Chappie 11

The atmosphere was dim. Everybody was wearing a black dresses and tuxedo. Holding black umbrellas. Their faces showed that they were sad by this situation. I stood there, kept on looking at the name on the stone.

‘Park Chanyeol in memory, 27^th Nov 1992 – 24^th October 2013’

That was what written on the stone. The black stone, with the beautiful flowers around it. Red, white, and yellow. It was pretty. My eyes kept looking at it, then moved to his picture.

The picture showed his smile, his round big eyes, with his black hair, wearing tuxedo. Looking so smart in that picture. I miss that face, very much.

My eyes were swollen, my throat hurts, but I don’t want to cry. No, I’m not going to cry infront of him. I don’t want to let him feel the pain anymore. He already felt that much of pain. 

I heard the sobs, I lift up my face, and I saw his mom was crying, while his sister was trying to calm her mother.

‘You are lucky to have this warm family. But why did you leave?’

Kris was beside me, holding my shoulders, giving me the encouragement words. I looked at him, his face … looks so sad. Although his appearance looks so handsome, with the blonde hair, and the tuxedo, but with a gloomy atmosphere, he looks so dim.

Everybody already took their steps to leave that place. But I still standing there. I want to have my precious moment before I go. Kris patted my hair and left me alone, with him.  While holding the black umbrella, I sat on my knees infront of the stone, and smiled.

I looked at his picture, and touched his face on it. Trying to feel his presence. I closed my eyes, while my hand, was touching the stone, until I reached his name.

“Park Chanyeol, I miss you.” I talked to myself. Hoping he could hear my voice.

‘Do you hear me?’

I smiled, and stood up. Kris was standing under that shady tree, looking at me. The tears filled in my eyes. I tried to hold it in. I took my last glance at him, and walked away. Because I know, if I stay there a little longer, he could feel the pain. Because the tears started to flow out from my eyes.

As I was taking my steps, the rain started to fall. I looked at the sky, with the tears on my face.

‘Are you sad?’

That was what on my mind at that time. I kept on walking while wiping off those tears. The rain were getting heavy. My eyes became blurred because of the tears.

I stopped for a second, and wiped it off, I took another glance at ‘him’, and smiled. In my heart, I only have one wish. I wish, he will be happy up there.

‘Smile, Chanyeol.’

I took another steps until I reached Kris. I looked on the ground, didn’t dare to meet his eyes. Because I don’t want him to see my tears. He hugged me, tightly. Giving me a chance to let out all my tears.

“Let it go” He whispered. That makes me cried even more.

He kept hugging me until I calmed myself down. Then he broke the hug and lift up my chin to make me face him. He smiled, and wiped off the tears on my cheeks with his thumb. I could see his teary eyes, even though he was trying to hide it with a fake smile plastered on his face.

I smiled,

‘Thank you.’

He grabbed my hand and dragged me toward the car, he opened the passenger seat’s door, and let me in. Then he walked to the driver’s seat.

We didn’t talk at all while in the car. Kris was focusing on the road, while I kept on watching the scenery through the window. I looked at the sky, still gloomy. Everything mixed up in my mind.

Disappointed, angry, sad, all of that mixed up. I was angry because Kris didn’t tell me anything about Chanyeol. How did Kris know about Chanyeol’s condition?! And he didn’t tell me, even a word about Chanyeol’s disease! I couldn’t accept it!

Kris took a glance at me, I looked at him, and our eyes met. I looked away and took a deep breath. And decided to ask him the question that kept replaying in my mind.

“Why didn’t you tell me about him?” I spoke, breaking off the silence between us. The rain was getting heavier.

Silent. He didn’t answer my question but kept on focusing on the road. I took another deep breath, and asked him the same question for the second time. But this time, I rise up my voice a little, in case he didn’t hear me before.

Silent. I took a glance at him. He was still focusing on the road, and took a deep breath. Then he looked at me, our eyes met. But this time, I don’t want to lose. My heart, my mind, my eyes, was full of anger.

“Answer me!” The tears started to flow out from my eyes, but I kept on staring at him. While he was still focusing on the road. He slowed down the car and parked the car at the side of the road, with the heavy rain.

He looked away, and turned his eyes to me. Looking straight into my eyes.

“I’m sorry.” After a long break, finally he spoke.

“Sorry? Do you think, with that word, you can change the pain in my heart? Do you know how much pain i feel inside?” I raised my eyebrow while kept staring at him. He took a deep breath and turned his body to face me.

“I .. I .. I was .. not ready to tell you about him.” He startled, while his hands on my shoulders. I took his hands off me.

“Ouh, you were not ready? So now you’re ready to tell me about him? Do you know who is he to me?”  With the teary eyes, I kept asking those kind of questions that resembles the anger that kept hitting in my heart.

“Look, I don’t want you to feel that kind of pain again.” He looked away, didn’t dare to meet my eyes.

“But I AM in pain! The fact is, this make me feel the pain even more! I was laughing, while he was suffering. I was smiling, but he was crying. Do you think I will be happy like that? No! Because he IS my best friend, and will always be my bestfriend!” My voice rise up, the tears was on my cheeks. Letting all the anger go.

“I’m .. sorry.” He looked on the ground.

“Stop this .” I got off the car, and slammed the door. I cried as hard as I can, with the rain kept on hitting me, I walked along the road. Didn’t know what was my destination, but I kept on walking, as fast as  I can.

“Amber!” He kept calling out my name. I could hear his footsteps was getting near, then I ran, as fast as I can. I was soaked because of the heavy rain. I felt dizzy, my eyes became blurred because of the tears and the rain.

My body felt heavy, I can feel the pain in my head. It was hurt.

Then, everything went dark.

But I heard those footsteps were getting near.

“Amber,” I heard his voice was calling my name a few times, I felt my body was shook by him.

And … I don’t know what happened.

I felt pain in my head, I tried to open my eyes, but I can’t. I took a deep breath, and try it again. I felt dizzy, then I touched my head. I felt something wet, I took it. It was a small towel.

With my right hand as a support, I tried to get up. Suddenly I heard footsteps, was getting near. Then I realized, I was not in my house. The white wall, with a picture of a river platered on it, the soft white couch, with a small white glass table infront of it, and a super big flat screen TV, this was definitely not my house.

I tried to stood up while my eyes kept watching everything around me. Then, he came with a tray in his hand. On the tray, there was a bowl with a porridge in it.

“Hey. How do you feel? Better?” He put the tray on the glass table and took his seat beside me. His presence stop me to stand up. He looked at me, with a worry eyes. He put his hand on my forehead.

“Good, You’re getting better.” He gave a smiled. I  looked at him, then looked away when I remembered what happened before I faint. He grabbed my hand causing me to look at him.

“I’m sorry for the earlier. I know it was my fault. I can’t do anything except for sorry. If I can bring him back, I will. As long as it can make you happy, I will change my life with him. But, please, don’t do something like that anymore. You make me feel guilty. I will do anything for you. I should tell you, but I can’t. He don’t want you to see him in that condition. I can’t do anything. I AM so sorry.” Kris spoke while his hand still gripping my hand.

He smiled, with his teary eyes. I felt guilty for yelling at him. I shouldn’t do that. He really took a good care of me. I don’t want to lose anyone anymore. I want him to stay by my side. To keep me feel the real meaning of life. To let me took my breath again.

I pulled him into a hug, I hugged him tightly. And patted his back a few times. He was shocked by my sudden action, then I heard him chuckled. His chuckle make me relieved. He replied my hug.

“I’m sorry.” That’s the only word I could say.

“No, it’s not your fault.” He broke off the hug and caressed my cheeks. His action make me smile. He’s the only one I have, right now. He’s the only one that keep staying beside, giving me those encouragement words. He’s the only one, that I want.

We stayed in that position for a few seconds, we were so close that I could feel the heat of his body. That I could hear his heart beats. That I could feel the warmth of his breath. His hand was on my waist, while my hand was on his chest.

Slowly, he put his lips on mine. I could feel the butterflies in my stomach. His lips was warm, I smiled within the kiss. I could feel his hand slowly moved from my waist to my neck. Trying to make the kiss deeper. My hand moved to his neck.

Without breaking off the kiss, he pushed my body until my back leaned on the couch. Then he broke off the kiss. Our eyes met, he smiled

"I love you," He whispered, then pinned me down with his kiss. His hands was on my waist. I feel every touch of his on my skin. His ing my shirt, one by one.

Everything was beautiful. Really beautiful.

‘Chanyeol, I’m happy. How are you?’

That night, was the most beautiful night in my life.

‘I love you, Kris.’

‘Thank you’

Hey guys! Well, i don't really satisfied with this chappie. Anyway, i've put my best to write something like that. I'm at it. I'm 13, okay. So please understand me,guys. XD Hope you like it. Sorry for any grammatical or typo error(s). I know this chappie is not that interesting. But thank you for reading! *bows* >.<

Next chappie will be the last chappie~ Yeay! Then, i will start to work for my second fanfic for Krisber.

Look At Me - SaraSuperBunny 
Pairing : Kris,Amber
Short Description : Will this marriage help them to fall in love?

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