Alright, so this gets a little bit rated towards the end, but it isn't worse than PG-13 I think. I don't consider it rated until both the pants come off, so this is by my standards not rated at all. Just a small suggestion at something that sounds like mastication <-----I love that word :)

Dear Diary,

The New Year is coming up, which means so is my birthday. I don’t want to do anything special this year since we will be doing something Super Junior related. I don’t want Kyuhyun to forget my birthday though. Him remembering is the only thing that matters.

I think about him all the time. He is constantly on my mind, haunting my waking, and unconscious thoughts. Not that I minded. I keep falling for him harder and harder as each day progresses, I really don’t know how much longer I can keep this secret to myself.

“Come on guys, we are going to be late!” Leeteuk called us from the doorway to the dorm.

It was New Years Eve, 4 o’clock in the afternoon and we were frantically trying to get out the door and to the studio in time. We had a performance that night at a SMtown special. It was nothing overly dramatic, just our holiday gift to the fans.

We quickly hurried out the door and down to the van that was waiting for us. I sat in my usual spot, right next to Kyu. I guess you could say I had latched myself onto him, never wanting to let him go. It didn’t seem like he minded though.

As we bounced along the highway I was constantly aware of the pressure that was my leg against his. It felt like it was on fire. I had no idea how he could make me feel this way with just one touch, and I couldn’t help but wonder if he felt it too.

We soon arrived at the studio and piled out of the van and backstage where we rushed into our dressing room to prepare. Our stylist noonas did our hair and put our make-up on. I sat next to Kyuhyun wondering why they even bothered putting make-up on him, he was perfect just the way he was. We were soon prepped and ready to go on for our rehearsal.

Our rehearsal went smoothly and when we finished, we headed back to the dressing room where we relaxed for the next few hours before the show started. Some of the members played games while the others slept. I had fallen asleep on Eunhyuk early on, knowing that tonight was going to be late and wanting to catch a few winks before we had to perform.

I felt someone gently shaking my shoulder, urging me to wake up. As I slowly opened my eyes I realized that it was not Eunhyuk’s shoulder that I was resting my head on anymore, but Kyuhyun’s.

“How the heck did I end up asleep on you?” I asked sitting upright and hoping that he wouldn’t notice my blush.

It wasn’t like I hadn’t fallen asleep on him before, heck, we had even slept in the same bed, our bodies pressed together for comfort when one of us couldn’t sleep because of nightmare’s. It was just his proximity that drove me absolutely crazy. I never got used to his presence, no matter how much he was around.

“We have to go perform now Hyung.” He said and stood up slowly, offering his hand to me, which I gladly took and he helped pull me up.

We walked out of the room and towards the stage before I realized that he still hadn’t answered my question.  I was about to ask it again before I stopped myself. I guess I really didn’t want to know the answer, I was just glad that I got to be with him.

We walk on stage in front of the fake audience and see the other SM groups sitting in their seats. The show was broadcast live, but there wasn’t an actually audience because we didn’t want things getting rowdy if we could prevent it.

The MC made his way through the groups, asking them what their goals were for the New Year. When it was Super Junior’s turn Leeteuk spoke on all of our behalf.

“Super Junior’s goal for the new year is to keep improving and work harder to produce new music. We just want to make ELF happy and proud of us. Thank you for all of your continuous support. Kamsahmnida.” He spoke into the microphone.

It was a typical answer; similar ones had been given by the rest of the groups. I found myself making my own resolution.

‘I will not hide my feelings for Kyuhyun anymore.’

I was surprised at my own resolution, but decided that I would indeed keep it. The secret was starting to eat me up inside, and I needed to let it out before it destroyed me entirely.

“Alright, for our first performance of the night we have Super Junior!” The MC said and all 13 of us stood to sing while the lights dimmed on the other groups.

The song went smoothly, except for about half way through the song I felt Eunhyuk put an arm around my shoulder, swaying to the music with me. I smiled at him, he was being a goofy monkey and it was entertaining. Pretty soon though I felt a strong hand intertwine its fingers with my free hand, the other one was holding my microphone.

I felt a gentle tug as I slipped from Eunhyuk’s embrace and towards the person that had taken my hand. I looked up and was surprised that it was Kyuhyun who had grabbed me so suddenly. I felt my heart hammer, what had that meant?

I felt him nudge me gently as I was suddenly brought back to reality; I had almost missed my part! I had never done that before, and I was so embarrassed as I felt my face heat up. I saw Kyuhyun give me a soft smile as he saw my embarrassment and when I finished my part I hit him gently on the arm. He didn’t let go of my hand the rest of the song, and was still holding it tightly as we sat back down in our seats.

“Kyu, you can let go now, fans may start suspecting something.” I whispered in his ear as the lights went down and Shinee began to perform.

“No one will see. Don’t you like me holding your hand Minnie?” He asked me with a devilish grin.

I couldn’t say anything back because I flushed bright red and my breath got caught in my lungs. He just squeezed my hand tighter and I had no choice but to leave him be. I liked it anyway, and I think he somehow knew it.

I didn’t care if he caught on at this point, I wanted him to know. I just didn’t want to have to tell him.

The rest of the groups performed their numbers while we watched, his hand still clasping mine tightly. By the time everyone had finished it was almost midnight.

“Alright, are you guys ready to count in the New Year?!” The MC asked excitedly.

Everyone shouted excitedly even though most of us were dead exhausted and just wanted to go to sleep. I was even starting to doze off, my head resting against Kyuhyun’s shoulder and him nudging me every now and then to keep me awake.

“10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!” We all shouted at once standing up and cheering as balloons and confetti rained down over us.

“Happy New Year to everyone watching this, and I think this day means something more than just the start of a New Year for one of these celebrities, am I right?” The MC asked and I was confused.

Just then Kyuhyun let go of my hand as everyone in the place started to sing.

“Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday day dear Sungminnie, Happy Birthday to you.” They all chorused together and I couldn’t help but blush yet again that night.

So they didn’t really forget after all. I was touched as each of the members hugged me one by one. The last one to embrace me was Kyuhyun, and his was extra long as he took the time to whisper in my ear.

“I have something for you Minnie.”

“I have something I would like to give Sungmin for his birthday.” Kyuhyun repeated into the microphone and the group calmed down as he slowly reached behind him.

“Turn around.” He says only to me and I do as I am told.

I feel something cold lay against my chest which was exposed do to the low v-neck that I wore. I looked down and saw a key that was painted white with pink dots. When I felt Kyuhyun’s hands drop and my neck support the weight of the key I turned around to face him.

“I hope that this key will help you unlock all the closed doors in your future, and that you will always find a way inside.” He said and I marveled at his words.

“Thank you.” I mutter into the microphone and look away.

I was trying desperately to figure out what this key meant. It looked like a regular key, only painted. I had no idea which door he could be referring to, but maybe I would only need it in the distant future.

“Well, that’s all for tonight. Thank you for joining us and have a happy and safe New Year!” The MC called out and we all clapped before the camera stopped rolling.

“Oh thank goodness, I’m exhausted.” Yesung whined

“Come on, let’s get home.” Leeteuk said and guided the members off the stage and back to the dressing room where we grabbed our stuff and headed to the van.

Once we got back I went to my room with Kyuhyun, waiting for the others to finish showering before it was our turn.

“Kyuhyun, what’s this for?” I ask him nervously.

I wanted to know where the key lead to.

“That’s up for you to figure out Minnie, but I promise you, one day it will open the door that you need to unlock the most.” He said with a serious gaze at me. He was sitting on his bed reading something while we waited.

“You guys are good, everyone else is done.” Shindong said peeking his head in the room before heading out again.

“You can go first.” I offered. I didn’t mind waiting a few minutes longer since I had taken a nap earlier.

“Are you sure? You can go, or we could, um, go together?” He suggested and I looked up, shocked at his words.

He was blushing bright red and his embarrassment made me blush too. As much as I loved the idea of showering with him, I knew it would not end well for either of us.

“Thanks, but no thanks Kyu. You go ahead.” I tell him and he grabs his stuff and then hurries out of the room.

I couldn’t believe what he had just suggested; this was the weirdest night ever. First the mysterious key and now he wanted to shower with me? I shuddered in pleasure as I thought of his body, dripping wet as the hot water flowed over his broad shoulders and down his bare chest and then farther down.

‘.’ I think as I feel myself growing hard at the thought. This was going to be a problem.

I heard him coming down the hallway, already back from his shower. You learned to shower quickly when you lived with twelve other guys.

I quickly grabbed my towel and shower stuff and held it below my waist, hiding the obvious bulge in my jeans and hurried to the bathroom as soon as he was in the room.

“Hyung, what’s wrong...” He started to ask but before he could finish his thought I was out the door and in the bathroom. I turned the shower on and stripped down quickly. I made sure the door was locked and then got in the shower, letting the hot water run over me and calm my racing heart. I looked down and sighed as I began to pump myself, relieving myself of the burden that just the thought of you had caused.

I didn’t know how much more of this I could take.

Hooray another chapter! I wrote a rated one shot, two chapters for my other story, AND this today. Sick days are great for writing, although I could definitely deal without the sneezing! Anyway, this is not my best work "Mianhe". Like I said, sick and I wrote a ton today. This story will end up being short, I see it being around 8 chapters which is VERY SHORT in comparison to my previous chaptered stories. I will try not to fail though. Kamsahmnida, Comments are love :)