Begin Again

Don't Go...

     "Jongdae, can we go back?" Suho asked as soon as they reached the gardens on the northwestern part of the park.

     "Junjun... I thought we-"

     "Uhmmm... Jongdae, I changed my mind. I feel like I'm not yet ready to talk about it."

     "What holds you back? Fear? Hate? Hesitation? What?"

     "I don't know. I can feel my chest getting heavy with this. Let's just go back, please?" Joonmyeon begged in a cute manner. He turned around and started walking back to their friends.

     "Wait..." He heard Jongdae and what happened had shocked him. His childhood bestfriend grabbed his shoulders, spun him around and hugged him so tightly. "I missed you..."

     Joonmyeon felt the warm air gushing out of Jongdae's nostrils. It was because of the said boy's face snuggling closer to his neck. The short boy quickly hitched a breath as his orbs widened.

     "I'm very sorry if you have felt like I have forsaken you... I'm sorry... I hope you'll forgive me," Jongdae said as he tightened the embrace. Suho, on the other hand, was hesitating to hug back. His eyes were just getting more teary with every second passed.

     "It's not like I did that on purpose. If I only had the authority to command my parents about things, I should have used it very wisely. I know, it hurt you and was still continuing to hurt you. And I hate myself for that. I was too weak, too incapable. I admit, I'm an idiot for not trying so hard just to contact you or communicate with you. Hate me as much as you want, Junjun, I deserve it... But remember... I'll still remain as your bestfriend...whether you like it or not..."

     Joonmyeon thought of it. It's really touching his heart and he felt like bursting out into tears. However, he fought and conquered them for he's too conscious of the people around them. Suho remembered every pain and hardship he went through because of Jongdae. All tears and time wasted were also included. The memories, both good and bad, also rushed back to his mind which therefore gave him reasons to feel mixed emotions. There was joy when he remembered the funny moments they shared together. There was regret when he recalled all the words he failed to voice. And there was anger with every fault & blame he thought Tenten must be responsible with. There was even hatred with the cravings & longings his childhood bestfriend failed to sate due to his absence. He also felt the desperation to shun and shut Jongdae out of his life as a mechanism of protection. All of those, he felt at once. Suho badly wanted to let Jongdae feel what he'd felt but one thing held him back. It was something he also felt, the so-called L-O-V-E that brought him both negative and positive things. Opting to free himself rather than to run & imprison himself once more, he opened up his heart and thought of doing something. He thought that he's tired of being tortured by himself and it's time to fix it. The hesitation to hug back was eliminated and Suho did the said action. They remained like that for few minutes, notwithstanding the pairs of eyes fixed at them. With tears stranded on his eyes, Joonmyeon pulled away from the warm embrace and looked at his bestfriend eye to eye.

     "Good thing that you know you're an idiot, Tenten... You deserved to be punished..."

     "Yah... Why are you like this to me?" Jongdae childishly reacted with a pout. Junjun just giggled and the said action expelled the stranded tears.

     "You're trademark from the past is still the same. You're still the childish high-cheekboned boy I know."

     "I'm glad that you still know me," Tenten commented and showcased a smile. "Well... Uhh... Does this mean that we're friends again?"

     "Uhmmm.... Maybe. But you still owe me a lot of answers. Hehe! Look, Tenten. I just decided to open up my heart and let go of what I should let go. I've realized that I'm the one who's making it harder and more complicated for me. For now, let's just be friends. Let's say, we're gonna begin again from the start. It still hard for me, you know. Human as we are, we tend to have difficulties in forgiving someone and forgetting something. Most especially when it left a reminder, a scar difficult to expunge perhaps. You're gone for six years, Tenten. And six long years for me isn't easy to forget. If you only knew what I've been through... Anyway, don't worry. Forgiving you totally won't take long."

     "Thanks a million, Junjun. I understand. I'll look forward to it. Always remember that I'm just here to help you in anything, okay? I'm thinking that I need to make up with the things I have missed while I'm gone."

     "Yeah. You really should," Joonmyeon said with a giggle. "Let's go, Tenten. Maybe they're already bored of waiting," he added as he turned back and started walking away.

     "Okay. But uhmmm.... Junjun..." He trailed off.

     "Yep?" He responded as he looked back.

     "Can I... Can I ask for a-another hug? It's okay if you don't want. I won't insist."

     And after Jongdae said that, Joonmyeon went straight to him. Without any piece of hesitation, Junjun wrapped his arms around Tenten. The other gladly hugged back and cherished the moment. After several seconds, he pulled away slightly and did something that made Joonmyeon look like he had seen a ghost.

     "I-I'm... I'm sorry, Junjun. I'm just carried away. You can hit me if you feel like you want to," Jongdae apologized for the peck he delivered to Joonmyeon's forehead.

     "I-It's okay. I'm j-just...shocked..."

     "Sure? Hit me if you want."

     "Uhmmm... Okay. Close your eyes," he spoke in a low volume and the other complied.

     "Bam! You, small dinosaur!" Junjun exclaimed as he flicked both of Tenten's ears. He was laughing hard while running away and the other one was just like, "Yah! Why are you like this to me?"

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     "Look! There they are!" Jongin excitedly chirped as he tapped Kyungsoo on the shoulders.

     "Well, they seem like okay already," Kyungsoo commented.

     "I'm happy for them," Sehun & Luhan unexpectedly said at the same time. They looked at each other and smiled while the others slowly turned their heads to them.

     "What?!" They spoke again at the same time as they noticed their stares and they saw grins slowly forming on the other four's lips.

     "We're just brothers!" And again, they reacted simultaneously.

     "Why are you so defensive? We haven't said anything yet," Baekhyun asked in a teasing tone.

     "..." Sehun decided to be quiet to avoid speaking with his Luhan-hyung at the same time but the older did likewise.

     "Oi? Speechless? Why are you so defensive? Answer us," Jongin delivered the query.

     "Because we know that you'll tease us after you grin," the two answered in synch again.

     "We. You heard that, guys, we. Your minds are really the same. Well, are you sure neither of you has telepathic abilities? Because it seems like either of you has," Chanyeol took his turn to join the issue.

     "Tsk! Baek-hyung have already driven you crazy, hyung. I guess, you need a psychologist, psychiatrist, neurologist or whatever," Sese scoffed.

     "Ahh... No need. I already have the perfect nurse who'll care for me," Yeol replied and pulled Baek closer to him by the waist.

     "Yeah, yeah, whatever. You have a lovelife, I know. Suho-hyung! How's it? Is everything okay already?" He acknowledged the newly arrived.

     "Uhmmm.... Not everything. But at least, we're in a better state, right?" Suho looked at Jongdae and he just nodded.

     "Good to know, hyung. I'm happy for you," said Kai.

     "Thanks a million, Kai. I'm sorry for what I've said earlier."

     "It's nothing, hyung. What important is that you're getting better with Jongdae."

     "Yeah. Well, I can see that the two are now okay, eh?" He noticed the Baekyeol being like lovebirds.

     "Oh. Yes, hyung. I'm very sorry for my attitude earlier. I was like possessed by an evil diva," Baekhyun said sincerely then giggled at the latter part.

     "It's okay. I understand. Well, I think, we better thank Sehun & Luhan."

     "Hunhan for the win!" Kai & Yeol cheered out loud. The two just didn't react or else they would be teased more.

     "Hun...Han? Sehun + Luhan?" Joonmyeon spoke in a doubtful tone.

     "Yes. And we are their shippers. Wanna join us? Jongdae, join us, too," Kyungsoo squishily answered.

     "Hmmm... Maybe. Are we really welcome?"

     "Of course! Why not!?" The eyeliner boy answered.

     "Yahhh!!!!! Hyung!" Sehun childishly reacted but ended up being ignored.

     "Well then..." Junjun looked at Tenten and, "HUNHAN FOR THE WIN!!!!!" The two yelled notwithstanding the scene they're creating. Sehun was just reacting while the deer was just blushing secretly.

     They spent few minutes more in the park. Then Jongin opened up the topic about their appointment with Lu & Kyung to Sehun and the latter just smiled. Gained the chance to speak, he announced his & Luhan's bonus in the plan. Since they set them up with different reasons, they thought that they needed yo give some peace offering. As decided by the shipped couple, they would be continuing the plan of going out malling or shopping. When the plan was heard, the boys felt delighted and liked the idea. The excitement & fun grew when Joonmyeon offered to treat them for the movie. Happy & excited they went, they immediately headed straight to the nearest mall.

     They went shopping first. Of course, it's their own money that they used. Joonmyeon wasn't their moneybag for all the time. The white shortie found it funny how they walk in pairs. The lovebirds were spreading sweetness together, Kyungsoo had unconsciously chained Kai to him, the shipped couple was playing around like kids, and then him, taking the opportunity to rebuild his friendship with Jongdae. He knew he still loved him but he's considering that their friendship was more important than his love. With that, he opted to be oblivious of his feelings for the time being.

     The eight boys then moved to the free part. The movie. Junjun bought the tickets for them while Tenten volunteered to treat them with the food. The movie that they chose was a tragedy-romance story. Their sitting arrangement from left to right was Luhan, Sehun, Kyungsoo, Jongin, Joonmyeon, Jongdae, Baekhyun, Chanyeol. The high-cheekboned guy was getting along with them, especially with Baekhyun and Kyungsoo. They share a common interest which was singing.

     The movie ended after hours. They slowly exited the place and the light made the evidences on their faces become more distinct. The said evidences were the evidences that they cried. Among them, only Sehun, Kai & Jongdae didn't cry. The tan-skinned was even teasing the ones who cried that they look horrible. Of course, except his beloved Kyungsoo.

     "Hyung, just don't mind Kai. He looks more horrible when crying. Here, use my handkerchief," Sehun consoled his hyung.

     "Thanks, Sehun-ah..." Luhan accepted the hanky.

     "Well, hyung... Do you want to feel a spark from me?"

     "Ehh? W-what do you m-mean?" The older stuttered as he started to change his cheeks' shade to light pink.

     "You know, the spark caused by attraction," Sehun answered in a carefree manner, showing his eye smile.

     "S-Sehun..."

     "Don't worry, hyung. You'll be amused..." The younger spoke in a low volume. Then he took steps closer to his hyung and looked at him eye to eye.  Their faces were inches apart and the blush on Luhan's cheeks was becoming deeper. The brunette took the blonde's hand and then...

     "Yah! Sehun-ah!"

     Luhan exclaimed when he felt a spark after the distance between their forearms were closed. Right after the spark was felt, white puppy stuck out his tongue to the deer mischievously. Well, Sehun was referring to the literal spark caused by the static friction created by the attraction of charges. The physical phenomenon was made possible through the help of the air-conditioned place. What he had actually done to Luhan was just a prank.

     "You fell on my trick, hyung!" He said hiding behind the Dobi-eared giant.

     "You kid! Come back here!"


[A/N: phew... i finally updated one chapter. I was thinking that it's been quite a long time since the last time I updated.

Phew... I have finally chosen the father of the Kims. It's Kim Jaejoong of JYJ. (I'll just borrow him from Yunho.XD)

I'm sorry for all the mistakes and errors. Anyway, thanks for all your support.

Uhmm.... ? Please read and support "Unspoken & Unheard (Hunhan)" please. It's a Hunhan oneshot which I published on my own Hunhan day (April 16.XD) Thanks guys. Also my other stories, the "Getting Back (Kaisoo)", "Stares and Glances (Baekyeol)". THANKS A MILLION =]

Psh... The happenings on EXO sadden me.=[ I no longer know what to believe in. But I still believe in the OT12. I still believe that they are one.=[ Stay strong EXOstans. We must be one like them, not like warfreaks fighting other EXOstans.

Well, take care guys. XOXO. 'til next we meet.=]]

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Kuro_neko96 #1
Chapter 10: Wow ! I totally luv this but it weird seeing my username up there. Any way keep up the awesome work !
GauXingg #2
Chapter 23: fighting Author-nim <3
DinojiRyeo #3
Chapter 20: *-* Looking forward to this hope u update soon ^_^
kimkaixwife #4
hmm just came across this, looks interesting :)
xiuminslittlemermaid
#5
Chapter 6: Wow that was weird seeing my username all of a sudden...haha
GauXingg #6
Chapter 17: :)) I will support your fics.
Can I translate them too?
90_XoXoforLove
#7
Chapter 17: yeah this fic is nice.. hope you can make it more interesting..
update soon.. will wait..ing..!! ^^ <333
elfXoXo13 #8
Chapter 16: Well i have to name 4 the father..but they both are actor not an idol....
kim soo hyun -my love from another star- and kim woo bin -the heirs-...
they're tall and handsome..sorry if not helping:-(
Keep updating before you went to summer school...
really enjoy and love this story alots ♥♥♥♥
also your a/n is daebak...it makes my day ;-)
Good job author-nim...fighting ♥♥♥♥