Today is the day that I will go back to the place where I really grew up. I got my bags and placed them in the living room. John, Eleanor,

mom and Henry knew about this. They all looked at me while they were eating their breakfast. Henry stood up from his chair and walked

towards me. 

"Are you not going to eat breakfast first before going to the airport?" he asked

"No"

Mom stood from her chair and went towards me bringing a small plastic "I made you sandwich so you have something to eat during

the flight"

I got the small plastic and said "Thanks"

John walked towards me "Are you really sure about this?"

"Yes. I've been wanting to go back to Philippines"

"Until when are you going to stay there?" he asked

"Maybe a couple of weeks. I need time to think for myself too"

"Take care of yourself" Eleanor said, who is standing beside Henry 

I looked at her and nodded 

"I'll send Jessy to the airport" Henry said and went to his room to change

John gave me a warm hug. Mom kept on crying as if I won't be coming here again. Eleanor gave me also a warm hug. When Henry

finished changing his clothes, mom pulled me for a hug.

"Jessy, take care of yourself. I love you so much"

"I love you too mom"

Then she let go of me "Henry, take her safely to the airport"

"I will mom" Henry said while getting my bags

"Bye" I said and walked going outside the car

Henry put my bags inside his car and I sat on the front seat. While we were inside the car, we were listening to One Direction's songs.

"Henry, is this your playlist?" I looked at him

"No, this is yours" he was busy driving his car

"Why are you playing it by the way? Before you never play my playlist on your car"

"I will be playing from now on because you'll be far away from me"

"Why are you acting this way? As if I'm not going back here anymore. I'll be back, Henry. I just need time for myself"

"Why in the Philippines? Why does it to be far away from here?" he looked at me and went back driving

"I want to go to a place wherein there is no connections to my problems right now"

"Are you still bothered about Eleanor and Louis?"

I looked at him "Yes because I know their relationship isn't really that over. Eleanor still wants Louis to come back"

When we arrived at the airport, Henry gave me a warm hug "Take care of yourself there, okay?"

"I will" I smiled at him 

"No one's going to cook you there"

"I will miss you" I said

"I will miss you too, lil' sister" he touched my head

He was teary-eyed when I was walking away from him. Not too far away from Henry, someone called me. I stopped from walking

and didn't look behind. 

"Jessy!"

I looked behind and saw Louis waving at me. I knew that he would come here. He ran towards me and said "You never told me

that you were leaving"

"I'm not leaving. I will just a vacation"

"When are you planning to come back?"

"I don't know. Maybe after I finished all the business I need to finish and yours too"

"I'm trying to finish it so we can go back together"

"Then, that's good!"

"Is this really your decision?"

"Yes"

He sighed and put his hands on my shoulders "Always think that I love you. I will be here waiting for you"

"I love you too but I want you to finish the business you had with Eleanor"

"I will" he leaned down to kiss my forehead

After he kissed my forehead, a lot of people started staring at us and getting pictures from us

"Louis, stop this now. Maybe we'll be in the news tomoroow" I looked at him

"Are you not used to?" he smirked

"Okay. Stop now. I need to go"

He pulled me for a hug "Take care, I love you"

"I love you too"

Then, we let go of each other. I smiled at him and walked away from him. Things weren't still the same as before. I know that we

still do love each other but I think my feelings started to fade away after what he did to me. I went inside the airplane and looked

for my seat. I sat beside the window and put my earphones on. I slightly closed my eyes. I had two stop-overs before I can 

reach Philippines. I was on my last stop-over which is in Korea. This is the place that I really want to visit when I was still a kid.

I so love this place. Whenever I see Korea in pictures or posters, I feel I'm connected with the place. When I was waiting for my

flight going to the Philippines. I saw a cute couple bracelet. One was red and the other one was blue. I bought it and placed it

inside my bag. I was also attracted to one cute shirt. It was plain neon pink. I bought it directly. When it was time for my flight, 

I went inside the airport immediately. It's only a few minutes before I arrive in the Philippines. Actually, no one knows that I'll be

coming back and I don't want to let them know about it especially my friends. Instead of telling them good memories I had in

Birmingham, I don't want to tell them about my problems. When I arrived in the airport of Cebu, I got my bags and one luggage.

I took a taxi cab and told the driver to take me to the place where I was staying while I was still living here. I miss this place. This

is the place where I really grew up. Even though my mom's half-korean and my dad is a Filipino, I really love this place. I can see

a lot of Filipinos from the streets. There were a lot of changes here. Many building and malls were now established. When I arrived

in my place, I looked at our house. Someone already lived in that house. While I was looking at our house, someone from our house

went out and recognized me "Jessy!" he ran towards the gate and opened it. 

"You're back! Where's your mom?"

"Nice to see you again, Jefferson" I smiled at him

Jefferson is my childhood friend. We we're friends like we we're still 7 years old. Honestly, I had a huge crush on him back then but

he doesn't know about it. He's a cute and simple guy. He doesn't drink alcoholic drinks or even smoke. He's mysterious.

"Mom's still in Birmingham"

"Come in" he smiled at me

I went inside in our house and it still looks the same! Nothing changed expect for some figurines and picture frames. I sat down on

the couch. 

"Mom! Jessy's here!" Jefferson exclaimed as he put my luggage and bags beside me

His mom, Aunt Vicky from the kitchen showed up "Jessy! You're here!" she walked towards me and gave me a warm hug

I smiled back at her

"Jessy's here?" Carla asked as she went outside from her room. My old room was now her room. When she looked at me, she 

gave me a huge smile and ran towards me. She also gave me a warm hug.

"Actually, your mom told me that we'll be staying here after you went to Birmingham since no one will be staying here anymore"

Aunt Vicky said

"Yeah. I can see that you really took care of the house. It's clean" I smiled at her

"Jessy! I heard you are Louis Tomlinson's girlfriend. Is that true?" Carla asked

"She's a huge fan of One Direction" Jefferson said

I smiled at her "Yes"

"Mygosh! Why didn't you bring him up here?" Carla sat beside me

"He has busy schedules"

"Too bad" Carla pouted

"We didn't really expect you to come" Aunt Vicky said

"I planned like it was two days ago"

"Why?" Jefferson asked

"I just wanted to visit here and I miss this place"

"Oh, too much for that. I'm hungry mom" Carla said

"Yeah! Lunch's ready. Let's eat now, Jessy" Aunt Vicky smiled at me

We ate our lunch. I sat beside Jefferson. Carla was across me and Aunt Vicky was seated beside Carla.

"How was it there? Was it fine?" Carla asked

"Yes, it was fine there"

"You finished your studying, right?" Aunt Vicky asked

"Yes. I graduated in Fashion Designing"

"Woah! Sounds cool!" Carla gave me an amazed look

"How about you, Jefferson?" I looked at him

"I'm taking up Criminology. I'm now on my 3rd year. One more year and I can make it" he smiled at me

"Good luck!" 

"So, which room do you like to sleep?" Aunt Vicky said

"She can share with me!" Carla looked at her mom

"Yeah, but you're too annoying. You would have endless talks with Jessy and you can't sleep anymore" Jefferson looked at Carla

"But we're girls! Girls likes talks" 

"Okay! Jessy, is it okay with you if you'll share a room with Jefferson?" Aunt Vicky asked

"Seriously mom?!" Carla looked at her mom

"Yeah. Sure. It's fine with me" I smiled at her

Carla pouted

After we had our lunch, Jefferson helped me to bring my bags and luggage to his room. He's staying in Henry's room. There was

one huge bed on his room. Two people can accommodate it. I know this sounds awkward because it's my first time to sleep with

a guy. 

"Isn't this awkward? I know we experienced sleeping together in one bed back when we're kids but it's different now"

"There's nothing awkward between us, Jessy. We're still the same. You, my older sister and me, your younger brother" he

walked towards me and got my bag from my hands. He put beside his cabinet and I kept on looking at him.

"Why are you staring at me like that?" he asked

"Nothing. Can you go outside first? I'm going to take a shower" 

"Okay" he smiled and went outside the room

I got some of my clothes from my luggage and took a shower. After I took a shower, I changed. When I went outside the room, I saw

Jefferson seating on their couch, watching the television. I sat beside him and watched the television together with him.

He looked at me and asked "Would you like to go outside?" 

I looked at him "Sure"

We went outside the house. We take a tour in our place. Before, their house was far away from our house but it was now demolished. 

I really don't have friends here in our place. Only Jefferson and Carla are my friends. So, I grew up with these guys. When we reached

at the basketball court, I remember the days when we're still kids. This is Jefferson's favorite place. He really loves this place because

this is the place where he can play basketball which is his favorite sport and he's really good at it. We sat on the bench on the side

of the basketball court.

"I remember this place. This is your favorite place among in this place" 

"Yeah" he smiled looking at the basketball court

"I can still remember we we're playing basketball together. You have more friends than I do because you're cool! You're so good in 

playing basketball" I looked at him

"Because you're not friendly back then"

"I have friends back then but they weren't true to me. Only you and Carla are my true friends"

"I can still remember that time when they hated you so much. They even talked about you which is so not true"

"Yeah. Just forget about them"

"If I know they are now in deep regret because look at you now, you look so rich the way you dress. You are now the girlfriend

of Louis Tomlinson of One Direction"

"Oh, stop saying that" I smiled at him

"Why?" he smiled

The basketball court is not a covered court so I can feel the heat through my skin. I can also feel that our conservation is going

to be intense since we arrived now the topic of Louis.

"Well, I just don't want to hear that I'm Louis' girlfriend" I looked down

"Why? Is there something wrong?" he asked

He's my childhood friend so every single detail about me, he knows everything...like everything! I was looking for someone who can

talk to like who knows me and who can understands me and this is it. Jefferson. He's the one I can talk to.

"Louis and I are in complicated right now" I said still looking down

"What?" 

I looked at him "Yes. I knew that he had a relationship before with my stepsister, Eleanor. By the way, my mom got married to a

British man and this man is the dad of Eleanor. When we first met with Eleanor, she was so rude to me but when she knew that I

will be going to be her stepsister, she began to act nice to me. Honestly, she was really nice. She told me that she loved a guy before

which she treats him as her world. I've been hearing her always talking to Henry about that she still loves that guy and she wants to 

start their relationship over again. Henry never told me about this. Henry doesn't keep secrets to me. I was just wondering why doesn't

he told me about this. Until the day Eleanor confessed to me that he was referring to my boyfriend, Louis. She still loves Louis. I 

feel like I was betrayed at that time because she never told me that even Henry. I talked to Louis about that and he told me that he was

going to tell me. When will he be going to tell me? Like we are now 8th months and when does he need to plan to tell me about this?

So, I told him I need space. He needs to finish his business with Eleanor and I also need to figure out what I really feel inside. I was

looking for someone whom I can talk to so I went to my mom. When I told her about everything, she told me that she also knew about

it. All of them knew except me. It's painful to hear that they were hiding something from me. I wanted someone whom I can talk to.

Someone who understands me. Someone who knows everything about me. So, I decided to come back here and now I realized,

it's you I wanted to talk to" my tears began to fall from my eyes

"That's why I've never been into love because I'm afraid of commitments" he looked away

I looked at him "Jefferson, I really don't know what to do right now"

He looked at me "You can still fix it, Jessy. I can Louis can fix between him and Eleanor. I can see that he really loves you so he

will do everything he can just get the two of you back together"

"How can I fix it?" I asked

"You said a while ago that you need to figure out what you really feel inside. What does it mean?"

"Zayn. He's really my ultimate crush. When I knew that Louis likes me and I can see in his efforts that he really wants me to be his

girl. So, I gave him a chance and it worked well. Time comes where Zayn confessed to me that he loves me and he's willing to wait

for me. I thought I really don't have feelings for him anymore but I think it's still here" I pointed where my heart is located

"Jessy, I really don't know how to advice you since I've never been in that situation but I will really do my best to give you an advice..."

he took a deep breath "For me, I think you should follow what your heart beats for. I mean, yes it would be painful for Louis' part if

he'll know that you really have feelings for Zayn and Zayn loves you too. It's like you betrayed him for doing that"

"I really don't want Louis to know about what Zayn feel for me and what I also feel for Zayn" I looked down

"Someday, it will get better. You can figure what you really feel soon. There's a lot of time to think about that. So, just be happy!"

he smiled at me

When I saw him smiling at me, I smiled at him. He wept my tears away 

"I miss doing this to you" he said

Suddenly, we felt rain drops. We looked at the sky and it began to rain. Jefferson grabbed my hands and we played in the rain. 

This was also part of our childhood days. It's nice to go back to the place where you really grew up. It's nice to be back in this place!