Hello, here I am! hope you didn't forget me! I still exist! :D

Okay, here's the second chappie! 

Warnings: y English- No beta.

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I think you should re-read the first chapter so that you'd remember what happened. hihi...

Enjoy!

-Akira ♥

It was late into the night. It’s been hours since Kyuhyun fainted. When Kyu first fainted, everyone became statues wide eyed, clueless, not knowing what to do. They only snapped out of shock because of Ryeowook’s panicked screams.

They’ve called a doctor and he couldn’t find anything wrong with the magnae. Though they were already assured by the doctor that Kyuhyun was fine and it was just fatigue from working too hard; despite the doctor’s words, they still couldn’t forget that look on their maknae’s face; a mix of sadness, longing, panic, and loss.

Everyone couldn’t sleep that night; Ryeowook was in Kyuhyun’s room watching over him switching shifts with Sungmin just in case the magnae woke up or needed something. In the meantime, the remaining members were in the living room thinking about what transpired earlier.

“Hyung, do you know who Kim Jongwoon is?”

Kangin, deep in his thoughts, wasn’t even able to hear Donghae’s question. He has a feeling that the name sounded vaguely familiar. He just didn’t know where he had heard it. As the standing leader of Super Junior, he was already expecting that he’d have to deal with the problems of his dongsaengs; but this was totally unexpected. He was snapped out of his thoughts when he felt a warm hand over his; it was Sungmin’s.

“Hae asked you a question. Didn’t you hear it?”

“Oh, sorry. I didn’t catch that. What were you saying again?” Kangin smiles to mask his worry and to comfort his lover.

“I was asking if you knew that Jongwoon person Kyu was talking about.”

 Kangin looks back down on the floor in defeat.

“No, I don’t. But there is something familiar about that name but I just can’t remember it.”

The silence in the room was broken with the soft thuds made by Ryeowook’s running. Kyuhyun had finally woken up.

Half of Kyuhyun’s mind wanted to believe that what happened earlier was just a horrible nightmare; that when he wakes up, he’ll be with Jongwoon in his bed like it should be. But the stinging bump at the back of his head said otherwise.

Where is he?

Is he missing?

Did he leave?

The sound of soft thumps of feet in the carpet floor broke the trance Kyuhyun was on. He was expecting Yesung to be the first person through the door, wearing his worried expression and bringing with him his endless questions, just like normal. But a small part of him was starting to believe that he won’t be there.

Ryeowook and Sungmin enter the room, followed by the rest of the group.

He really is gone.

Bombarded by questions from his hyungs, Kyuhyun just responded by chuckling at his worried hyungs saying that they’re worrying too much; but in his mind, he was trying his absolute hardest to just answer all their questions calmly and not break down in front of his hyungs. He wouldn’t want his hyungs to worry about him more.

“Okay, okay, that’s enough. Kyuhyun needs his rest. You heard the doctor. You can ask your questions tomorrow.

Reluctantly, the group leaves the room. Sungmin stays behind and insists that he stay in their room until he feels better. Feeling the authority in his roommate’s voice, he agrees. That night, both of them weren’t able to sleep; the room filled with hushed sobs through the night.

The following morning, everyone was busy again with their individual schedules. It was another busy day for the members of Super Junior. Vocal training, show appearances, photo shoots, interviews, and radio shows were the most common on their agenda.  Kyuhyun, despite no sleep that night, got out of bed, he was no exception. However, he was greeted by weird looks from his hyungs.

“Kyu, are you sure you’re feeling alright now? Maybe you should get more rest.” Kangin worriedly asks the maknae.

“I feel fine hyung. I just didn’t get enough sleep. Nothing a little make up can’t cure, right?” Kyuhyun answers their leader, faking a cheerful mood.

His voice enough of assurance, Kangin lets go of the topic and proceeds with his routine. “If you say so, but if something doesn’t feel right, call me or any of your hyungs or the manager, okay?”

“Yes hyung.” the maknae answers as Kangin rushes off to the van to go to the theater for their rehearsal. He then proceeds to his own routine.

Today was not Kyuhyun’s day. He was berated by his stylist in the salon because he was not taking care of himself. There were dark circles under his eyes and he had eye bags that looked like they were not going to go away anytime soon.

“What the hell happened to you?! I saw your bags the moment you entered the door! Are you trying to make yourself look bad?” his stylist frantically said.

“I’m fine. Lack of sleep, that’s all. I’m sure you can fix it.” Kyuhyun, tiredly replies to his stylist.

“The hair, sure. The dark circles, easy. BUT THOSE EYEBAGS!! It’s like they’re having babies! Gaah! Here, put on this ice pack while I fix your hair.”

The day came by fast and he was now on a photo shoot for a magazine spread. Yesterday’s lack of sleep was finally catching up to him and he feels like was going to collapse any minute.

*click*

“Please tilt your head Kyuhyun-sshi” the photographer directs him as he was looking through the viewfinder of the camera.

*click*

“Look at the camera.” another command from the photographer.

Kyuhyun looked at the lens of the camera.

Without even taking the shot, the photographer puts down his camera and stops the shoot.

“Okay everyone, let’s take a break first. Kyuhyun-sshi, what’s wrong? Is there something bothering you?

The photographer asks Kyuhyun.

“No, Song-sshi. It’s just that I wasn’t able to get some sleep last night.”

“Oh, that’s already obvious. I could see your eye bags from the other side of the room. I could also sense that you are going to faint anytime. Is there something on your mind Kyuhyun-sshi?”

 “It’s nothing. I’m fine. Can we please continue?”

“I think we can’t, Kyuhyun-sshi. Its okay, we can just postpone the shoot. I’d rather have it delayed than have a spread full of depressing photos. I just hope you get your act together by then.”

“I hope so too. Thank you, Song-sshi” Kyuhyun replies to the photographer.

He then rides of to go to his last appointment; it was supposed to be a K.R.Y. vocal training session. But since Jongwoon disappeared, it was just with Ryeowook.

This time, he doesn’t bother hiding his feelings. He just took a seat by the corner and let Ryeowook play with the piano. The eternal magnae, on the other hand, was just playing with the keys on the piano and not even bothering to ask Kyu to practice because he already knows that there is something bothering the maknae and it would be useless to practice if he was not focused.

What the hell happened? I still don’t get why he suddenly disappeared. It was impossible that he left; if he did, why doesn’t anybody remember him? Why can’t I find any pictures? Why can’t I contact him? Did he get kidnapped by an organization and wiped out our memories? Okay, I’ve been watching too many movies.

Then it hits him.

“Wook, can you come with me please?” Kyuhyun bolts up, surprising Ryeowook.

“Sure, where are we going?”

 Meanwhile, the standing leader was also getting his answers.

Kim Youngwoon was not the leader type. He was charismatic, yes. But he knows that he can’t even hold a candle to Leeteuk. He was rough and straightforward while their leader was kind and gentle. Their leader was responsible and trustworthy, while he already has a handful of scandals under his belt. He’s practically clueless while their leader seems to always know what’s going on. He was really puzzled as to why he was chosen as the leader. Shindong would’ve been a much better choice.

 Right now, he’s hoping that Leeteuk has the answers that he was looking for.

“Annyeonghaseyo?” the voice of their leader already bringing comfort to his confused mind.

“Hyung, it’s me, Youngwoon.”

“Oh? Hello! How are you guys? Everything alright? How are you and Minnie doing?”

Kangin couldn’t help but chuckle, Leeteuk has always been a mother hen; always worrying about her sons. “We’re doing fine Hyung. I just wanted to ask you something.”

Kangin, being from the army already, knows how stressful it is to be in the army. The physical training is hard enough; then the fact that you left your family, friends, and loved ones behind. Then with Leeteuk’s mother hen personality; Kangin opted not to add more stress. It’s the least he can do as the standing leader.

“Sure! What is it?”

“Why did you make me the leader?”

“Because you’re the oldest; next to me and Heechul, that is.”

“And I know you can do it.”

“How do you do it?”

“Do what?”

“Be a good leader.”

“It doesn’t happen overnight Youngwoon.  Leaders aren’t born; they’re made. I’m not the perfect leader that you think I am. I also make mistakes. I still do. We chose you because we know that you of all people know how grave it is to make mistakes. We saw you own up to them; and you are one of the most responsible people that I know. That’s why I feel confident leaving the group to you.”

“Thank you, hyung. Thank you very much.”

“So what’s the real problem?”

“That was my problem.”

“Please, you wouldn’t call for that kind of problem. I know you better than that.”

“It’s Kyuhyun.”

“Kyu? Is he being a pain? Do you want me to talk to him?”

 “I wish he was. That will be much easier to deal with.” Kangin sadly answers his hyung.

Hearing the unsually solemn tone of his dongsaeng raised Leeteuk’s alarms.

“What’s the matter? Did something happen?”

“Last night, he kind of went… crazy then he fainted.”

“What?! What happened? Is it because of his games? I knew he should lay off the games. Is it drugs? Was he doing drugs? Oh My GOD since when was he doing drugs?! Let me out of here! I need to see my baby!”

“Hyung, relax, you sound crazy.”

Leeteuk calms down. Kangin Continues.

“He just woke up one afternoon and kept mentioning this Jongwoon person. The name kind of sounds familiar, but I can’t really put my finger on it.”

“Jongwoon? I don’t really remember any Jongwoon”

Kangin didn’t really expect his hyung to know who Jongwoon was, but it didn’t hurt to try. But because of his talk with Leeteuk, he’s got a newfound determination to be a kickass leader; and he is going to start with helping the maknae.

“It’s okay, hyung. I’m sorry for bothering you at this time. You must’ve been tired.”

“No, it’s okay, I’m happy you called for help. You don’t have to face it alone. But then again, you already have Sungmin with you; so I think you’ll be fine.”

Kangin was thanking God right now that his hyung couldn’t see the pink dusting his cheeks.

“Okay, I’m gonna hang up now.”

“WAIT! I remember something!”

“Did he mention something about Yesung as well?”

Hearing those words made his heart go on overdrive, he finally found a lead.

“How did you know hyung?”

“Ah! Kim Jongwoon, he was one of the best singers I’ve ever heard, back when we were trainees.”

“Why can’t I remember?”

“He quit SM before we became Super Junior. It was too bad. He was as good as Kyuhyun when it comes to singing; maybe even better.”

“How does Kyuhyun know him?”

“I don’t know.”

It seems that he hit another roadblock, but he was very thankful that he called his hyung, in more ways than one.

Kyuhyun answers with a broken whisper.

A/N: AAAAAND Here we are; the 2nd installment of my baby. :D I know, I'm not able to update regularly. and i'd just like to thank you guys for not pressuring me into updating. I love you guys! :D and to my AMAZEBALLS SUBSCRIBERS!!! I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY ! Because it's way bigger than my heart, trust me. :D

Ciao,

-Akira♥