I have no idea that Khun is a famous singer. I have no idea that Khun is a macho tough man in the poster. The fans have no idea I have Khun’s blackberry . So his name is Nichkhun, Khun, Khunnie,. So i can easily track him by google on the internet. He is on the wikipidea. My heart beats so fast , I cant barely think. My eyes literally staring at the stage, not looking at 2PM who is performing. Maybe i just can act normal as if i dont know Khun is Nichkhun 2PM. He is jut a normal guy that i know . Oh crap! Backstage pass! I really dont want to meet Khun here. yes, i want to meet him. But not here , not when i knew that he is a superstar. Not when he knows that i come here to watch him. Not. Please. Amber !!

       ‘Amber?’ she cant hear me.She is sing along with other fans with 2PM . ‘Everything happens for a reason-’ Amber sing with her hands up in the air holding the lightstick . I am not going to tell Amber that I know Khun . I just have to make an excuse , not to go with her for backstage pass after the concert. Gosh Amber, i really need to go out from here. This is a very bad idea but I can’t say that to her. Amber seems enjoying herself, I cant let her down .Mayybe i just wait until the concert is over and tell her that i’m not going with her meeting 2PM. i’m so nervous, i cant think straight. The 2 hours concert feels like 10 hours.

     So whatever it is, I have to get out of here and not going to get t get this one in a million chance to meet the popstars 2PM. Well, i am not the hottest ,is that what the fans call themselves ? I am not even hot. The boys said Thank You already ? it ended ? Think Vicky, think. Why cant my brain works when i really need it ? Rilex Vicky ! Now you know that Khun is not a criminal or a spy. Well, if he is a spy, he would be a very hot spicy oh-la-la! spy. Oh Vicky it is not the time for that !  Think straight. Meet him, say hye to the members and off you go ! free! realese! But it could be wierd to ask for my phone in front of s including Amber. Gosh! where is my Einstien super genius brain ? Work properly Work properly. . my legs are following Amber to the back of the stage. Speak Vicky. speak !

    ‘Amber, toilet need go urgent ! ’ She’s not listening. Do i have to speak clearly ?i am speaking loud and clear !

   ‘Amber, can you wait for a sec? i need to - ‘

   ‘Yes! we have passes to meet them ! ’ what is up with Amber’s happy face ? Cant she hear me ? Oh great, we are already at the backstage.Why is it hot in here ? Fprget about all this shall we Vicky ? He cant really remember how do i look like right ? confident ! Act like you know them! You love them !

    ‘They are in this room. You can sit there and have a chit chat or whatever okay ? Have fun guys’ A guy lead us to 2PM room. Err should backstage pass be like this ? Oh well. The guy open the door. I feel like he opened it slowly, like a slow motion version. Then , i see, one by one, members of 2PM. They are looking at us.Wouldnt it be wierd to be in this situation ? Kill me please. The door is now wide open and suprisingly they stand up and together say ‘Hye! we are 2PM!’ one of them say ’ Come in! Make youself comfortable.this place is a mess,full with Taec’s stuff!’ One who i believe is Taec, pushing the guy away and come towards us. He takes Amber’s hand and kiss it .And i wonder how other fans would react if they saw this kising on the hand scene. Amber really wants to take advantageby hugging and chatting with the members. Seriously, am i really this invisible ? No one seems to noticed me. ! Amber forgets the world already ? She forgets that i am here, forced to come to this uselss backstage to meet them ? Not to mention Khun ? When his name came through my mind, Khun is infront of me. He is staring blankly at my face as if there’s a huge hole on my face. Will he come and say something ? Will he come and straight away give me my blackberry without other noticing or will he come and -

   ‘Do i know you ? ’ Oh. My. God. Khun, is that the only thing you can say ?

    ‘Excuse me ? ‘ I feel insulted.

    ‘I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to. I just, that your face look so familiar and it feels like i owe something from you. ’ He come closer . I feel so uncomfortable. I’m afraid others will see us. Or Amber will explode.

    ‘Vicky. If you can remember.’

    ‘Victoria?’ He smiled. A shock looking smile like he’s trying to tell me ‘Ha! You know me! And you are my biggest fan ! ‘

And i left . I left the room. Why wouldnt I ?