like i predicted, you were upset about being paralyzed.

you tried your hardest to not cry.

i hugged you and rocked you.

kissed your head and your lips.

i could feel jongdae's stare on us.

later, he pulled me aside.

"are you staying with him?" he asked.

a lump rose in my throat.

i could only shrug.

he sighed then. "my feelings for you haven't changed, baek. you need to decide between the both of us."

and he walked away.

i felt my eyes burn and tears fall again. 

how am i supposed to do that when i love you both?