March 2007

My Joohyun,

Congratulations on finishing middle school and welcome to High School were people pretend to be who they are not! I hope you enjoy your stay! Hahahahaha I’m sorry I was only able to write you now, I am really swamp what with all the afternoon practice and prepping up for senior year. It’s settled Joohyun, I will be enlisting after highschool , Jonghyun as soon as he turned 18 will follow same with Jungshin and Minhyuk. I’m scared really. I feel like everything is happening all at the same time and I’m just a mere spectator even if I’m the one experiencing it. I feel like I can stop it but I can’t. It’s surreal. But we are here, why not make the best out of it. Thank you for your assurance and your strength, I’m able to endure things wells. You know that you are the only one I can share my burdens with. I’m sorry If all you read from me are my personal issues and problems. Do you know that contracts have date clause? I spoke to a senior trainee who is about to debut and he told me about a date clause. Hahahaha it’s true after all, oh well, it’s not like I have time to date…I barely have time to sleep!

So you’re leaving right after highschool? Will we ever see each other? Wouldn’t it be hard for you to live alone in a foreign country? I’m not undermining your capabilities of fending for yourself it’s just that, you’re a girl and well, wouldn’t it be dangerous? Why can’t you just study here in korea? Or accept