I woke up because sobs I heard shocking me.

I looked over my shoulder, no Junhyung beside me.

Huh, where are you Jun?

I heard faint sobs again. I opened my room door and startled because I see Jun’s back at bench in front of me.

Junhyung’s crying??

Slowly, hesitantly, i walked to a shaky Jun in front of me.

I touched his shoulder, “J-Jun..hyung..”

He was backing away from me. Trying to wipe off his tears.

“Jun, are u alright?”

“Ne, I’m alright Seob..” answered Junhyung with shaky voice.

“Then why r u crying?”

“A-aniya.. it’s nothing..”

I grabbed his shoulder to turn him around.

“Jun, if anything.. you can speak to me.. im your best friend,” im trying to smile. Seeing him crying his precious tears in front of me.. I wanna kill anyone who has making my Junnie crying.

“It just.. I.. broke up with Hara,” Junhyung blurted.

“Oh my..” I covering my mouth with my hands.

Tears wetting Junhyung’s cheeks.

“Gwenchana Junhyung-ah,” I patted his back. Junhyung then pulling me into his embrace.

“I love her, Seob.. I really am,” I stop patting his back. My heart ache.

“She said she love me too, but why? Why did she throw me away like this.” Junhyung’s tears wetting my shirt.

Nothing I can do beside patting his back. He continue blabbering, wetting my shirt with his tears.

After a while Junhyung loosening the hug.

“I’m sorry Seob for wetting your shirt,” he said faking a smile.

“Yah you dirtied my shirt with you snot too,” I pouting.

“Yah stop pouting, you looks like goldenfish right now,”  Lightly he poking my lips.

Then our lips tugged into a smile.

“Hah.. im tired, we have 2 hours to sleep before our schedules start,” Junhyung said.

“2 hours doesn’t enough for my lack of beauty-sleep.”

Junhyung burst into laughter,”Ja! Let’s go to sleep Seobie.”

Jun dragging me to our room.

“Seob why are you sleep far away from me? I don’t have any weird disease, come here!” Jun pulling me into his arms.

“Nah, it’s better like this,” murmured Jun before asleep.

I smiled and buried my head on his chest.

--

Ahh, finally our schedules ended! I am so tired, I want to drive quickly to dorm and sleep!

“Jun, palli go to our van, I want to go home quickly,” I poke his side.

He just sighing.

“Jun, are u alright?”

“Ne Seobi I’m fine, just thinking bout something.”

‘Again, fake smile.. Paboo’

“Kajja! Others are waiting for ya.” I dragging him to van.

At van I can’t sleep because this two sleepyhead! Gikwang and Hyunseung leaning on my shoulder the whole time. To make worst, Gikwang snored right in my ear. I should push him down but too tired to do so.

As we reached our dorm, everyone went straight to their bedroom. Too tired to fooling around.

I let Junhyung showered first.

As i was stepping out from bathroom I see Junhyung laying at his back staring blankly at the ceiling.

I know he was just broke up with Hara and he felt very sad that he’d cried at the dark night. Seeing him like that made my heart ached so much.

“Junhyung, let’s out for a walk!” I said.

“Uh, aren’t ya tired?”

“I’m boring.. beside im not eating yet..” I put aegyo on my face.

“Hh Kajja ka!” He said wearing his blue pullover.

We walked out of the dorm, Junhyung and me wear mask and hat to cover our face.

“So.. Yoseob, where are we going now?” Jun slipped his hands in his jeans pocket.

“Let’s eat, nan baegopa!!”

“Aigoo, weren’t we went to chinese resto before this? Why’re you hungry right now?”

“You’ve stole everything in my plate!”

Jun chuckle,”Just walk palli! Its really cold here.”

Junhyung grabbed my hand. nerveously I hold and intertwining our hands. Seeing my hand fit perfectly with his hand, smile plastering on my face.

--

I stared at my wallpaper phone. It showing my selca which I took that night with Junhyung. We were hang out to a small restaurant near our dorm. We talked about each other. About stuffs like BEAST, our B2UTY and his future.

He told me that he wanted to marry a girl whom he love and loves him too. They’ll have two childrens, a boy and a girl. He’ll be a great song producer, live happily at small house with a garden behind their house.

I smiled at him, this man will have good future, I can’t ruined his dreams. I love this man so much.

So much to not to tell him.

My tears seem start to fall. I tried to hold it back. I can’t cry in front of him. But i failed successfully. A single tear ran over my cheek.

He stared at me confusedly. “Seobi, gwenchana?”

I nodded my head slightly.

I...

Can’t...

It’s hurt so much..

My chest felt like tightening until I can’t breath.

Tears rolled at my cheeks. Now I didn’t try to stop it. I just let it down.

With panicking face he wiped my tears all over my cheeks. “Yoseob, are you alright? Are you sick?”

“Tell me.”

“It’s okay,” With that he brought me to his tight hug.

“Junnie it’s hurt..” I finally spoke to him.

“Where.. at where you feel it?” he worried.

“At here,” I patted my chest. “It hurts like hell.”

Hesitantly he placed his hand at my chest. Slowly he my clothes chest.

I had stopped crying but I still sobbing.

“Now tell me. Why are you cry?” I stared at the ground, wishing it would eat me.

I was hesitant to tell him or not. I take a long deep breath.

“It just.. I think I, I got rejected,” I told him.

“I had crush on that person since long time ago. I keep it on my heart because I’m scared it would ruined our friendship. But I realized..that person didn’t see me the same way i did. This person just seeing me as a good friend. Nothing more.. so, it’s why I cried my heart out,” Well I told him half the truth.

Junhyung pulled me into his embrace again. He ruffled my hair like he always did.

“Uh my baby Seob crying that much because of love. Poor my baby..” I chuckled at his concerned.

“Who’s that person who had making you cried? I will pinch her cheeks and eat her.” Junhyung grinned.

Just because he didn’t knew that person is him.

I broke the hug. “Let’s go home. I’m very tired,” I stood and walked towards the front door.

As we arrived at dorm I entered my room and lied down on my belly at my bed. The sound of door opened surprised me.

“Seob, are you okay?”

“Ne Junnie, I’m just tired.”

“Do you need something? Or need some medicine?”

“Ani, I want to sleep right now. I don’t want bothering you,” Junhyung confused.

He sat at the edge of bed then running his fingers on my hair.

“Seob, you doesn’t bother me. I’m happy if I can help you. You’re my best friend.”

I turned around just to see Junhyung’s sad face.

Gently he wiped my tears.

“Am I really your bestfriend? Junhyung smiled and nodded his head.

“Am I really just your bestfriend?” I frowned.

Junhyung grinning even more. He nodded his head again. “You’re my best best friend, I really love you. You’re like my family, my brother. The person who is closest to me.”

Junhyung smiled while intertwining our hands. I smiled to him too.