“Yoongi!” you wanted to immediately run after him, but Jin snatched your wrist, holding you back. You looked up to him in confusion. Why wouldn't he let you go? You had to explain to Yoongi that.. yeah.. what did you want to explain? That he saw wrong? That it wasn't what it looked like? Because that would've been a lie. Jin did kiss you just now and you couldn't say that you didn't like it.

You teared up again, still starring into Jins face. His expression was hard to read. He seemed to feel sorry for you but at the same time he looked.. hurt? You wanted to tell him that it wasn't his fault, that it was yours but you couldn't get yourself to say anything. Why was it anyone’s fault anyway? You were happy the moment your lips touched, why did everything turn into this?

For a while both of you didn't say a word, all you could hear were your suppressed sobs until Jin let out a deep sigh, pulling you into his arms.
“I shouldn't have kissed you, right..?” he whispered, his lips close to your ear, holding you with his strong arms. Without controlling it you snuggled into his arms and shook your head against his chest, still not saying a thing. He sighed again, resting his chin on top of your head, waiting for you to stop sobbing.

You felt bad for crying over another guy in his arms but you couldn't help it. Over the last few weeks you've learned to love Yoongi like a brother and seeing him that hurt and cold towards you was like a stab right into your heart. “I didn't know..” you started after a few minutes as you finally stopped crying. “You didn't know what?” Jin pushed you away a bit to look into your face, still holding your shoulders. “That he had feelings for you?” Jin smiled a bit, but it was more a smile of pity. You nodded, biting your lip. Was it really that obvious? Jin let out a sigh while wiping away the tears on your cheeks. “Would you like it more if he was holding you? If he had kissed you just now?” Your eyes widened as you immediately shook your head. “I love Yoongi, but I love him like a brother. I thought it was the same for him.. That he loved me like his sister..” as you noticed that you were tearing up again you quickly closed your eyes, fighting the tears back again.

Jin shook his head, ruffling his hair. “Should I talk to him?” you peeked up to him, shaking your head. “It's nothing you have to worry about.. I have to talk to him, right?” As he nodded carefully you teared your hair, letting out a groan. “But not today, or tomorrow. He will need his time, I know him. He's really stubborn.” you nodded slightly, rubbing your eyes.
A deep tiredness suddenly came over your body. The dance training, the excitement ofter the kiss and the crying totally exhausted you. As Jin gently brushed some hair out of your face you couldn't help but smile a little. Just now you realized what had happened before Yoongi came into the practice room. He had kissed you. He had told you that he had to think of you and that he had missed you.

“I'll bring you to your dorm, you seem exhausted. Go directly to bed and don't think about it too much, okay? You will need to rest, the last practice will be tomorrow..” he whispered, grasping your hand and gently pulling you with him. Exhausted and sleepy you followed him, starring onto your laced fingers. How did all of this suddenly happen? Just a few days ago you dreamed about being in a relationship with Jin and suddenly he's holding your hand, hugging you, kissing you.. You couldn't help yourself. Even though you were still really shocked about Yoongi you couldn't help but feel happy about what happened with Jin.

While being guided by him and starring at your hands you decided to not let yourself down. You would talk to Yoongi tomorrow and hopefully he would say it's okay. Maybe it was just a shock. Maybe he's not even angry or that hurt? As you let out a little sigh, not believing your own thoughts Jin gently squeezed your hand, shooting you a smile and you actually managed to smile back.

Yes. All this was a good thing. “I won't let anything destroy this..” you whispered and as Jin gave you a questioning look you just shook your head, squeezing his hand. By now the two of you had reached the stairs up to the building that was your dorm and as you reached the door Jin once again brushed some hair out of your face, eventually pulling you into his arms for the last time today.
“Sleep well, okay? If you want to talk about Yoongi call or message me, I will be here for you. He will be okay with it sooner or later, give him some time.” You just nodded, fighting tears back again.
It was not only because you had to think about Yoongis cold voice or the pain in his eyes, it was also because you couldn't believe, that Seokjin was by your side so suddenly.

You had always liked him from afar and when you got closer to him that was more then you had ever imagined to happen and now you're here, in his arms while he rests his chin on your head. It was a good feeling.. After a few seconds he pulled away, planting a gentle kiss on your forehead. “Now go and sleep. I will pick you up tomorrow morning, okay?” You nodded hugging him quickly and then running to the door of your apartment just as you did a few weeks ago. But this time you actually looked back, seeing Jin looking after you smiling. There was also a worried expression in his eyes but he definitely seemed happy. Hiding your face behind your hands to not let him see how you were blushing again you opened the door and slipped into your dorm.

As you got ready for bed you didn't allow yourself to think about anything, not about the good things that happened and not about the bad things either.
As you snuggled into your bed, pulling Suga into your arm you suddenly felt pain again. This wouldn't do. While biting your lip you carefully sat Suga onto your nightstand, then rolling over to not look at it and closing your eyes.
Surprisingly you managed to not think about anything at all as the exhaustion took over your body and dragged you into a dark, restless sleep.

Authors Note:

Oh god this chapter is such a disappointment, isn't it? At least it is to me. it was really hard for me to get into writing again after such a long break due to a lot of stress..
But I do have a few ideas for the next chapters so please be patient with me, I will get back to my old self!