I am still standing in front of Chanyeol. My mind couldn’t be at ease. I am waiting for his next words. He practically just said that my attitude did hurt him. As you all know, I never planned to do that.

Chanyeol closed his eyes then opened it slowly and then bowed 90 degrees right in front of me. I feel so confused now. Once he got up from his bow he lifted his sight to see me right in my eyes. I can see how his lips forced to form a smile since it just came not naturally.

“ ah .. I am sorry I came to a wrong person “ he still with his fake smile.

Yes ?

“ woah.. how can in this world you born exactly look like my girlfriend, amazing “ he started to over reacting with his big formed lips while talking. “ I am sorry, really “ he bowed again then turned his body away from me. He started to walk with no hesitant first step in it. He walked away from me. He did this again. Pretending like he didn’t know me. Just like when he said that I am my twin.

Lying isn’t my style. Really. I know it is something I should apologize for. The most important thing that sank my heart down is when he said that he felt hurt because of me. I am hurting him. I never planned to. I walked to catch him. He walked exactly faster than me, his long legs helped him too much. My walked like ran steps trying to catch up his steps. Efforts wont betray, now I am just some inches away from him. I muttered under my breath when I caught his left arm, “ Park Chanyeol “

He shrugged my hands away easily since I didn’t grab it tightly. I tried to catch it again for the second time then succeed. Now I grabbed it tighter.

“ Park Chanyeol “

He stopped moving, turned his body to me. His eyes right there met mine. I really had no idea what to say while looking at his eyes. I am just pleading through my eyes for him not to make things hard for me. I just wanna tell him that I have no heart to hurt him. But I can clearly see his disappointment, his hurt feelings through his eyes. Sometimes Chanyeol is just too easily pissed off and I know I did piss him off. A lot.

“ I have told you I am sorry for false recognition. “ He removed my hands from his arm then he bowed again and left, again.

What is this ? I ran to him again and now I got his arms again. He stopped again, turned his body to see me again. Now his lips formed a thin line, his jawline stiffened, his eyebrows are centered. I don’t know why suddenly I felt so angry that I raised my tone up.

“ until when are you going to shamelessly pretend like this ? “

I dared my eyes to fight him. Without any notice, I started to feel that my eyebrows also went centered, sick of what just happened.

“ I am just giving you what you wish for right ?? “ he also raised his voice up. He just felt annoyed exactly like me. No. I cant be like this, else there wont be an end in this. I closed my eyes and took a fast deep inhale then opened my eyes again. He still pissed off, I should calm. I am at the wrong side here. I am lying. I am the liar.

“ You didn’t want to see me tonight right ? you even included your dad and mom in your lie. Isnt that enough to prove that the person who you really didn’t want to see today is me ? “ he still with his high tone while questioning whether his conclusion is wrong.

“ I am sorry for lying .. “ I loosen my grip on his arm.

“ why did you do it when at the end you’ll feel sorry ? “ his eyes didn’t leave my eyes. He took deep inhale then added , “ why did you keep on doing things you didn’t really want to do ? why ? is it because of Seulgi ? “

I fixated my eyes on him. I still can see that he wanted to talk for more.

“ I have told you to just forget what Seulgi said ! to forget all of her words! Is it that hard ? “

He stopped for some air. No Chanyeol, don’t let out your anger. I am glad that I can find no one here. People can easily judge Chanyeol if they see this scene when they know nothing about the whole story.

“ it’s me who dated Seulgi, not you. Is it that hard to forget her words ?? “ he raised his voice even more. I am sick of his words. First he said that I hurt him, now is he trying to say that I am stupid for not easily do what he asked me to do ? Forgetting Seulgi’s words is too easy for me if I didn’t see his expression whenever Seulgi related thing came around him. If only I didn’t see the looks in his eyes when she just passed him. If only I didn’t see how his expression when he saw her in the big screen. If only I didn’t see the news. If only I never had any idea about his relationship with her before. If only..

“ and how you reject all of my offers, seriously why you have no confidence to stand beside me? is this also because of her ? I have told you not to mind her words and you still do mind it y—“

“ NO ! It’s NOT HARD FOR ME ! “ finally I also let my anger off. I am sick of his false detective analyzing.

“ it’s all easy for me Chanyeol.. it’s you who made it hard for me… “ I can feel anger took over my whole system in my body. How my breathing became all faster how my heart beats faster, how I felt slightly trembled. I felt my anger is up to my head which started to form a tear in the corner of my eyes.

“ I—If only you tell me where your heart is right now, this thing wont ever happened “ I panted, I tried to catch my breath so I can say for more “  If only I know where your heart is now, it wont be like this “

Another tear formed up. No. I looked down, I wiped a tear away only to be substituted by another tear.

“ If only I had the idea about where your heart is, I wont act like this… “ I sobbed quietly. I wish Chanyeol didn’t see me now. Why would I crying in this time like this? But chanyeol is seriously unfair…. How could he blame me when all I wish for is happiness.. how could he shouted at me when all I wish is his happiness, how could he said to me that I hurt him.. how could he do this to me.. he is just too unfair.

“ you never told me.. is it with me or with Seulgi.. you never told me.. because I don’t kno—know .. I – I am so—rry if I hurt you, I – I neve—r planned to do it in purpose “ I sobbed even hard. “ I never want to hurt you, never “

I felt like sat down on the ground and folded my legs now and cried as hard as possible. I have no strength left in my body.

Suddenly Chanyeol pulled me to his chest. He placed his chin on top of my head. He wrapped me in his embrace.

“ I am sorry.. “ his breath blew some strings in my head.

“ I am sorry.. “ I can feel how he slowly kissed my hair. His arms starting to sooth me from my back, He slowly caressed it and even pulled me in tighter.

“ I am sorry for not telling you .. “ his lips now stay right beside my ear.

I started to sob even hard. I think I damped his clothes now with my tears. I let my hands walked to his waist and tugged his shirt. I shook my head a bit. I am too tired to even say anywords which actually I wanna say to him that still it’s all my fault.

[why did you agree to date me]

So I wonder if you guys can check out my other fics LMAO here are some which I recommended from my own fics :

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