~Yuna~

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As soon as we arrived home, Jae got a phone call and took it in his office while I went to the livingroom, sat down on the soft couch and stared at the open fire place as I was holding my teacup. Wedding huh? Who would've thought of that`? A few months ago I would have never thought of it and here I was, engaged to one of the most attractive men on earth. I chuckled to myself as I took a sip. I put the cup down on the table as I grabbed a wedding magazine and browsed through it

"Invitations, cake, decorations, flowers, staff..." I mumbled

Gosh so much to think of so much to do. I was wondering what theme I wanted it to be..Should it be seasonal or colors? I looked aroiund in the room for inspirations as I suddenly locked my gaze outside the window. I stood up and walked over close to the piano and inhaled a deep breath as I watched the sundown. Pink shades reached out across the sky with faded ray of yellow lights was still fighting to stay on the beautiful sky

"This is it" I mumbled

"Is what?" 

I spun around to see Jae walking over to me and looked outside the window, probably curious with what I was thinking

"That" I pointed at the beautiful sky and the sun slowly disappearing behind the horisont

"I don't get it" Jae said

"I want this theme, all of those colors on our wedding"

Jae looked outside again and tried to understand what I was talking about and soon seems like he realized as a smile slowly formed on his lips and he nodded in agreement

"You mean the sundown? The different shades os pink, yellow, white and blue?" He asked

I nodded

"I think that... would be absolutely perfect"

he smiled at me and gave me a soft kiss on the cheek

"I think very lightened ones then. Light pink, Light blue, light yellow. .. Pastel colors" He said

"You really are an amazing designer. You have eyes for everything" I chuckled

He hugged me from behind and inhaled my scent as he buried himself into my hair

"That's why they call me God of the fashion industry" He said

I pulled away from his hug and smacked him on his arm lightly as he laughed

"What! I'm just pointing it out" He said

"You're just jealous because you can't be part of my wedding dress, designing it"

He rolled his eyes

We walked over to the couch and sat down as we started to browse through the magazines

"Where should we have the reception? Church?" I asked

"Church? You want to get married in a church?"

I looked up as he surprisingly looked at me

"Well of course I do. Say our vows.. Handwritten.. Walking down the aisle. You greeting my dad.. RUnning out from the church and everybody throwing rice at us" I said

I took a deep breath and smiled

"I totally forgot about your parents.." He mumbled

I laughed

"So did I for awhile but now.. come to think of it.. he has to walk me down the aisle you know. I can't walk by myself. And also, I need to find flower girls. I don't even have any girlfriends to ask to be my bridesmaids" I rolled my eyes

"None?"

"I'll come up with something"

"Junsu can dress up if you want" Jae chuckled as he returned to the magazine

"Knock it off Jae" I laughed

We stayed quiet as we browsed through the magazines and I couldn't help but feel a bit way too relaxed with the wedding plans. Isn't it now the girl are suppose to go bananas and just become a bridezilla? I shook my head while thinking of how funny that would be, me being a bridezilla and driving Jae nuts

I looked up as JaeJoong were going through the magazine and I saw that he was taking notes. I smiled at the beautiful view in front of me and tilted my head to the side. He was taking this seriously and seems like he was going to be with me every step of the way. I didn't have to do it all by myself. I looked down at the magazines again and eventually I cam across the invitations.

Beautiful decorated invitations and suggestions on how they could look like and also the texts. I was wondering if light pink along with white and the color of cream would go nice together. I soon thought of the guests and I thought of my family, my parents friends and maybe my childhoodfriends. It reminded me of Donghae. Would he be able to come? Would he endure the wedding? Would he be okay? 

I looked up at Jae and started to wonder if Jaejoong was going to be okay with having Donghae here. We didn't part in a good way but still.. if we really were friends maybe it was time to .. settle it.. and maybe just find some peace between all of us. 

And then I thought of JaeJoong's mom. 

I looked at the dim light from th eopen fire place, lightening up JaeJoong's face, bringing out his sharp jawline and seeing him taking down notes and browsing through the magazines. Maybe he didn't notice me staring at him, thinking hardly about the guests. 

Would he like for his mom to come? Just her being there? Would that be okay?

"Jae?"

"Hmm?" JAe answered without looking at me

"Would you like your mom to come.. witness our wedding?"

Immediately I sensed him stopping himself browsing, and writing and he even stopped breathing for a bit. He looked up and turned his head and looked at me. Confusion and despair displaying in his eyes. I stayed quiet and waited for an answer which seemed like to take forever before he could answer me. 

"I... haven't thought of that yet"

"You haven't given it any thought at all?" I asked

"I think I have.. but... now when you ask it out loudly like that.. I... don't know what to answer" He mumbled confused

"Do you think she would be able to handle it? If a nurse could be here as well?" I asked

He swallowed hard

"I suppose"

"JaeJoong.. it's your decision" I said and took a hold of his hand

He nodded

"I know.. I just don't know.. I don't know if I'm comfortable with it. People knowing.. and maye starting a rumor about me having the gene of having Alzheimers.. and I don't know if I'm ready to bring myself out to the world... and somehow expose myself with my mum. For so many years I have been away from her and now she enters my life.. not knowing who I am.." He said

"How about you think about it okay? There's no rush. Besides.. you have plenty of time to spend time with her.. Remember.. even if it's the Alzheimers speaking.. sometimes it can be her.." I said

He nodded

"Thanks.."

I leaned in and gave him a kiss on his cheek which he happily accepted and seemed like he needed comfort. Maybe the kiss was comforting enough

"You think she'd like to come?" He asked

"I do" I said

He took me into his arms and we sat there, staring at the fireplace, side by side while talking. I could hear how hard his head was working. Not knowing if he was ready to come out in the public with her, as well as, if his mom was ready for all this. Afterall dealing with fans, media wasn't an easy task

"You thinks he'll be able to handle it? The pressure.. media.. fans.. All the people" He asked

"I don't know.. how about we think about it, prepare an invitation just in case and then if we feel like it's okay for you and her.. then she can come.." I said

He nodded in agreement

"Okay .."