The sound of the river flowing was soothing in my ears as I walked hand in hand with Seunghyun. We were on another date after his practice session during the day. After eating dinner at the multiple food stations at Cheongyecheon, we decided to walk along the recreational river that spanned on for a couple miles.

It was a rather peaceful walk. Seunghyun would occasionally hold my camera and have me lean next to him to take several couple shots. As much as I was insecure, I thought I should just take as many pictures for memories. And with the idea that we were going to last a while, I swallowed my insecurities and finally decided to have some fun.

Suddenly, when Seunghyun was right in front of me, the camera that I held up right in front of me flashed in his face.

He covered his eyes as he began to rub them before blinking a couple times to adjust his vision, "I'm going blind!" He whined playfully while holding onto my shoulder.

I couldn't help but scoff a little as I remarked, "Oh my goodness, stop being such a baby. You face this almost every concert, press conference, etc...and you can't take a random photo shoot with mee??" 

He was quiet for sometime as I walked on without him. Since several moments seemed like a long time and he hasn't followed up to where I was, I turned my head over my shoulder with uncertainty to see him sulking and pouting his lips, to show that he was "hurt". With that face, who couldn't help but smile and run over to him and wrap around his thin waist?

When I proceeded to do that, his pout immediately transformed into the smile we all love as he wrapped his arm around my small figure. We remained holding each other for a while until I gently pulled back. Seunghyun looked intently into my eyes, as if he was searching for something but broke away to hold something in front of my face.

"JJAN!" He exclaimed as two objects dangled in front of me. 

After looking at it briefly, I recognized them as couple phone straps. They were super cute as it was like a couple guitar set with blue and pick feathers on one and the other.

"As long as you have it with you, you will know I always love you" Seunghyun secured as he took my phone to wrap the strap.  

As soon as he stated those words, my mind drifted into the very insecure thought. The possible look on his face. However, I had to tell him sooner or later. Or, he'd have to find out one way or another. 

What if...it's over after you tell him...?

There was that possibility, and it hurt to think about it...

But, he said so himself...he'll love me...

I tried to reason with myself but it was all before Seunghyun interrupted my chain of thoughts. Apparently for that time, I just froze like a zombie.

"Hey, is something wrong? Are you okay? Are you not feeling well?" He waved his hand in front of me to snap me back to reality.

I looked up at him, into his eyes.

Now is your chance...

Go go go!

But..but..

"Umm...it's nothing. Let's go" I merely brushed it off. I couldn't get myself to tell him yet. And with that, I held my hand in his and pulled him to follow me, in which he did so willingly.

While we were walking and taking more of those cute pictures, Seunghyun suddenly brought up, "Hey, umm...I don't know if you heard but since you told me you were interested in meeting the heiress of Shinhae, she's making an appearance at the end of the month so I was wondering if you wanted to go with me to go see her...?"

"WHAT?" I choked as I totally forgot that they have already announced the dates and everything on TV for the past couple days after everything was set. My heart started racing as I stuttered, "Um..sorry..I-I can't. I'm busy that day.."

I have never really told Seunghyun what I do. I merely only told him one time that I work at a law firm and volunteer at a local hospital. I never told him I work for Shinhae, which is the most rigorous process to get an internship at. 

"What are you doing that day? Let's at least hang out together, then. It's the one day where I have the whole day free." He stated but I couldn't do anything. That day I was busy for that vey reason but I was afraid he wouldn't accept it.

"I'm really sorry Seunghyun, but I have to work double shift that day..I'll call you though and we can hang out later at night that day...meanwhile, why not just hang out with FT Island that day." I managed to say calmly as I apologized for my decline in his offer.

He let out a soft laugh as he said, "I basically live with FT Island...it's fine though. I'll just see you later that night then. But you won't get any ice cream then!" 

Knowing that he was teasing me, I pouted playfully to go along with the flow. However, my mind ran in fury as I was trying to figure out how to get Seunghyun away from any media that day.

I need more time...