Myungsoo was drinking water from a glass cup when Sungyeol came into the kitchen. Sungyeol swung the glass cup off Myungsoo’s grip and let it shatter onto the floor, not caring about the glass shards as his eyes were focused on Myungsoo.

“What’s your problem, Lee Sungyeol?!” Myungsoo dangerously raised his cold voice.

“My problem? Hah!” Sungyeol scoffed.

“What’s REALLY your problem, Kim Myungsoo?!” Sungyeol jabbed his fingers into Myungsoo’s chest.

The members in the living room heard the shattering of glass which was followed by Myungsoo and Sungyeol’s heated argument but no one made a move.

“What do you mean, Lee Sungyeol?” Myungsoo’s voice was dangerously low and he already had his fist clenched tightly together by his side.

“Kim Myungsoo, why’re you trying to grab our attention by acting sick like this?! Is it fun like this?! Too sad, you never managed to grab our attention…. I never knew you would stoop that low just because you craved for our attention like hell!”Sungyeol spat at Myungsoo with venom in his voice.

Myungsoo tightened his fist but released it after a few seconds.

“To think that you even like me….”Sungyeol added fuel to the fire.

Myungsoo’s eyes widened.

He totally lost his cool composure once he heard it because he can’t believe Lee Sungyeol, someone he was once close to and his secret crush would accuse him of stooping that low when it’s not even true at all minus the liking part.

A loud slap resonated throughout their dorm and the members rushed into the kitchen.

Myungsoo had tears in his eyes as he shouted.

“SO WHAT IF I LIKE YOU!? DOES THAT EVEN MATTER TO YOU BECAUSE TO  ME, NO! IT’S JUST A SILLY CRUSH AND I DON’T EVEN EXPECT ANYTHING TO HAPPEN BECAUSE SOONER OR LATER, I’LL GET OVER WITH IT!!! SO WHAT IF I’M REALLY ILL HUH?! DOES THAT CONCERN YOU SO MUCH?! EVEN IF I’M REALLY ILL, I’LL NEVER CRAVE FOR YOUR ATTENTION JUST BECAUSE OF IT! LEE SUNGYEOL, I NEVER KNEW YOU THINK THAT LOWLY OF ME! SOME KIND OF A MAN YOU ARE!” Myungsoo ran into his, Sungyeol’s and Dongwoo’s shared bedroom, locked the door and cried.

Sungyeol stood rooted in the same spot when tears suddenly started trickling down his cheeks.

Had he went overboard?

He looked up and was stunned to see all the members staring at him.

“Have I done it wrong….?” Sungyeol slowly muttered out with trembling lips.

All the members nodded.

“Very.” Dongwoo said.

“Yeol-ah, you shouldn’t have been that harsh to him…yes, all of us had been giving Myungsoo the cold treatment ever since how long ago, I forgot but what you said just now, clearly hurted him in many ways…” Woohyun said.

“We all know that Myungsoo might just be faking his sickness just to get our attention but Sungyeol-ah, you did it in a wrong way….” Sunggyu said.

“What the heck, Sunggyu hyung?! Myungsoo hyung’s really sick, you pabos!” Sungjong cursed loudly in his head, glaring daggers into Sunggyu’s face.

“Should I apologise to him right now and try to comfort him…?” Sungyeol asked timidly.

“Definitely.” Hoya said.

“Now go!” Dongwoo rushed Sungyeol.

Sungyeol tried turning the doorknob to their bedroom but Myungsoo seemed to have locked it from the inside.

Sungyeol started pounding his fist on the door.

“Myungsoo! Kim Myungsoo! Open the door this instance!” Sungyeol shouted.

“Just leave! You think I’m a joke? Eveything’s a joke to you? Lee Sungyeol, I’m telling you to go because I don’t want to see you! My feelings for you are just…feelings, so GO!”Myungsoo cried as he clasped his hand over his mouth, trying to contain his sobs.

“Myungsoo-ya, mianhe……Open the door, please! “ Sungyeol pounded his fight more violently against the door, his face getting redder as he cried hard.

Myungsoo slid down the door with his head buried in between his knees and his shoulders shaking violently from crying. He wanted to thrash the whole room but refrained himself.

“Wae Lee Sungyeol ! WAE!? What’ve I done for you to accuse me like that! It hurts a lot, you know….” Myungsoo thought as his heart ached.

The two boys were still at the room, one inside and one outside. Both slumped against the door frame, tears dried off already on their cheeks. Too tired to scream anymore, their eyes staring into blank space.

“Sungyeol-ah…” Sungyeol looked at Dongwoo with no soul in his eyes.

“Yes….Dongwoo hyung?” Sungyeol said.

Dongwoo shook his head and left him by the door, still slumped.

“Myungsoo-ya, jebal…..Open up the door and let me apologise” Sungyeol went back begging again but there was no response from the other side of the door.

“Myungsoo-ya….Myungsoo…….” Sungyeol called out but silence greeted him.

“Is he asleep already?” Sungyeol thought to himself since no response came from the opposite.

Sungyeol stood up wobbily and started pounding on the door again.

“Myungsoo-ya! Kim Myungsoo! Unlock the bedroom door so Dongwoo hyung and I can enter!”Sungyeol yelled.

Woohyun and Sunggyu came to Sungyeol when they heard his shouts.

“The door’s still locked?” Woohyun asked and Sungyeol nodded.

“Let me try. Myungsoo-ya, unlock the door…It’s Woohyun hyung!” Woohyun pounded on the door.

Sungjong suddenly came to the three and started pounding harder and furiously on the door.

“Myungsoo hyung! Can you hear me! Unlock the door!” Sungjong shouted with all his might.

“Ya! Ya! Ya! Lee Sungjong! Lower your volume!” Sunggyu warned but got ignored by said maknae.

Sungjong remembered something as he pounded on the door, worried for Myungsoo because no one was responding from the other side of the room.

“Hyung….hyung…..hyung….” Sungjong’s mind was filled with Myungsoo adding onto his fear.

“Is there a spare key to the room, hyung?” Sungjong asked hurriedly.

“Ah? Y-yes….” Woohyun walked away from them.

“Wae Sungjong-ah? Something wrong? Why do you look so scared?” Sunggyu questioned.

Sungjong was quiet but he kept working on the door.

Woohyun came back with the spare key and inserted it into the keyhole.

Sungjong held his breath as the door slowly squeaked open.

“OMO!” Woohyun was the one to scream.

Sungjong forced open his eyes. A figure was on the floor, his black hair blowing ever softly but the small pool of blood blood beside the figure was enough to shock him. His Myungsoo hyung.

Sungjong pushed past Woohyun and ran into the room, sliding straight beside Myungsoo and held his body up against him.

“Myungsoo hyung! Wake up! Don’t scare me!” tears were spilling out of Sungjong’s eyes as he sobbed uncontrollably.

Blood was dripping from the edge of Myungsoo’s lips as Sungjong franctically wiped the blood away with his thumb.

“Don’t just stand there! Sunggyu hyung, call Hyoan hyung! NOW!” Sungjong shouted at them with tears in his eyes.

“Shouldn’t we call the ambulance?” Sunggyu asked.

“HYOAN HYUNG! NOW!” Sungjong shouted at him.

That was the first time they have seen Sungjong shouting right at them.

“Myungsoo hyung….? Wake up, jebal! I don’t wanna lose you…” Sungjong cried more.

The members were stunned, looking at Sungjong crying and all with a limp and pale looking Myungsoo in his arms.

He lifted Myungsoo up in a bridal style and carried him out of the bedroom.

“MOVE OUT OF MY WAY!” Sungjong roughly shouldered past his hyungs.

He didn’t care whether he just actually disrespected or disobeyed them but his Myungsoo hyung.

By the time Sungjong reached the lobby of the apartment, their manager’s car was already parked there.

All the members got on and Hyoan immediately drove off without saying anything as if he knew what had happened.

On the way, Sungjong hugged Myungsoo’s limp body so close to himself, seemingly as if he’s afraid that Myungsoo will disappear.

The dazed members were confused and at the same time, scared. Why? Because to them, Myungsoo looked like he was on the brink of death.

“Sungjong…?” Woohyun tried to touch Sungjong’s arms but Sungjong only barked at him.

“Back off, Woohyun hyung” Sungjong has that cold fiery gaze when he glared at Woohyun.

“Sungjong, ppalli!” Hyoan said but Sungjong was already dashing out of the van with Myungsoo in his arms.

In front of the emergency room, Sungjong kept crying.

“Sungjong-ah, Myungsoo will be fine so stop crying plus it probably maybe that he’s stressed leading to this.” Woohyun comforted, patting Sungjong on the back.

“You all don’t understand!” Sungjong yelled at them causing them to flinch back.

“LEE SUNGJONG!”Sunggyu yelled back at the crying maknae.

“You’re not to yell at us when we’re your older hyungs! I assure you that there’s definitely nothing WRONG with Myungsoo!” Sunggyu continue yelling.

“Keep quiet when you all know nothing! Myungsoo hyung suffered so much without you all knowing…..he suffered a lot alone…” Sungjong hissed, making the members puzzled for a second.

What was it? They know nothing? Heck, they know everything!

“Lee Sungjong, what do you mean?” Hoya asked, grabbing Sungjong’s wrist.

“Howon. Enough.” Hyoan warned.

“Wait, Hyoan hyung? Do you two know something we don’t…?” Sunggyu flared up in anger.

“He-“Hyoan was about to say something but was stopped by Sungjong.

The doctor and nurses came out from the operation room right after Hyoan was cut off by Sungjong.

Sungjong rushed to the doctor, squeezing his hands.

“How is he, doctor? How is Myungsoo hyung? He’s going be alright?” Sungjong asked through his cloud of tears.

The doctor and nurses only gave Hyoan and Sungjong sympathetic looks.

“Sungjong-ssi, he’s fine now…..”

Sunjong was relieved and glad to hear that. The members had proud looks on, indicating that they were true to what they’ve said.

“BUT the patient’s health condition is deteriorating at a fast speed due to his leukemia….He already refused to go through chemotheraphy way before it still wasn’t that serious but now, his life is really counted…..Sorry, Sungjong-ssi” Hyoan bowed at the doctor and nurses passing by him. The members’ faces fell.

Sungjong walked to the doctor weakly and went down on his knees, halting the medical team in their steps.

“Save him, doctor. Please, save him! I need him in my life because without him, there’s no reason for me to be living in this world anymore! Please….” The doctor shook his head, bowing his head down.

Sungjong broke down crying again as a new group of fresh tears found their way to his eyes.

“Why him…?” Sungjong said.

“How…..?” Sunggyu muttered. Now the members knew why Sungjong was crying so hard because Myungsoo was suffering from leukemia and they’re in shock because of the news they just received.

“I’ll be at the cafeteria, boys….” Hyoan left all six of them alone, in the hallway of the busy hospital.

Woohyun knelt down to Sungjong’s eye level and harshly grabbed onto both his shoulders.

“Ya Lee Sungjong! YOU KNEW!? Why didn’t you tell us!?” Woohyun yelled.

“Would that’ve changed anything…?” Sungjong looked at the members with nothing but emptiness in his eyes.

“Myungsoo suffered from leukemia but why….? I thought he was faking his sickness in turn for our attention” Sungyeol dare say that.

“Thought? THOUGHT?! LEE SUNGYEOL, YOU BASTARD!” A punch landed on said choding’s face, sending him stumbling onto the floor. Courtesy to Sungjong.

“He was really sick, you bastards and you all thought he was faking it? NO! He hid it away from you five because he knew that despite you all knew about his illness, he would still be left alone and ignored so why bother?” Sungjong scoffed out with a laugh, pointing his fingers accusingly at them.

“Sungjong-ah…”Hoya said.

“Don’t. Call. My. Name. Get out of my face right now! I don’t want to see you people!” Sungjong looked at them with so much disgust and anger as he broke free from Hoya’s grab.

Sungyeol remained silent on the floor. The bruise forming on his face and the aching on his bruise was nothing compared the current ache in his heart. Slowly, tears started b down his face. He thought back to all the awful things he said to Myungsoo just before this happened. Myungsoo’s crying face and pleas kept playing in his mind like a recorder, non-stop. He regretted it deeply.