Note:  No keytae in this chapter - something I needed to write though.  Sorry that it's kind of short.

Chapter 5

He couldn’t believe it!  Jonghyun just couldn’t believe it!  Of all the things…

He tugged on his hair until he almost cried from the pain.  This could seriously jeopardize their place in the public eye.  Idols are supposed to be different…but not this different…

He paced a small ditch in the gravel on the top of the roof of their building.  Onew may have been named their leader because of his age, and when it came to scheduling and keeping tabs on everyone in their group he really was.  But when it came to their image, and how they were perceived it was always Jonghyun.  It was Jonghyun who took the lead on many of the shows that they went on, Jonghyun who thought through all the possible tough questions they might get thrown and how they could answer them.  This part of Jonghyun could not understand Taemin’s willingness to do something that could so easily hurt SHINee. 

He already thought it was weird – wrapping his head around something like a man liking another man in any kind of romantic way was just wrong to him.  That it was someone he knew made it weirder.  It kind of made his skin crawl in a way that he was not proud of.  Come on, it was Taemin.  Cute, gentle, lovable Taemin.  Everyone’s little brother.  How could he be gay?!  It just didn’t make sense.  He could not help his reaction, and he didn’t exactly think that it was wrong.  Onew and Key – their reactions were weird.  How could they just sleep in there with him?  Taemin had lied to them!  He was risking everything that all of them had worked so hard for!  Sacrificed anything like a normal childhood for!  And for what?  For Taemin to kiss a guy and allow the evidence to be so easily found by their manager.

At the same time, he felt horrible.  SHINee was a family, a band of brothers (as corny as that sounds).  Taemin was like his little brother, and he really did feel like he was an older brother to the young dancing genius.  It felt wrong to find something about the child that appalled him so much.  But he couldn’t help it – it was just the way he felt.  He had never known anyone who was gay before.  His parents had taught him that boys should like girls (and man did he like girls!) and the little skinship things he did with the guys on TV already made his parents worry.  But they would completely freak out if they found out that he was not only working with someone who was gay, but actually living with them – sleeping in the same room with them.  

His hurried pacing, without his paying attention, finally got the better of him and he tripped over his own feet and face planted into the pebbles.  A cloud of dust rose up from the pebbles and lay in a fine layer on his formally clean clothing.  Jonghyun let out a scream of frustration.  What was going on?!  Everything was fine at this time yesterday!  How could things have spiraled so quickly?!

He slowly got to his feet and walked to sit on the ledge of the roof, leaning lightly against the fencing that the building owners had put up.  He really didn’t know what he was going to do.  He loved Taemin like a brother, but the idea of homouality repulsed him.  Even more confusing was the fact that he still loved Taemin despite all of it. 

“Arrgg!” he released, frustrated and tugged his fingers through his hair again. 

He needed to sort through all of this.  He had worked too hard at this point to let everything fall apart now.  If that meant that he had to endure this….eccentricity…he would, for SHINee, but he was not going to be happy about it.

What he needs to worry about now is how to control the release of this to the public.  Their fans cannot find out.  It would ruin everything. 

Heaving a heavy sigh, Jonghyun got up to go back down to their dorm, try to avoid the maknae and changing into a clean set of clothes. 

“This can’t get any worse…” he muttered to himself.

So, this is my newest chapter.  I wasn't enitrely comfortable writing from Jonghyun's persepctive so let me know how I did. 

I felt that the story needed this at this point so you readers can get an idea of how this isn't just affecting keytae, but everyone around them and why the others might feel the way that they do. 

The keytae should be back in the next chapter (I hope...that is so much fun to write!)

Let me know what you think!