The entire ordeal--survival program, ha!--proved to be too difficult to handle. Perhaps it was because they were up against teens that has far more energic body than them, but team A kept losing. Battles not only between the two teams, but somehow JYP too, was beginning to take a toll on his mind. He even messed up the performance in front of JYP himself! Granted, his team knew better than to change the song and expect him to remember lyrics in such little time. They knew he had such a hard time before. He was the type to do things right by repetition. There was simply not enough time.

But he felt like he let everyone down.

He let Mino down.

He was ashamed. He really could not bear the looks s gave him, because he knew now that in such critical times, his actions will impact the whole team. His qualifications might be the reason they lose. He knew, yet he still could not help being stupid.

I'm sorry.

It's okay, they said. You do not have to be so dejected. Everybody make mistakes.

Perhaps they notice the crestfallen look on his face, like a kicked puppy on rainy days. They knew how miserable he would feel, he guess.

But even so, I'm sorry.

No words came out of his mouth that day.

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He found himself getting easily irritated. Slightest noise annoyed him, and members fooling around triggered an almost visible anger. He knew it was illogical, but now that he has a target he must reach, he found that he might not be as nice as he thought.

"What's wrong?" Mino asked him. Behind all the rolling cameras, Mino showed his concern honestly. It was heartwarming, knowing that he still think of him in such hard times. Jinwoo was fondly exasperated, because he knew he could never let go and let his feelings loose. This idol mask that was made for the public, to hide his nerve and lackings, no