~JaeJoong~

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As I was typing on the computer while looking at the papers and documents beside me, I felt like I was hurrying and speedin gup by the minute as I heard the clock ticking away. 

I was in a hurry but not for something urgent but more for something that seemed to have occupied my brain lately. I wanted to see Yuna at home.

As she promised, she would go home and rest for a few days and tried to help me while working at home. Not only was she ambitious but it seems like she was hating the distance between as much as I did. It had only been 2 days ago ever since I told her that we should go public about our relationship and about her being the new CEO for the accessory department store. I usually didn't do anything that would be reckless or without putting much thoughts into it. But no matter how spontanious that was I knew that it was going to be a hit. 

She was hardworking and it was a relief that I had someone to lean on with this kind of job. It's a big responsibility and not only is it absolutely important to me, doing this with her was important to me

"Hyung?" 

I looked up from the screen and saw Changmin enter along with Yunho

"Hey what's up?" I asked as they sat down by the desk

"Did you recieve the results yet?" Changmin asked

"What results?" I asked

"About your examination at the hospital" Yunho answered

I felt myself freezing right on spot as I remembered it

"I've totally forgotten about it" I said and leaned back onto the chair 

"So we've noticed. You've been pretty in love and caught up with thoughts of Yuna lately" Changmin chuckled

I chuckled as well

"It's not a bad thing is it?" I asked unsure

Both of the guys started to laugh crazily and shook their heads

"She's a wonderful girl. I'm really happy for you" Yunho said

"Thanks" 

"She changed you" Changmin said

"Changed me? I'm still me" I said and raised an eyebrow

"Liar. You smile like an idiot, you space out during the meetings, you work faster since you want to get home and see. Don't deny it" Changmin said

"Of course, when you're in love you do things unknowingly" Yoochun said who entered along with Junsu as both of them chuckled

"Now enough with the teasing"

"But you haven't received it yet?" Yunho asked

I shook my head

"I haven't thought about it all. I completely forgot" I said and stood up as I wandered around

"That is a good thing but if it turns out that you might have it, you can't hide it from us. You need the medication and you'll need our help" Yunho said

"I'm not gonna burden you even more. We have already tons of work to do already" I said

"We're brothers and we've been together ever since from the start. What makes you think that we won't stick together now?" Junsu asked

"That's not what I mean. I just don't want to be a burden" I said

"Look the one who is gonna hurt the most is Yuna" Yoochun said

I folded my fists hardly as I realized that this illness was going to take everything from me. Why now? Why start now? It felt like my life just had begun and here I was, waiting for news about how my future was going to be like, how I will live in the future and the most horrible thing ever a human could ever imagine, letting someone you love see you fade away and slowly disappearing from you

"What do I do?" I whispered, as if I pleaded

I spun around and met the guys eyes as they sadly looked back at me

"I don't know" Junsu whispered

"No medication or cure exists..." I whispered

"Hyung, think positively. Try to not see the bad side of it. But you should also mentally prepare yourself if it now turns out that you do have it" Changmin said

Frustrated I walked over to the couch and sat down, leaning forward with my elbows on my knees, feeling as if the life was passing me by. It felt like I already died

The guys followed behind and sat down

"I just... started my life with Yuna. And now.. I'm gonna start forgetting her. It's not... fair to her" I whispered

"You don't know that yet" Yoochun said

"But if it now turns out that way" I said

I sighed heavily

"Then you just gonna make the best out of it. Create memories.. You will remember it but as it disappears later on, you'll still have the bond with her" Yunho said

"Is it fair of me to even stay with her and letting her go through this pain?" I asked

"It's her decision to decide but as an answer to your question, I think she'll stay" Changmin said

"I won't even remember her" I whispered

"She'll remember the two of you for the both of you" Yoochun said