"Hyung, I hate you."

It felt like Sungmin was slap on the face big time when he heard those words from Donghae. Although, he expected it to happen...
he just didn't know it will be this painful to hear those words for real. He could just look down as the water drip from his
face. Forget the splashing of water, just the I hate you words made his heart scatters into the tiniest pieces.

Donghae has finally calmed down. His breathing was back to normal and still his sharp mocking eyes never leave his brother's
guilty face. He hates his brother, that is what he really feels right now. He may be in deep shock awhile ago that caused him
to have difficulty in breathing; he was disgusted with his brother's action. Indeed, they've been in this third gender society
but seeing his brother actually doing it with his very own lover, it was beyond disgusting. Not even in the normal society is
cheating ever legal. His hyung is the lowest and dirtiest creature he has ever known. A while ago, he was not ready to speak as
he find it hard to swallow everything he saw but right now... he is ready to say a lot of words. He breathe in as he looks at
Sungmin with disgust and hatred and started...

"There are many other people there...why does it have to be Kyuhyun?" Donghae finally looked away and suddenly meeting the eyes
of Kyuhyun. Despite the scene he saw a while ago, he still felt like he doesn't hate Kyuhyun at all. That's how he love Kyuhyun,
his hyung is in the wrong and Kyuhyun is probably just a victim as well. "Tell me it was just a lie. Kyuhyun ah... you and
Sungmin hyung-" he looked down and shook his head shortly. "No." he looked at Sungmin sharply letting the
older see his tears. "I don't have a brother anymore." he said telling Sungmin about it. His eyes has broken their blood ties
and Sungmin could just look down with so much guilt in his heart. "Kyuhyun ah...tell me that you and Sungmin is just a lie." he
said wanting to shake the youngest for him to agree. Sungmin heard another crash from his scattered heart when DOnghae called
him with only his name, Donghae doesn't see him as his dear brother anymore.

Kyuhyun looked at Sungmin like asking what to answer. The older look away. "Sorry... Donghae ah... We didn't mean to hurt you.
Sungmin and I are-" he didn't finished his words... he thinks Donghae knows what he will say and the younger Lee has seen enough
of their intimacy to think that they are not in love with each other and if he is going to tell him about he and Sungmin's real
deal... it's going to hurt Donghae even more.

Donghae closed his mouth shortly and then gasped for breath...looking up like wanting to stop the tears.

"I'm sorry, Donghae ah..." Sungmin said wanting to approach his brother but Donghae looked at him sharply making him stop, making
him feel that his brother; the closest person to him is now a million miles away...by heart.

"Lee Sungmin... I hate you." Donghae looked at him sharply. Sungmin looked at Kyuhyun sending message like what should they do
and what will happen to them. The latter nodded shortly and looked at Donghae. He is going to tell Donghae. Even if it will hurt...

"Donghae ah..."

"I'm supposed to be the one beside you. That's what you made me believe..."
Kyuhyun just look at him. "The person beside you... should be me. What you and Sungmin is just a lie. Kyuhyun ah...
what you and him are sharing are just a lie. I'm the one you truly love, you were just a victim of his greediness."

Sungmin looked at away as he saw Kyuhyun being helpless as well, especially when Donghae wrapped his arms around their lover.
It felt like he has lose his right to choose for himself and Kyuhyun as Donghae is overly furious with him. Same goes for Kyuhyun,
he knows who to choose and it will always be Sungmin...but right now, he felt the need to feed Donghae's emotions. The older
Lee started walking out of the house while Kyuhyun, in Donghae's embrace, just watched him leave...feeling sorry that
he was unexpectedly helpless as well.

"The person you love is me... Kyuhyun ah..." Donghae said pressing his body on Kyuhyun. The younger just let him do what he wants
to do while his hands are just resting on the side. Those hands are only to embrace his most beloved Sungmin. Kyuhyun looked at
Sungmin's direction saying sorry in his mind... Sorry, Donghae ah... the real lie is the 2 of us deeply in love. Sorry
Sungmin ah... I didn't know it will hurt you this much for us to be together.

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He knows where to find the older man. There. In front of his very own condominium, crouching like a young child, waiting.
Sungmin looked up and saw Kyuhyun crouching in front of him. His bow lips are curled down and tears started falling then and
there. The young man embraced Sungmin tightly making him free the sobs that he has been keeping. "I'm sorry..." Kyuhyun whispered.

Sungmin cried in Kyuhyun's embrace, burying his face on the young man's chest as he shed loads of tears. "I don't regret him
seeing us, Min. But... I'm really sorry I was not able to do anything for you." Kyuhyun looked up stopping his very own tears,
right now Sungmin is weak and so he must be strong for both of them.

Sungmin held the younger's shirt crumpling it as he cries. Kyuhyun patted his head and pull it closer to him. "It's all my
fault. I should have told him earlier." Sungmin cried. His lover shook his head to make him feel better. The older swallowed and
thought of the best plan he could have at the very moment. "Kyuhyun ah...maybe we shouldn't see each other for a while."

The thought of breaking up with Donghae has always been his no.1 choice because he wants to be with Sungmin. But when he heard
this absurd proposal from his secret lover...

"Sungmin ah... Donghae has seen us in our most vulnerable scene and now that he knows what is going on between us, we don't
need to separate anymore. I will tell him that the one I love is you." Kyuhyun said gently but with dominance. He wouldn't want
to separate with Sungmin and he believes he has elaborated it a hundred times to the older one. Right now, why can't Sungmin
see this point, that if they will just face Donghae together, they can be with each other for real.

Sungmin looked down... "I thought I can bare seeing him hating me...but-" recalling how upset Donghae's eyes and those bitter
glares and words he received, he cannot stop himself from shedding another loads of tears.

Kyuhyun deeply understand that point. He's seen the way the older Lee treats his brother. And from the stories Sungmin told him
whenever he's in Kyuhyun's bed. He knows that the older looked after Donghae when their parents died. He has
been Donghae's mom, dad and brother, Donghae's friend and all...he has given up many chances for himself just to give in to his
brother's needs. And now the only thing that makes him Donghae's rival and enemy is loving his younger brother's lover.

Kyuhyun sighed. He still and definitely doesn't like that option. "Kyuhyun ah...you cared for him as well...just-
just be with him. Yes?"

"What?" Kyuhyun asked. That was the most ridiculous request he heard from Sungmin...and probably the first request he will ever
reject.

"I cannot think of any more ways to keep him but to let go of you." Sungmin pushed Kyuhyun away from their embrace and looked
at the young man. "Let's end this here."

Kyuhyun held Sungmin's wrist tightly..."You promised me that you will tell him so that we can be together, Sungmin ah... don't
do this." the older tried to breakfree from his grip and tried his best to avoid Kyuhyun's eyes. "We can still fix everything."

Sungmin tried his best to let go from Kyuhyun's hold... "Sungmin ah... we've talked about this. I told you I will stay with you
even if Donghae hates us. Lee Sungmin..." Kyuhyun's voice desperately gentle. "I cannot be without you. Please, don't... just
don't do this."

"I'm sorry..." Sungmin said and finally breakfree and ran away. Kyuhyun didn't chase him anymore. His secret lover is in deep
pain and he needs to fix his thoughts by himself. He sighed deeply while resting his hands on his waist. He looked up as he walked
around in front of the door of his house. What is he going to do?

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When Sungmin arrived at home, he saw Donghae standing in front of him. As if he knows where his hyung has been. "You still went
out to see him, didn't you?" the younger's suspicious eyes piercing him.

Sungmin looked down and avoid his brother's eyes. He walked his way from the house to think well and he thinks he was able to
sort things a little. But he felt too tired with what he has been keeping to himself and what has happened today. He continued
walking inside the house and wanted to ignore Donghae...

"How can you do it, hyung? How can you be so selfish? How can you-" Sungmin stopped and looked at his younger brother with his
tired, lonely eyes. After all these years of taking care of Donghae, since when did he become selfish?

"Donghae ah... I wanted to tell you about us." Donghae shut up with what Sungmin said. "I wanted to tell you that I like him...
even before you confessed to him. I had loved him longer than you did. But I stepped back when you said you like him." he said
gently, hoping for Donghae to understand his side.

"So I have to thank you for not telling me?" Donghae said chuckling a bit with sarcasm.

"I didn't tell you because I don't want to hurt you."

"If you don't want to hurt me you shouldn't have gone for him!"

Sungmin kept his mouth closed as he cried in front of Donghae. His younger brother is right... if he never wanted to hurt Donghae,
he shouldn't have go for Kyuhyun. But... where would he go? He longed for Kyuhyun, he has loved the young man and Kyuhyun shared
the same feelings for him. Who would he go for? "I never regret going for him, Donghae ah..." his tears fell as he
look at his younger brother, right now, the words in his mouth is what he really feels. "He's the only person I wish not to share
with you." his eyes lonely and wanting to tell more. "I never regret going for him. The only thing that I regret is that I have
to do it behind your back because I don't want to lose you as well."

"Lee Sungmin," Donghae said looking at him sarcastically. "Do you really think I won't step back if you told me you like him?
You're not the only one who knows what sacrifice is!" he shouted. Sungmin closed his eyes freeing his tears. "You always act like
you're the sacrificial goat, you always think people leave you behind. You always thinks you should be the one people should
sympathise with... the truth is you're just as selfish as I am!" Donghae said pointing his finger to himself. "You don't want to
hurt me?"
He asked with sarcasm as tears flow freely from his eyes. "You don't want to hurt Kyuhyun? Look at what you're doing now! You
want to keep us both under your wing and you pretend that you are the one who does the sacrifice! You're the selfish one... and
yet because of this heroic thing you've been doing and probably what you've been saying to Kyuhyun, I'm the one who looks like
the villain."

Sungmin turned his back on Donghae and left the younger man behind. He doesn't want to say anything anymore. He doesn't want to
tell Donghae that because he has been giving in to his younger brother, he wasn't able to learn how to dance; because he has been
giving in to his younger brother, he wasn't able to get the toys he wanted when he was young; because he has been giving in to
his younger brother, he cannot escape the cane marks that he will now forever have. Because he has been giving in to his younger
brother, he cannot have Kyuhyun wholly.
He knows it will ruin both of them even more... he doesn't want it to happen. Not in this lifetime.
He heavily walked on his way to his bedroom and let himself
sat on the edge of the bed and slide off slowly and lied down on the floor, looking so far away with his heavy wet eyes.

I'm sorry that I never regret going for him. Sungmin cried thinking of what has happened to this incredibly emotional and fateful
day. He recalled what he told Kyuhyun. It was far from what he really
wanted to say to the young man. What he wanted to say are the words he never dare saying out loud in front of him. You're the
only one, Cho Kyuhyun, I'm deeply in love with you.

Donghae looked away and sighed. He doesn't want to hurt his hyung with his words but what Sungmin did to him is beyond betrayal.
He was really disappointed with his hyung, his hyung whom he had always looked up to. His hyung that he has always depended on,
his only family. Right now, he doesn't have anybody at all.

He looked down bitterly as tear fell. Hyung... I hate-.

Despite the most bitter word he has been saying since a while ago. I hate you. He cannot dare say it anymore...

*Author's note: hihihihihi^^ I am so excited to end this
day. Sunday please come soon!!!

For those who will be watching tomorrow's concert, Have
fun!! I look forward to Sunday more... This week is a blessing,
I want 10 more of this coming weekend :D kekekekekeekke^^
Everything is simply offtopic.!

Anyways, I'm working hard to make this fanfic end by the 10th
chapter... I tried to make it less but I can't :(( My weakness is writing
short fics, sorry guys! still, thanks for being anxious about what will
happen next. I don't expect this to break FTR since it was a lot
longer than this. But still, response is not that bad. Thanks a lot!!!

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