Mom

I need you more then ever. 

I'm lost.

I don't know what I just did.

Hyung just found out and we fought, I was so mad mom.
Do you hate me too?
Do you think she hates me?
Do you think she would still be my friend even after what happened?
Mom I have become an empty shell.
While in America, I kept hearing rumors about her being with another man.
It hurt my heart but I didn't believe it because I knew that she loved me and only me.
Hyuna noona showed me a picture of her with this other guy holding hands and she told me all the things that they were doing.
Do you know what that did to me on the inside?
I still didn't want to believe it, until hyung told me it was true and that it was him so I hung up.

My heart hurts..... 

I trusted her.
I trusted hyung with her.
I can't believe he would do that to me.
Because of my hate towards hyung, I wanted to hurt him.

So I did.

While she was walking home, I told some guys to take her.
They did.
I was blinded by hate, so much hate.
She was screaming for me, to help her but I didn't.
I just watched them.

Watched them take her......

She hasn't been to school since then.
I went to her house yesterday and noticed that there was nothing inside.
I went crazy and for the who