light pink dress. Looks so cute with that bobbed hair and the turquoise ribbon hairpin.

Kris placed his hand on my waist. He’s smiling at the girl.

I sit on my knees and hugged the girl.

“My girl, look at you, messy girl.” I wiped off the remaining blueberry cream on her cheeks. Then pinched her cheeks.

“Just your mom? How about your father?” Kris sit on his knees beside me with a pouted lips. His words turns the girl attention to him. She ran toward her father, and hugged him.

“Aigoo, so cute. Yu-ra, do you want to play with me?” Kris also did the same things as me. He pinched the girl’s cheeks. The little girl smiled and nodded. Kris smiled and messed the little girl’s hair. They played the rock-paper-scissors thingies and started to chase each other.

I smiled, and look up at the sky. The weather is … sunny.

‘Are you happy?’

I’m happy with my family. I have Kris by my side, I have Yu- ra, as the sunshine in my life. This is what you want to see, right? You want to see me having a happy family, and play around with them, happily. Here I am, playing with them.

'I love them, Chanyeol.'

'I love them ..'

'So much. '

"Goodbye, Chanyeol"

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