Chappie 4
Always Be
Chappie 4
As the winter passed, the spring came. Although, everything was just the same. But the pain I felt, it was not as pain as I felt more. Thank you, god. For giving a chance for me to feel the warmth of love again, for making me feel like a real person, for making me breath easily again.
I looked outside the window, watching every petals of flowers blooms. It was a beautiful scenery. The beautiful scenery I felt , as well in my heart. I am happier with my life now, although it is not as happy as it was before, I was totally grateful. With Chanyeol and him by my side, I believe that everything will be fine.
I took out my lunchbox that filled with my sweet buns. As I was about to eat it, Chanyeol took away my bread and put it in his mouth.
“Let’s exchange.You took my lunchbox, I will take your sweet buns.” Chanyeol pushed his blue lunchbox to me.
‘Whoa, am I dreaming? Our Chanyeol is offering me his lunchbox! And I never thought you got a lunchbox at home.” I took the lunchbox and open it.
“It’s nothing actually, I just want to taste your sweet buns. Is it so delicious that caused you to eat these buns everyday? Ah, one more thing, that was handmade.” He pointed his lunchbox that I was holding and kept eating the buns while sitting beside me with his MP on.
“Whoa, rolled-eggs? Are you kidding me, Chanyeol? Did you make with your own hands?” I asked while looked at his yea-that-is-me face.
“Whoa, thank you my little Chanyeollie! I will make you some sandwiches tomorrow.” I piched his cheeks while he was smiling with his mouth full.
“Aigoo, look at you. So cute! With that face on your face.” I pinched his cheeks once again while smiling at him. I took the rolled-eggs with my chopstick and put it in my mouth. It was really really really delicious. I can’t believe that Chanyeol can do something like this.
“Just eat it. Do you always like this? Praising the cooker first and then, eat the foods?” He finished up the sweet buns while looking at me. I ignored him and kept on eating. I took another rolled-eggs and reached my hand to him.
“Me?” Chanyeol pointed at himself. I nodded while still offering him the rolled-eggs. He chuckled then eat the rolled-eggs that I offered him. He messed up my hair while kept on watching me eating the rolled-eggs.
“You look cute while eating.” Once again, he messed up my hair. I glared at him. Yea, I like it when someone mess my hair up. But, when they do it too often, it’s started to annoyed me.
Chanyeol lie on the ground and looked at the blue sky. I finished up the rolled-eggs, then I closed the lunchbox and put it aside. I joined Chanyeol looking at the blue sky. Both of us were spending our time together at our not-so-secret place which is the rooftop.
‘Do you want to know something?” Chanyeol began to talk after a long silence between us.
“Yea, what?” I answered while still looking at the sky.
“You are my best friend. And you will always be.” Chanyeol looked at me and smiled.
I looked back at him and smiled. “I know. Same here.”
“Thank you for always be with me.” He looked at me , and his eyes became teary. I stood up.
“I, Amber Liu, promised that I will never ever ever ever leave you, Park Chanyeol. He will always be with me, and I will take care of him forever. Until my death.” I put up my hand, as if I was swearing while looking straight through our school buildings. From up here, I can see, the boys are playing soccer, some boys are woo-ing the girls, some girls gossiping in the class. We can see everything from here.
I put my hand down, and looked at him. He laughed at my actions, watching his laugh, make me laugh too. Everything that related to him, also got connections with me. If he is sad, I can feel the pain, If he is happy, I will feel happier. I sat down beside him and offered him a pinky-promised.
“Promise me that you will never leave me. And always be with me forever.” I said while still offering him the pinky-promise.
“Let’s skip the class.” He grabbed my hand, and dragged me away.
“Yah, Chanyeol! Where are we going?” I shouted,
“Break some rules, run, skip the class, and getting punish by the teacher … together.” Chanyeol answered while still running toward the wall at the back of the school. He was still grabbing my hand, tightly.
He climbed the wall, and offered me his hand. “Come on” He smiled.
“Breaking some rules is kinda fun.” I chuckled and took his hand.
I can’t believe that I am sneaking out from the school, with …. Chanyeol.
We went to the arcade and play some games, we went to the park and enjoyed our ice-creams while watching the flowers bloomed, and played the basketball.
Now, we are sitting in the court. Chanyeol lied on the ground with the sweats all over his face. He wiped it with his hand, his breath became unstable, tired because of the basketball game.
I sat beside him, feeling the same way. It’s been a while since the last time I played basketball. I really need to practice more. Although, I won over Chanyeol, but I still I have to improve a lot on my skills.
“Yah~ Tell me, if there is something that you not good at? You’re good at everything, Ambeo-yah.” Chanyeol looked at me while still lying down.
“Okay, I’m not good at drawing.” I chuckled as I looked at him. He looked then chuckled a little.
“Okay, I just got 1 score. Maybe I should draw you one day.” He get up and sat beside me. He smiled.
“Chanyeol-ah, promise me, that you will stay beside me.” I offered him the pinky-promise. He looked at me with the smile plastered on his face. Then he grabbed my hand and stood up.
“Let’s go, we should go back to the school.” Then he dragged me. I stopped. I looked at him and offered him the pinky-promise with my other hand. He looked at me and let go a sigh.
“Yah~ Let’s do it later. Let’s go.” He dragged me away. I was disappointed. Why he is trying to avoid my pinky-promise? Whatever, maybe we should do it later. I let go a sigh and did not take it seriously.
We climbed back the wall and got into the school area a second later. We watched around us, trying to avoid ourself from being catch by the teacher.
As we about to reach the class, out homeroom teacher came out from the class. Chanyeol quickly pulled my hand then, both of us were standing in a dark room. It was a store, a small one. All the things in the store make Chanyeol and I need to stand as close as we can.
My back was leaning on the door, Chanyeol was standing as close as he can , in front of me. I can feel the heat of his body, I can hear his heartbeats. My heart beat really fast .
With his hand on the door, while his other hand on my lips, asking me to be quiet as I can make us standing in an awkward position. With the awkward silence.
After a while, I can feel his breath hitting my cheeks, his face was getting near. I tried to avoid it, but his hand trapped me. He placed his hand at my neck with his other hand trapping me. Slowly, he lift up my chin, caressed my cheek with his thumb, and looked me in the eyes. His face was getting near. I can feel my face was getting red.
“Chanyeol.” I called him while gripping his shirt. He stopped, thank goodness, he put his hand down.
“Sorry.” Then he pulled the door slowly and quietly. Chanyeol grabbed my hand and got us out from the store room and looked around. Making sure that there was nobody at the hallway.
“ I think you better get in first. I gotta go to the toilet.” Chanyeol said then walked away. I stood there, as I watched him walked off, I got into the class, and act like nothing happened.
I walked through the hallway with tears filling up my eyes.
‘I’m sorry , Amber. I’m sorry for everything. I’m sorry because I can’t keep my promise. And I can’t make any promise to you anymore. I’m sorry.’
My tears kept flowing out,
‘Why did it choose me?’ I punched the wall beside me, and put my forehead on the wall. And closed my eyes,
‘It was just a dream. I am dreaming, when I open my eyes, everything will be fine.’
Slowly, I opened my eyes, and my heart ache, when I see that I’m still in that position.
‘No way .. How could ..?’
I fell onto the ground as well as my tears. I can’t believe that I will leave her. I will leave everything. I kept on crying and crying.
‘Why did it have to turned out like this?! I never ask for this! God, why did you choose me? Please, let me feel some of happiness.’
I looked on the ground, with my teary eyes. It’s dropping, I can see the red liquid kept dropping. I touched my nose, and as expected, the blood was on my hand.
“Arghh!”
‘Do I have to go through this? God, you’re too cruel ..’
“Please…”
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