Is this thing on?

(TAP TAP)

Um, ow. Okay, yup, it's definitely .

Um, hi, I guess. I'm Park Jimin, and I probably look insane right now to the people on this truck with me, but I guess that's okay. It's not like I can understand a word they're saying anyway.

I'm recording this on a cheap recorder that I bought at the airport while being rushed to the boarding gate. Which led me to a huge airplane, which led me here.

Wherever the heck "here" is. Which I'm pretty sure could be described as "the middle of nowhere".

I know I'm in Mongolia, and I know why I'm here.

I'm here because I and two other BTS members panicked.

I'm not proud of that fact. Which is probably why I bought this recording device, if I don't talk my thoughts out I'm gonna go nuts.

YoonGi-hyung and NamJoon-hyung would be able to come up with some sort of song lyrics or poem here. I'm not them, so I'll bull it. What? It's not like anyone's here to yell at me.

Anyway. So after that night - was it really only a few days ago? - after the ceremony.

People died because of us. Of course I panicked! I didn't think!

(sigh) Yeah, I know, I should have been more calm.

I wish someone else had said something. Maybe I would have calmed down then.

But no one did, which is why I'm sitting in the back of a pickup truck in Mongolia, going to live on a farm where no