"Kyuhyun ah...let's take that ride!" Donghae said as they run towards the roller coaster one sunny afternoon. "Hyung, let's go
together!" he told Sungmin who was following slowly from behind. He doesn't want to join them at all. He's literally a third wheel
right now and is definitely out of place. It has been like that even before but right now... he doesn't feel good about it.

"You guys go ahead, I'll wait for you here." he said. Despite wanting to ride the roller coaster himself, he'd rather stay out
of sight because he doesn't feel good today. He doesn't feel like he is on his real self today. The green-eyed monster of
jealousy is attacking him big time and if he continuously watch the two, he might throw a fit which he doesn't want to happen. He
has seen these kind of act between Donghae and Kyuhyun and yet today he really doesn't feel like wanting to see it. He hates this
day...no he hates that fact that Kyuhyun and Donghae are together this day. Why can't he be the same? on the otherhand... he
knows the answer to his question.

"I think I should go first..." he said making Donghae looked worried. "I don't feel really well today." Kyuhyun just looked at
him showing no expression at all. Donghae walked towards Sungmin.

"You're really sick?" Donghae asked as he approached his hyung, touching his forehead. "You are a bit warm, Hyung, sorry I
dragged you here." he said pouting a bit, using his own cuteness so that his hyung won't feel upset with him.

Sungmin shook his head and looked at the two. "I'll go ahead first. Have fun!" he said trying to make his voice a little bit
livelier.

Donghae nodded and started walking along with Kyuhyun, hands interlaced together. Sungmin looked back and watched them as they
leave him. What's wrong with him today? Huh, he suddenly feels tired of seeing the two happy like that. He also wish to hold
Kyuhyun's hand in public. He also wish to go out with Kyuhyun and have fun outside the room. He also want Kyuhyun to look at
him the way he looks at Donghae in broad daylight. He's becoming greedy for Kyuhyun day by day. But can he really blame anyone?

It was his choice to be the third wheel. It was his choice to be the other person. He could simply ask Kyuhyun to leave Donghae
but how could he? He doesn't want to hurt his brother and yet he wants to be with Kyuhyun, his position is still fine since he
can have both. But at times like this...he really wish he can be a little bit selfish so that Kyuhyun can only be his...solely.

Time passed by and it was already night time. Kyuhyun went out of the lift and saw a crouching man in front of the door of his
condominium opposite of the cctv. He looked at the man gently and crouch down beside him. "Are you ok?"

Sungmin, still crouching and resting his head on his arms, nodded. He slowly slid down and rested his head on the young man's
shoulder. Kyuhyun extended his arm to wrap it around him. With Sungmin's eyes closed, a tear fall.
"jealous?" Kyuhyun asked. Sungmin nodded again. "I also wish we could go out like that sometimes, Min." He said with a gentle
smile while patting his lover's head.

"We can't." he raised his head and looked at Kyuhyun. "I'm fine... I'm just..." he sighed and forced a smile. "forget it."

Kyuhyun stood up and opened the door leading the older inside. Sungmin sat down on the sofa and crouched again. "It's only for
today. Sorry, Kyuhyun ah..." he said with a bitter smile. Feeling like a fool that he admitted that he is jealous only for today
yet they both know its not just today. It's just that he's more vocal that he is jealous today.

"Why are you sorry?" Kyuhyun asked as he pour water on his glass.

"Sorry for being jealous." Sungmin said almost whispering. Kyuhyun offered him the water and smiled shortly as he sat behind
his secret lover. Spreading his legs to wrap Sungmin in his embrace even more. He kissed Sungmin's cheek and rested his own cheek
with the older one's.

"I'm fine with you being jealous like that." Kyuhyun said while resting his head on Sungmin's shoulder. "It's actually quite
weird that you're only admitting you feel jealous now... but I still like that. You look so adorable pouting a while ago."

"I'm not." He met Kyuhyun's eyes and sees himself there. He looked at the young man's face; exploring it, admiring it. "I'm not
suppose to feel jealous."

Kyuhyun rained his cheek with soft kisses as he whispered... "but you are..." Sungmin closed his eyes as the young man's voice
and warm breath gives him shivers. "You know we wouldn't be like this if we tell him about us."

Sungmin opened his eyes and snapped out of Kyuhyun's mind blowing kisses. "You know I can't let us do that."

"Minnie ah...until when are we going to hide this from Donghae?" Kyuhyun asked straightening up.

Sungmin looked away making Kyuhyun realise... "you have no intentions of telling him." the younger sighed as he stood up. "I'm
willing to break up with Donghae, Min... you should know by now that I want to be with you."

"Kyuhyun ah... I don't want Donghae to hate us. You're the only person he loves this much."

"And you? What do you feel about me?" Kyuhyun said. "What are we? What am I to you?" there they go again with the same arguement
they've been having since day one.

"You're-"

"Do not tell me I'm just someone you want to sleep with because that's not true. I know it's not true." Kyuhyun looked at him
smiling bitterly yet mockingly to the older. He hates the thought that they keep on arguing about this and he hates the thought
that he keeps on starting to argue about this because he wants to hear the older man telling him that Sungmin only wants Kyuhyun.
Exactly when is his hyung going to understand that? Even a certain Cho Kyuhyun wants to feel secure about Sungmin's feelings for
him. Sungmin closed his fist as he sighed. They been through this before...

"Maybe it is the truth. Maybe I'm just using you for my own needs."

Kyuhyun looked at him and chuckled. "Really? You should see yourself then when I'm on top of you then. You should hear the way you
call my name whenever I'm inside you."

They looked at each other closely with Sungmin looking at him bitterly. Kyuhyun doesn't feel ashame whenever he say those words
to his hyung. Because it is the truth. He could have wished Sungmin is half honest and straightforward as he is but he knows
Sungmin is too kind-hearted especially when it is a Donghae matter.

"We shouldn't have done this." Sungmin said as he looked down wanting to change the topic of the arguement. This day is not
really a good day for him. If he is a girl he consider this day as a PMS day... he hates it. He hates being like this. He was
never guilty indeed and yet he is right now. Uh, Damn! He's not guilty...he's ing jealous!

"You should have thought of that before you kissed me that night. You should have told me I shouldn't feel anything while taking
you in. We've been sharing this secret for 5 months, Min and yet you only feel guilty now? Because you're jealous? You can just
simply say Kyuhyun-ah break up with Donghae and be with me instead... I would gladly do it."
Kyuhyun was furious with what Sungmin has been acting today and yet he couldn't get himself to hate the older man.

"Kyuhyun ah... he loves you so much... I-"

Kyuhyun kissed Sungmin's lips, pressing his body towards the older. "You love me as well, don't you?" Sungmin freed a tear as he
nodded. "You don't want me to be with Donghae... right?" again Sungmin nodded. Kyuhyun chuckled as he sees Sungmin being honest
and weak when they are this close. He knows his kisses are powerful
enough to make Sungmin surrender to their arguement and his indenial heart. "I love it when you're jealous, I love
it when you want to be greedy for me..." He continuously kiss him leading
them back to the sofa, pressing his everything on the soft material. Kyuhyun touched Sungmin's face, looking at his saddened
eyes.

"We can't make this right, can we?" Sungmin asked. Kyuhyun blinked shortly meeting his eyes. He sighed a bit.

"I don't understand, Min. Why do we have to sacrifice ourselves for someone else's happiness?" Kyuhyun looked at every inches
of Sungmin's face and sigh... "Forget it. As long as I can have you. I'm fine with that."

Sungmin held Kyuhyun's face before hugging the young man tightly. "Sorry, Kyuhyun ah..." sorry I have to keep Donghae with me
as much as I want to keep you.

This mistake... if only he knows how to stop. But how can he? It was a pleasurable mistake that he only regret after he
and Kyuhyun owned each other. This mistake... he only regret when... honestly, he doesn't regret at all. He loves Kyuhyun dearly
and he doesn't want to part with him; even if it means he has to be jealous every single day... even if it means doing it behind
Donghae's back... even if in reality the two of them are nothing but a lie.

*Author's note: Last update for this week ^^... going
for a short short weekend at home. Aish~ I just wish
I can have 2 sets of weekends... I'm quite tired ~.~
Yeah... I've seen Kyuhyun getting jealous before so this
time it's Sungmin's turn.

Any Filipinos here who knows Session Road's song Hiram? hihi...
You better check it out. I started making this fan fic because of it.
For those who are non-Filipino... let me see what I can do to translate
the song hahahha~ probably by the end of this fanfic ^^

Have a good weekend! kekekekekekekee~!^^