Chappie 8

I walked with the sweet buns in my hand. As I walked through the hallway, I can smell the medicine, the white gloves, the mask and I can hear the  medical equipment sounds.

W-O10 – I pushed the door, and I saw a dark room and absolutely quite, but the sunlight still managed to light up the room a little.

“Hey,”

“Hey,” I put the sweet buns on the mini table beside the bed as I looked at the smiling guy with a pale face.

“How are you feeling?” I asked while I took my seat on the chair beside the bed. I can smell the medicine, mixed up with the atmosphere. It was a heavy rain outside, the raindrop kept on hitting the glass window. The window with a little cactus beside it.

“Great,” Chanyeol smiled, He was wearing the hospital’s patient uniform, with the tube all over his body, and the gray knitted-hat on his head. And he still managed to give a smile. 

“This, your sweet buns.” I took the sweet buns and offered it to him. Chanyeol was admitted to the hospital after his collapsed at his house two days before. He texted me yesterday, told me to bring the sweet buns.

He took the sweet buns and smiled. Looking so excited with the sweet buns. He smiled with a pale face. Trying to hide the teary eyes with the smile.

“Thanks, bro.” He took out the sweet bun and took a bite of it. I chuckled, he still trying to hide his teary eyes while kept eating the sweet bun. I know why he asked me to bring those sweet buns, so that he can taste the sweet buns which is Amber’s favourite.

“This sweet buns reminds me of her.” He said and chuckled, his tears flowing out from his eyes but he still smiling, and kept on eating those sweet buns.

“Hey, you like Amber,right?” His words stopped me when I was about to took the magazine. I looked at him suspiciously, how did he know?

“Why don’t you confess it? I bet that she will accept it.” Chanyeol looked at me and chuckled then continued to eat the sweet buns. I didn’t say any word but I walked toward the window instead. Looking at the heavy rain outside, watching the sky. I closed my eyes, I didn’t know how to respond. I want to confess, but it just not right.

I .. I didn’t dare to, because I know that it will hurt Chanyeol. Since I know that Chanyeol really loves Amber.

“Don’t worry about me, though I will be hurt, but it’s okay. I will leave soon, and I will be happy if I could see Amber felt the happiness before I close my eyes forever. It will be nice if I know that you will be the one who protect her, keep loving her, taking care of her, because you’re the only one that I trust.” I turned around and face him, I let out a heavy sigh with my hands in my pockets.

I walked toward him and sit on the chair beside the bed. I looked at him then chuckled, because of his sincere heart. He is a nice guy, although it will bring scars to his heart, but he was willing to let her go, as long as he can see her smiling face. He will do anything.

“Such a nice guy,” I chuckled and punched his shoulder, lightly.

“Please … be with her.” He smiled then continued to eat the sweet buns. As he looked away, trying to hide his tears.

'I will .'

After that incident, Chanyeol didn’t come to school for a month! It was already a month, and I never saw his face anymore. But he always texted me, telling me the reasons why he couldn’t come to school. He needs to take care of his sick grandmother.

I understand, I was trying to put myself in his shoes. I asked him to meet me once, but he never accept it. He said that he can’t leave his grandmother. He was worried if something might happen to his grandmother if he leave his grandmother alone at home.

Okay, I understand, that was what I said. I’ve been missing him, so much. I wanna see his face, wann hear his voice, wanna share my stories with him, wanna see his innocent smile, wanna hear his lame jokes, I just wanna do everything with him.

“Hey, want some?” Someone sat beside me offered me sweet buns that was in his hand. I lift up my face and I saw kris was smiling at me while eating his sweet buns. The sweet buns reminds me of our past. Always share the sweet buns together.

 “Hey, thanks.” I took the sweet bun and looked away, appreciating the peacefulness that I felt. I took a bite of the sweet bun.

After a long silence, finally Kris broke the silence between us.

“Ah, did you move from your old house? Because I’ve been there before, and your neighbour told me that you’d moved.” Kris asked without even looking at me but kept on eating his sweet bun instead.

“Yea,” I looked on the ground then put a smile on my face.

“Can I see your mom and your brother? I wanna meet them. It has been a long time since the last time I meet them.” Kris looked at me and finished up his sweet bun.

I gasped, didn’t know how to answer that question.

“ Er .. I .. I can’t . I’m sorry.” I startled while the tears filling up my eyes. I stopped from eating my sweet bun.

“Hey, why are you crying?” Kris cupped my face and looked me straight in the eyes. He wiped my tears with his thumb, then he pulled me into a hug. I could feel his warmth, the heat from his body when he hugged me.

“My .. my mom .. she passed away last year, my brother .. Donghae, he left me after two months of my mom death.” I hugged him tightly, as I cried. He patted on my back, trying to calm myself down.

“Don’t worry, I will be here, for you. I will never leave you, okay?” He broke off the hug and cupped my face and wiped the tears on my cheeks.

Slowly, I could feel his face was getting near, in a second, I could feel the warmth of his lips. He put his lips on mine, softly. His hands was  on my neck. While my hands gripping his jacket. I was shocked with his sudden kiss, my tears flowing out on my cheeks, but he wiped off my tears with his thumb without breaking off the kiss.

After a while, he broke off the kiss, and gave a warm smile. As our forehead on each other’s,

“Will you .. be my girlfriend?” He caressed my cheeks and looked into my eyes. I could feel my face was getting red. I didn’t know what to answer, but I nodded my head. He pulled me into a hug as he put his head on mine, then he kissed my forehead,

“I love you, Amber” He whispered, then kissed my forehead, my eyes, my cheeks and .. my lips. He kissed my lips longer and softly.

‘Don’t leave me , for the second time.’ I smiled.

Everything was beautiful, the scenery, the breeze, the atmosphere. It was perfect. As if I was in my beautiful dream. The dream .. that I will never forget.

I wish .. I could stop the time, and stay like that ..

Feeling the meaning of happiness and

Love.

I looked through the window, it was a bright sunny day. I smiled, while looking up in the sky.

‘Amber, are you having a great day?’

I looked at the sweet buns on the table beside me. I took the sweet bun, and took a bite of it.

‘Sweet’

Those sweet buns reminds me of you. It was sweet, as sweet as your smile. I closed my eyes, trying to held in my tears with my smile. But smile can’t hide all the sadness I felt inside, the smile can’t hide all the pain I felt inside.

Finally, my tears flowed out from my eyes. I clenched my fist, trying to endure the pain as I cried even more.

The pain, that I could never endure. Too painful. The most painful pain I’ve ever felt. The tears kept on flowing out, I tried to put a smile on my face. Trying to hide everything inside. But I just … can’t.

With the tube around me, the pain in my head, the white blanket and sheets on my bed, sitting there, alone. In a dark room.

Enough to tell everybody that there was no more happiness in my life. It was a gloomy day, in my heart. Everything was gloomy. I sit on my bed, thinking what will happen to me, what will happen to my family, what will happen to her?

Those questions kept on running on my mind. If I was given a chance to meet you once again, I got a thousand questions to ask you. But I can’t. I can’t show you the ‘me’ right now. I can’t show you the sick Chanyeol. I can’t show you Chanyeol with a pale face. I can’t show you the Chanyeol with no hair.

“I can’t” I cried a lot, letting go all my sadness through the tears.

‘How are you?’ ‘What are you doing?’ ‘Are you okay?’ ‘What are you eating?’ ‘Do you still crying?’ ‘How’s your health?’

Those common questions, I really want to ask you. But one question, that I really really want to ask you.

‘Will you be okay, if I am not around?’

My tears kept flowing out on my cheeks.

‘Will you be happy? Will you show the world  the sweetness of your smile?’

I gripped the white blanket, the sad atmosphere was around me.

‘Will you smile …

Even if I am not there?’

‘Will you, …

Amber?’

“I miss you” 

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