This is how people live in this crucial world. They said bad things about their friends, boss, or colleague. They complaint about their school and workplace. But after all  , only the mouth do the talking .They still friends with their friend, work with their boss and have a lunch with their colleague . They still work at the same place , studying at the same school . Do nothing about it and just keep talking and complaint . And that is the nature rule in order to live in peace in this world. I am one of them .

   I keep thinking, talking to myself, hating myself, hating Khun , hating looking at his no-more-alien-to-me blackberry. And I still did not do anything. My brain works, my heart speaks but my body is just dead. No action. I feel stupid. I feel embarrassed to talk to Khun about what had happen. What will he think about me? This is a very bad impression . I am so embarrassed I rather change my personality and change my name. He made a promise that we are going to meet this weekend. Yeah! I just remembered that! cool. No news until I meet him this weekend. No big deal. I smile remembering how cute Khun is, how his voice makes me Goosebumps, the look at his face when I knew me and say Victoria? He is a guardian angel who comes to planet earth and taking care off all human being under his wing. Wait, should I google him?  Is that so much? What will I get once I google him ? I don’t want to know him. I just, he just, we just happen to know each other. Great, the ‘people who live in the crucial world’ starts to think ridiculously again.

   Oh Vicky, why do you want to think about Khun ? Jonghun is here all the time right ?  Haha! Its not like im going to be with Khun anyway, ‘Jonghun!’ Jonghun, my childhood friend for 18 years who has been my brother and best friend. Its been awhile since I see him. Its good to hang out and catch up with each other’s story. So I decide to call him. Err, Khun , allow me to use your phone okay ? Thanks ! 

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   Khun knew it was her. It was Vicky . At the moment she walked into the room. Why did she came ? Is she a fan ? If she does he’s in trouble . But if she doesn’t, he’s in trouble too . ‘I need to meet her.’ Khun thought ASAP. She knew who Khun is. His secret, his life is with her now.

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   I see Jonghun from far sitting comfortably at the Starbucks couch . His hair is getting longer , afret 2 weeks we’ve met . His spectacles framed his big bright eyes , his pink pale lips are always pink and pale. He is wearing a loose jeans and a black t-shirt.  Seeing Jonghun today reminds me of Lee Dong Wook In Lover’s In Paris. Wait , Dong Wook is in that drama ?? I must go crazy .

   I meet him and kiss him on his cheek.  It’s a pleasure to meet him . He has never been in a relationship before ., maybe once or twice. He is just so perfect  I wonder why girls don’t want him . The thing about Jonghun is he is so caring , the best brother and friend I have ever had . We share basically everything and anything . But ! Khun is a secret, that is not anything. Shut your mouth Vicky. Don’t ever say a word anything related to it.

   ‘Hye Vicky , I miss you ‘

   ‘Miss you too.’ I ordered a coffee and sit comfortably in front of him .

   ‘So , you’ve change your number ? ‘ Jonghun ask looking at me .

   ‘ Me? No! why’d you say that ?’

   ‘Well you called me and that’s your number , or is it ?

    Great great great  . That’s one thing about Jonghun that I cant stand. He’s like a queen control . Oh chilex Vicky ! He’s only ask about your number. What’s the big deal ?

   ‘I’ve lost my phone. Someone took mine, and I take his phone. So , in the mean time , I use his phone. Not that I use his blackberry like I use mine.’ I don’t realized that I babbled after I see his confuse blank face , probably don’t understand what I’m talking about, I continue,  ‘Never mind , I’m gonna meet him and return his phone in another 3 days.’

   ‘Why in another 3 days ? why not now ? I mean , he can be a bad guy or something.’

   ‘He is busy . And he is not a bad guy or something okay ?’ Yeah , we are talking about things that I don’t want to. 1 for Jonghun , nada for me .

    ‘So you know him,I guess’

   ‘Why not ? Everyone should have know him’ . Vicky. You and your big mouth ! just shut up already ! .

   ‘By the way , how’s your job haunting ? Getting any ?’

I manage to get Jonghun distracted. I appreciate his kindness wanting to know what’s

Going on with my life. But no Not with Khunnie. I respect him .Its a secret that we promise. I wonder why I am thinking a lot about Khun lately. I try to get rid of the thought. He might not ever thinking about me. He is always busy and always forget. Forget to call me as Vicky. So why would I keep thinking about him ?